Today I saw a question like this,” when you are away from home, what is an important thing that you miss the most? “
For the topic, I don’t know how I should explain my complex emotion. I grew up in an unhappy family. My parents often fought like cat and dog. When I was a child, as long as they quarreled, I was like a puppy dog eyes to beg them stopping, but it almost didn’t work. They lived like this for more than thirty years. Now they are almost sixty years old, their relationships often defeated me. I desired that I had a happy family and my parents had a good relationship, but I was not able to change them. Since I graduated from the college, I have been working in Huizhou for more than ten years. I seldom returned to my home, but I always worried about them.
In the past many years, I often worshiped Goddess of Mercy and hoped them to help me improving my parents’ relationships. However, my parent’s relationship not only was not improved, but also they submitted the report to apply for divorce. I was too frightened to confront the facts. I always wanted to escape reality to avoid the restress they gave. Maybe many friends thought that I didn’t have to pay more attention to their relationships as an adult, and they should have their lives. However, it’s very difficult for them. I am their only child. I was required by them to do different things I hated. For example, my mother didn’t like to see that I had a good relationship with my father, but my father thought I should support him to persuade my mother’s mistakes. To be honest, in my eyes, they are both my loved ones. I couldn’t choose anyone to hate or ignore. Because of this, I often fell in fear and even I wanted to kill myself.
Thank God for doing great things in my life. Since I became a Christian last year, I prayed for my parents’ relationships every day. Two months later, I was glad to hear that their relationship was improved. Frankly, I had waited for this day for more than thirty years. During my life, my important thing I miss the most is that my parents have a happy life. In this way, I’ll only be relaxed during my work. For my loved ones, now I still insist in praying for their live and relationships every day…
