Time is really off so fast, the beginning of the 2019 calendar, not how to turn, now it has turned to the papers in 2020.
2019 year-end summary, at the end when he wanted to write, but that time has been busy with other things, until now. Taking advantage of the last weekend before the Spring Festival, look at 2019, 2020, set a way to give a few Flag .
Review 2019
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2019, as the development of the third year, only knew from a CRUD little rookie, will slowly become old rookie point technology.
This year is my second year of entry, in the year through several relatively large projects, several times into the dark room , get through a few times overnight. I have to say, really old, after the previous night, the next day sleep, but also lively up, now, hey. . . .
But this year's harvest is indeed Titus. Prior to this module is only responsible for their own understanding, the process for the entire link, it can be said is not very clear. After several projects, contact with a number of different modules, getting to know the entire process. This is also one of the goals I established 2019 years ago.
In addition there is a change in 2019, is no longer exclusive to write design documents. For the previous write design documents, large head, and my heart from the very exclusive. Prior has not recognized the importance of design documents, no matter what the demand, direct line and up code. Often written half of the time, only to find there is a problem write the code as a whole logic, no way can only be pushed to come back. This could also be the most likely to commit a lot of novice questions.
Just started writing design documents of the time, to be honest I do not know how to write, others can only refer to the documentation slowly to imitate. Really hard to start, but after the road, slowly adapt to this rhythm. Now, after accepting a project, I will first complete the design documents, in the process, need to analyze logic, reason clearly the process. Also understand the need to go to add / change, impact on prior logic. Things to consider pre changed much, until the development of the design documentation in accordance with logic to it just fine, this time writing code really becomes moving bricks only.
最后真的挺感谢我的 Leader，这一年给我机会负责这些项目。
坚持不断输出
聊完工作，生活上，2019 年做的最有意义的一件事就是坚持写作，不断持续输出。翻了一下 2019 年的写作记录，真没想到这一年写了 50 多篇，也算完成年初一半的目标。
想想年初的时候真的不知道深浅，立下这个 flag 。
刚开始写作的时候，对于我来说真的挺难的。第一不知道写些什么，第二不知道怎么去写。有时候一个下午，坐在电脑前，写写删删，也就完成一两百个字。这种时候真的挺打击的，感觉自己真的很菜。这时候几度放弃，直接合上电脑。可是不甘心就这么放弃，磨磨蹭蹭，艰难继续产出着。
虽然很难，但是收获真的挺大。
在没有写作之前，我没有什么记录的习惯。碰到的问题，研究过，解决过，总以为自己懂了，记住了。可是等到过来一段时间，我才发现我对这个问题只有模糊的记忆，我知道这样有问题，却想不起来到底什么导致的。这时我才发现，我的记忆力可能并没有自己想象的这么好。通过写作，不但沉淀了学到的知识，即使后面忘记了这个问题，也能通过文章快速回忆起来。
写作也是一个知识不断扩展的过程。自己了解跟写出来让别人也了解，完全就是两码事。有时候动手去写的时候，才发现只是懂个皮毛而已。为了能让读者读懂文章，需要不断深入挖掘。这个过程是痛苦的，挖着挖着就碰到其他硬茬。没办法，需要停下来一个个去解决。解决的过程，有可能就有了下一篇文章的选题，然后再去深挖这个知识点，这样就形成一个正向循环过程。
写作其实也是一个自我认知的过程。有段时间，自以为看过一点源码，就觉得自己很了解这个框架，内心十分膨胀。现在回想起来自己那时候正处于达克效应中愚昧山峰上坡的地方，错误认为自己比真实情况更优秀。
幸好，通过写作，让我从愚昧山峰下来，慢慢从走上开悟之坡。
持续健身
2019 另外一件持续在在做的事就是健身了。
说起来健身，不，对于我来说应该只是单纯的跑步。本来希望通过跑步，将体重减到 65KG。哎，跑了一年，现在体重维持在 70KG。说起来还是挺失败的，现在想想，主要还是管不住嘴。乐观点看，通过跑步抵住增量的体重，恩，不错不错。
公众号
2018 年底的时候开始写作的时候，决定了运营一个公众号。通过这一年运营，恩，挺失败的。自我觉得失败原因在于:
- 对自己预期太高，高估自己的能力
- 不会运营，或者说心里有点排斥去运营，总觉得作为程序员学这些技能有什么用。这也是自己的一个视野盲区，不愿走出这个舒适圈
- 内心还是太羞涩，都不敢去分享自己的文章，总是觉得自己写的挺差的，害怕被别人鄙视
展望 2020
聊完 2019 ，展望 2020 。
工作
年底跟 Leader 聊天的时候透露 2020 年希望我能负责整个系统。说实话刚开始听到的时候，我有点本能抗拒，又有点害怕。第一我觉得我能力还不足，第二负责整个系统，需要管很多事，压力会比之前大很多。
但是这也是一个很好的机会，一个可以增长自己软实力的，另外还可以增加自己管理能力，这些能力正是我目前所欠缺的。
机遇与挑战并存，消除恐惧的最好的办法就是面对恐惧，奥利给~
走出去
作为程序员，我觉得我自己还是太宅，视野太小，只关注技术那些事。2020 年，我想打破这个次元壁，走出去，去认识非技术圈的朋友，去了解其他职业，如运营，产品等。
另外，正如我 Leader 跟我说一样，年轻人需要多表现一下自己。你不去展现的自己的能力，别人可能并不会认同你的。2020 年，多去表现出自己能力，让更多人认识我，认同我。
写作
Continue to adhere to writing, and constantly outputs. Currently always write technical articles, 2020, increase the number of non-technical articles on a number of insights, ideas and so on. Also now is not good writing, article writing will be boring. Also you need to learn writing skills, learn from other great authors.
sideline
At present, all I have sources of income and corporate wage income, source of income is very simple. This is actually quite scary, in case the company down, or he did not competitive, you lose a source of income.
2019, when, through writing, adding @ pure smile organizations Java geeks technology team, currently short of several articles of the team will be able to officially join. Through this opportunity, the real number of public operators to learn, then learn to Trader own public number.
Well, this is my end of 2019, thank you can see here. 2020 continue to fuel, to Orly -
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