Poor but strong, the ambition not to fall into the sky——Recalling my four years in college

I. Introduction

A person with low self-esteem, how to get out of the predicament, my four years in college may inspire you.

Don't care about other people's eyes, don't always look at other people's lives, regret your choices, stick to what you think is right, and do what you want. Life has no fixed track, no matter what way you choose to live, as long as you have a strong heart, you can be wonderful. What matters is what you want and what you have done on the path you choose.

2. Before university

Before I officially write this article, I still want to uncover some scars that I have been reluctant to mention to others before. These things are not even known to my parents, and have been buried deep in my heart. These things affected me a lot.

Only by knowing these things can I understand some of the changes I made in college and the reasons for doing them.

In the university, what changed was not only the naive appearance at the time, but also the gradually strengthening heart.

1. Childhood experience and family difficulties

I was born in a small village in Yiwu, Zhejiang Province. At that time, my family was poor, and my grandparents and parents were very frugal. They also instilled in me this concept since I was a child. If my family is poor, I should save money. Every expense of oneself must be reported to parents. Since I was a child, I didn’t have any pocket money, and I handed in all the red envelopes during the year, and my living expenses were very tight when I was in school.

As the saying goes, if you are poor, no one cares about you in the busy city, but if you are rich, you have distant relatives in the mountains. There is also a lot of sophistication in getting along with relatives and friends. The relatives on my father's side have an atmosphere of comparison. In my memory, our family is often looked down upon by others, and many very troublesome things will happen during this.

When I was in middle school and high school, there were a lot of changes in my family.
I remember very clearly that when I came home from school before the senior high school entrance examination, my mother sat alone in the dark bedroom and told me that my father was locked up because my father borrowed more than 100,000 yuan earlier (this is basically Our family has a small amount of savings for more than ten years), but we had no choice but to meet Lao Lai, and even if we won the lawsuit, we couldn’t get it back. My father was so angry that he locked him up with a few people who also lent him money , and the defendant was brought to court, and the father and the others were arrested.

Although I had a lot of questions at the time, they were all suppressed by me. My only thought was to study hard and give my family a sigh of relief!

Perhaps it was because of this reason that I, who used to be only in No. 2 Middle School at most, performed exceptionally well in the senior high school entrance examination and was admitted to the best local high school——Yiwu Middle School. news.

During that time, accidents happened one after another. Unfortunately, my aunt, who knew me best, was found to be suffering from uremia. Because she didn’t want to burden the family, she moved back from the hospital for treatment. I still remember my aunt doing dialysis alone in a small room. In less than a year, my aunt passed away, leaving behind my cousin who was still in kindergarten.

And the grandparents who loved me the most also passed away one after another due to illness. I still remember my grandmother lying on the bed "skinny" before she was alive. I was so scared that I froze in place. I have been staying at my uncle's house to take care of my grandparents and cousin. Up to now, my mother has also stayed there to take care of my cousin, and I understand this very well.
Because in my impression, the relationship between my mother and my grandparents is very, very good. When our family was in trouble, my grandma, who could not make much money, secretly gave me a red envelope and said that it would be urgently needed for our family, and my mother also repaid my grandpa with actions. Grandma's nurturing grace, it is worth mentioning that my mother's hair has grayed a lot during the years of taking care of grandpa and grandma.

2. The root of everything - low self-esteem

What I said above is not to win sympathy, but to explain the root of my inferiority complex. Growing up in the above environment, I gradually began to feel inferior. This feeling is even stronger in Yiwu where there are so many "rich people". is particularly obvious.

Afraid of dinner parties, afraid of classmates seeing my father and the truck that picks me up when commuting to and from school, afraid of being looked down upon by others ...

At the age of immature mind at that time, this was the truest inner portrayal at that time.

3. Unpleasant middle and high school experience

Because of low self-esteem, and I was relatively thin at the time. I thought I could just read a book honestly at school, but I never thought that school is still a small society, and what's worse, I'm still with a group of immature people.

When I was in junior high school, I began to suffer from that kind of "campus bullying". In the eyes of those villains, it was just a prank for fun, but when it happened to me, it was so painful.
When I met that kind of bully in junior high school, I like to lock others on the balcony every time before turning off the lights, or watch a few people "duel", or hide a few things from you, or Aruba...

At that time, I really had an urge to sleep at night, a kind of thought-"kill them!", you heard me right, at that immature age, I really had this kind of thought, and it was my countless thoughts. Thoughts I've had for the first time.

Fortunately, our junior high school head teacher was very responsible. For me, she is not only the imparter of knowledge, but also the mentor of my life. To a certain extent, she helped me solve the problem of bullies. Here I am very, very grateful to her. The reason for the visit.

The experience in high school was not pleasant either. In addition to going from the top of the class to the bottom of the class now, it was more because of campus bullying.

Of course, there has been no real campus bullying since high school, maybe because I went to Yiwu Middle School and was surrounded by bullies, everyone started to become "smarter".

There is very little physical friction in the true sense, and more so-called pranks, isolation, and verbal insults and taunts.

The original method of "successing the teacher" has also become useless. One reason is that our class teacher at the time was a college student who just graduated, and he couldn't control us at all. His prestige was relatively low, and he didn't pay attention to things other than study; One reason is that my grades were not ranked well at the time, and I was a poor student in the eyes of the teacher; another reason is that the students became "smart" and began to confuse black and white and talk nonsense.

3. Freshman year: the so-called dream pursuit - the starting point of change

1. Sensitive and inferior heart

When I first entered the university, I was very new to everything, and I was very yearning for the future university life.
But when I saw the students who talked eloquently when they introduced themselves in class meetings, and the students who communicated confidently and fluently with foreign teachers in English class, I couldn't help but feel disappointed.

The heart of low self-esteem is often fragile and sensitive. Some ordinary scenes often make me fall into self-doubt, doubt my ability, doubt my ordinaryness, this kind of doubt makes me fall into that kind of endless anxiety. Just like what I said in the article summarizing my freshman year - "I thought a lot during that time, I thought a lot. I had doubts about my abilities, and I was confused about the future. The anxiety during that time even made me fall into Fear of the future. I am afraid that I will continue to be so mediocre, I am unwilling!"

Fortunately, my past experience has convinced me that people are like a tight string. No matter how many setbacks you have, as long as you persevere, you will be reborn with a more high-spirited attitude in the future .

After thinking about it during that period of time, I figured it out. Instead of being so anxious, it is better to do something and make some changes. At that time, I decided - I can't waste my college life, I have to make my college wonderful, I have to leave a memory full of blood and passion, and I can't leave regrets!

2. Hundred regiment battles, and an indissoluble bond with the association

Not long after the start of the school year, the school started its annual club recruiting activity—Hundred Regiment Wars. Out of the desire to "change" myself, different from other students, I joined several academic clubs, one of which was software service outsourcing Association (later when I was the president, it was renamed the Software Design and Innovation Association, of course, these are things to come).
And this is also the beginning of my indissoluble bond with the association. I especially remember the fearful appearance when I joined the association, and I can't help but sigh.

3. Opportunity for change - Chasing Dream App

In the first semester of freshman year, the registration for the school’s Internet + Innovation and Entrepreneurship Competition started. At that time, I thought in my heart that this is not an opportunity to change myself. How to make a valuable thing based on my own professional skills. In my limited knowledge at the time, App became a good carrier.
So at that time, there was a social software for college students to encourage each other, and the name was Chasing Dreams, and this is my truest voice.

At that time, this idea was also discussed in the association group.

In fact, looking back at myself at that time now, I can’t help but feel that I was a bit naive and naive, but fortunately, the president and seniors at that time did not think these were naive and ridiculous. On the contrary, they helped them very seriously. I analyze.

Maybe until now, I will not make such a hasty decision. I may rationally analyze the difficulty of doing this, and then set a reasonable goal. But if it wasn't for the "youthful spirit" back then, how could I be where I am today? In fact, I have to thank myself back then.

4. Continuous learning, love creates change

Once you have goals, you need to learn the techniques to achieve them.
At that time, I happened to be learning the C language course, so I was immersed in the learning of C language during the National Day holiday.

Relying on the strength of not admitting defeat, during the National Day holiday when everyone was playing, I finished learning C language by myself. And thus started my programming journey. Looking back at the news I once posted, I can't help but sigh the innocence and love at that time.

After learning the c language, I started to look for what is needed to make an app. At that time, Java was still the mainstream language on the Android side, so I started watching videos to learn Java by myself. In fact, I didn't think so much at the time, I just searched for information on the Internet, and finally chose the teaching video of Shangxuetang on station b. And my early "self-study" started from here.

At that time, I studied very "crazily" and eagerly. I spent most of my time on study, and pictures and texts became my long-term residence.

How crazy was it then? Even when eating or on the road, I wear headphones and listen to teaching videos to learn, just because I don't want to waste a little time.

During the winter vacation, I made a plan for myself, and I had to complete the task of clocking in every day. At that time, I even posted it on QQ space.

It is this kind of love that motivates me to keep learning, keep improving, and explore in the ocean of computers.

In addition to crazy study, I also often hang out in various technical forums and websites. In the process, I also learned some better study habits, such as taking notes and writing blog posts. The first blog post, and then it got out of hand.

5. Make a blogging site of your own

It must be cool to have your own blog site, I think every technical person has such an idea more or less.
So I used what I learned to write and deploy my own personal blog following a teaching video at station b, and added some new functions.
And this is the origin of this article Personal blog (SpringBoot, SSM, thymeleaf, Semantic UI) - one-stop teaching from design ideas to deployment

When working on this project, I can't remember how many pitfalls I stepped on, but with that strength, I just overcame them one by one.

6. Join the Software Innovation Lab

In the summer vacation of my freshman year, I participated in the summer training organized by the association, and the purpose of the training was to recruit new members for the software innovation laboratory.
After studying hard in my freshman year, I joined the laboratory with almost full marks.

4. Sophomore year: set sail, ideal and reality

In 2020, the epidemic has swept across. Half a year of home study has allowed me to study at home crazily. What has changed is not only the knowledge and skills, but also the increasingly powerful heart.

1. Show off

The precipitation of freshman year made me gradually start to show my talents. In the short-semester course, I won the big homework project with high scores.
In the Java course of the sophomore year, I obtained the "privilege" of listening to the teacher's permission by virtue of what I learned in the freshman year.
In some coursework, I also gained the teacher's affirmation.

I also gained a lot of fans on the csdn blog, and also received many private messages from my classmates.

In addition to my studies, in my sophomore year, I made my first pot of gold by relying on technology, and I also won my first scholarship.

2. The figure of the laboratory

Since I joined the laboratory, my learning position has shifted from graphics to the laboratory. I spent the second National Day holiday of the university in the laboratory.

This year, I have been teaching in the laboratory and the association.

It's hard to imagine that the me talking on the stage at this time is the same person who was trembling when I introduced myself at the class meeting two years ago.

In addition to teaching, there are also many activities in the laboratory to create a learning atmosphere for students, such as study groups, old-timers and newcomers, blog post selection and so on.

I am often included in the blog post selection, so I got a small gift from the laboratory (pillow + customized happy water)

3. Thinking about dreams

Remember when the dream started?
Dream Chasing App came to its end due to various reasons. The long-distance boat finally stopped completely due to lack of power, and the project was finally handed in as a semi-finished product.
The reason is not detailed here, if you are interested, you can read the article [One Year Summary] Remembering my sophomore life .

I have also written about these in the article, and looking back now, these words are still not outdated.

Dream, a word that is talked about by people, its existence has inspired many people who are struggling.
Looking back on my year, the dream really gave me a lot of motivation. It can still inspire me to move forward in my most difficult moments, and it can also show me a way forward when I am confused. Dreams can indeed change a person.

However, I often think about another question - what is a dream?

I came across an article by chance, which said

"Opening the encyclopedia of time travel, there is a sentence that I remember deeply. What is a dream, please answer this question. It was a hopeful morning. A teenager answered this question, which made the audience screen Hold your breath, and then applause. Dreams are ambitions! Looking at the mountains in the distance with hopeful eyes, those eyes seem to make everyone remember the color of that morning."

This passage made me feel deeply. Looking back at the starting point of my dream, perhaps it was the unwillingness to be ordinary and wanting to change myself that gave birth to the seeds of the Dream Chasing App and took root over time. But I don't like to use the word ambition to describe dreams. Because in my eyes, a dream should be a noble thing, and the original intention of the dream is not for power or profit. The original intention of the dream should come from the kind of self-change from the bottom of the heart.

Maybe the dream is far away, maybe the dream will make people laugh, just like I wanted to make an app when I didn't even know the front and back ends, but, friends in front of the screen, I hope you can choose to persevere and struggle like me , even if you meet the ridicule of the people around you, even if you encounter great difficulties and setbacks, even if the end of your dream is failure, so what? At least you have worked hard and struggled once, and the footprints and sweat in the past have witnessed your growth. When you look back at the former you, you will find that you have been transformed.

The reason why a dream is beautiful does not lie in how great the goal is, but in the process of fighting for it.

And enjoying the process is exactly what we need to do.

I have asked myself countless nights: what is my dream? Really make a dream app? What is the purpose of making Dream Chaser App?

I have thought about these questions for a long time, and it has always been difficult for me to answer them. But I know in my heart that the Dream Chaser App may not be my real dream, it can only be regarded as a goal, a goal to realize my dream. It is more of a carrier, and my feeling for it is actually more of an obsession, the kind of obsession that does not stop until it is made.

So what is my dream? What do I want to live like?

I don't know how to answer, I just know - all I do is for those who love me and the people I love, in order not to let them down, in order to protect them in the future, in order to be able to repay the help Those who have passed me, in order to be able to help those who have experienced suffering within their ability in the future.

4. Hit the wall, ideal and reality

The once passionate teenager also gradually discovered some cruel inside stories of the competition. The so-called high-level events are just packaged, the so-called "ancestral events" are just changed names, and the contestants don't even know a little bit of technology. At that time, I was aggrieved and wrote an article - the world is cold, and the world is not worth it (I have a feeling for sorting out the competition materials) .

At that time, I couldn't help scoffing at the inside story of some "PPT contests", so I decided not to participate.

It was only later that I found out that the game was just a glimpse of the leopard.
Not all places have fairness. It can even be said that you should cherish the so-called fair environment created for you, because the reality is that there will be all kinds of unsatisfactory and unfair.

This is true on campus and even more so in society. I have also complained and fought, but in the end I can only stay away. I can't change other people, all I can do is to ensure that I don't get along with them.

5. Learning is endless, search up and down

Relying on the sharing of seniors and sisters, I also understood the importance of internships, so I submitted my resume when I was in my sophomore year.

I thought I had learned a lot, but when I came to the byte side full of confidence, I was "hanged" by the interviewer. Recalling the original interview, I couldn't bear to look directly at it. Basically, I asked three questions. At that time, I wanted to find a seam to drill in.

After torture on the byte side, I also understood the importance of the underlying foundation. In the days to come, I also settled down to delve into the underlying knowledge, and I also did a lot of algorithm questions.

In addition, I participated in the 2021 Huawei Software Elite Challenge held by Huawei in the second semester of my sophomore year. After seven consecutive days of hard work and improvement, although I did not enter the semi-finals, I also won the third prize.

5. Junior year: experience, breakthrough, and apply what you have learned to practice

1. The person in charge and president of the laboratory?

In the blink of an eye, I was in my junior year, and the laboratory also ushered in a general election. With my hard work during my sophomore year, I was also successfully elected as the new leader of the laboratory and the president of the association.

Every summer vacation when the term is changed, we will start to plan for the new recruitment of the laboratory, just like the seniors and sisters recruited us in the previous term. I still remember the recruiting of the year, and I still have the last session Long-haired lab admission email.

In the spirit of inheritance, I also want to recruit new labs for this year, and I have worked hard for this.

From course planning, personnel arrangement, recruitment publicity, to attendance, teaching, inviting outstanding seniors and sisters from the laboratory to share, to the final homework grading and statistics, the smooth progress of all this is inseparable from the joint efforts of the laboratory members.

I still remember that when the association was recruiting new recruits, because we were a technology association, we didn’t have much talent to show off, and silently “set up a stall” together with the acm association and the network security association next to it.

Although there are not many people, there are also some students who love technology to come forward to consult. From these students, you can more or less see the shadow of yourself back then.

In my junior year, I also organized some activities, such as the laboratory team building at the beginning of the semester, and also followed some rules and activities from the previous session, such as study groups, a technical blog post every two weeks, and so on.

I was also responsible for the publicity of some competitions and lectures and Q&As, such as Service Creation, Software Cup and so on.

2. Technology landing practice - Majia Environmental Internet of Things platform

During the summer vacation of my sophomore year, I started to be in charge of a school-enterprise cooperation project, or an enterprise outsourcing project - Majia Environmental IoT Platform.
From requirement analysis, overall design, R&D and deployment, it took me 3 months to finally complete the project and iteratively update it in the next 2 months.

[Project Summary] Majia Environmental Internet of Things Platform

And this also made me feel the value of technology again. This is also the first time I have put the knowledge I have learned into real corporate practice.

3. Bytedance Youth Training Camp

When I was in my junior year, I also participated in the advanced class of the third back-end youth training camp held by ByteDance. It talks about a lot of knowledge and experience that cannot be learned in schools, including go language, architecture design, enterprise R & D process and so on.

The more interesting thing is to form a team to do the project. At that time, a six-person team was also formed to complete the final big homework project-design and implement a search engine, and I also served as the captain.

At that time, we also collected information and studied little by little, and then divided up the work and cooperated, exchanged and discussed together when encountering difficulties, and helped solve problems together. Looking back now, it was really a great cooperation experience, and I was very lucky to meet such a group of friends who worked hard together.

4. Spring recruitment internship job search

From March of my junior year, I started looking for a summer internship. Unfortunately, this process hit a wall everywhere. This also made me realize some of my shortcomings. After the interview, I would review the technical points mentioned in the interview and review what I did not do well.

In this process, I kept improving myself, and finally got a summer internship offer from Tencent Yunzhi.

5. Getting started with fitness

Besides studying, I became obsessed with sports, especially fitness.
In the beginning, my "fitness" was just running, doing push-ups, abdominal crunches and other self-weight training, and it was the kind of fishing for three days and drying the net for two days, and I didn't pay attention to my diet, which led to small abdomen.

Later, I reached an agreement with my little partner - fitness, and since then I started my dormitory fitness journey, and this is also my first formal introduction to fitness.

In the days to come, I was out of control, of course, this is something for another time.

Sixth, senior year: There is no eternal harbor, and the wheat will finally be harvested

In my senior year, I spent most of my time traveling abroad for internships, and this year I hardly asked my parents for a penny, including tuition fees, which I paid by myself. I have gained a lot during the internship, and I am very grateful for the people and things I have met along the way. The journey has allowed me to see the prosperity of the world, and at the same time, I cherish everything I have.

1. The first trip

In the summer vacation of 2022, I embarked on the road of internship to Wuhan alone, and this was the first time in my life that I left my hometown province and embarked on a long journey alone.

It was already night when I arrived in Wuhan. Walking into this young metropolis and strolling the streets after the rain, I couldn't help but look forward to the future life.

On the second day after arriving in Wuhan, I successfully entered the job and started my summer internship.

During the internship process, I also encountered many difficulties, but fortunately, with the help of my brothers and sisters, I gradually overcome them. Of course, in addition to technical problems, because I didn't get rid of the students' thinking, I also stepped on a lot of pitfalls.

The overall feeling of the internship is still very good. The technical atmosphere of Tencent Cloud is relatively strong. Our team has regular technical sharing and exchanges. There are also very nice colleagues and partners in the team, who have provided me with a lot of help.
What impresses me most is—I checked the problems reported by monitoring and surveillance all night with Brother Yun.

In addition to work, I also play sports in my spare time, although it is very good hh

Faced with this year's general environment, I still tried to become a regular, but failed.
There are only two interns in our center, and they both failed to become regulars. This is not counting another intern in the previous group who voluntarily resigned.

Although I thought about leaving before, the news of the failure to become a regular is still depressing.

But after being frustrated, I was more relieved, which is why I mentioned my resignation to HR the day after I heard the news.

I’ve been in Wuhan for so long, and I haven’t had a good time in Wuhan. It’s really a pity, so I have a night tour of Wuhan for the National Day.

After playing, it is the way home.

The trains when they come and return, people are still the same, but the thoughts are completely different.

2. Autumn tricks under the cold winter

From the beginning of the 23rd autumn recruitment, the form of school recruitment began to take a turn for the worse. The most intuitive thing is that the HCs of various Internet companies have cut in half. One year, as a double non-undergraduate student, the difficulty of school recruitment has risen sharply.

What impressed me deeply was that the interviewer of Xiaohongshu told me that from the perspective of your resume, you should go to a big factory, but I knew that there was almost no chance of recruiting a big factory in the fall.

All kinds of news kept coming out, such as Ali began to limit 985, 211, and the number of bytes converted to regular hc was less, etc. At that time, for me who had 0 offer, I was really anxious.

During that time, I often chatted with my classmates who were looking for a job about my experience during this period of time. After meals, I often went for a walk in the back mountain of the school. Watching the sunset made me feel a lot better.

I have been in school before, but I didn't cherish the beauty of the school, and I didn't feel its value until after I left school.

Although it was an autumn move in the cold winter, fortunately, the final result was good.
At that time, I submitted 100+ resumes, 30+ written tests, and only a dozen or so interview opportunities. Finally, I received the first offer call from Qiuzhao when I was relaxing in Houshan.

3. Internship lasting half a year

In addition to Tencent Cloud at the beginning, I also went to Guming for an internship later. I have to say that the atmosphere in the department is really good, and there are free milk teas to drink.

When I went to Guming for an early internship, I received an offer from the online car-hailing department of Didi Chuxing. Although the salary was about the same, considering future development, I decided to choose Didi as my first company after graduation. In fact, Guming is quite good, the colleagues are very nice, and the mentor and leader are also very easy-going. I personally like this company quite a lot, but I chose to leave because of development.

Of course, I didn’t leave right away. After all, I felt sorry for letting others dove. I was busy with business at the time, so I told the leader that I could do an internship for a few more months and wait for the new school to recruit students before leaving.

In March 2023, I embarked on a long journey again, but this time the destination is Beijing, the imperial capital that everyone calls.

Along the way, looking out the window, my mind began to drift away, and the scenes of the past seemed to float before my eyes.

From south to north, from hills to plains, from the green in the south of the Yangtze River to the white in the north, you can't help feeling a lot of emotions.


After arriving in Beijing, I successfully entered the job,

I am very lucky to meet a group of lovely colleagues here, and the atmosphere in the department is also very good, without the feeling of tension and pressure. Since I have been intern for more than half a year, I have become familiar with it even though the development language has changed from Java to go.

In addition to work, I often go out by bicycle with my university roommates on weekends, including Tiananmen Square, the National Museum, Tsinghua University and Peking University, etc. Of course, there are also purely for cycling. For example, on the day of the Qingming holiday, I rode 90km alone from Haidian District to the Ming Tombs Reservoir in Changping District.

Of course, fitness has not been left behind. I will get up early in the middle of the week to go to the company to exercise.

Because I understand that my life should not only be work, but also other elements, such as life...

4. Graduation season

I went back to school at the end of April.
When I returned to school, I began to cherish everything in the school more, the food in the cafeteria, the laboratory, and the flowers, plants, and trees in the mountains behind the pictures and texts, as if I wanted to engrave them in my memory forever.

Everything in the world will eventually be parted. Like thousands of college students, I graduated in June, which is full of parting!

When I left my alma mater, it was not the sadness of parting, but the joy of ripe wheat.

When I was about to leave my alma mater, the school returned a letter I wrote to myself four years ago. When I opened the envelope, I could see that the content of my former self was exactly

as I thought. It was just words of encouragement, because I was like that at the time. .

I once said in my freshman year that I didn't want to make me regret when I looked back on my college life after my senior year,
but now I want to say-
I did it!

7. The end is also the beginning

The moment I really left my alma mater, I realized that my student days had officially come to an end.

Looking back on my study career over the past ten years, and looking back on the bits and pieces in college, I can't help but sigh with emotion.
Over the past ten years of experience, there is no lack of sadness, pain, anger, joy and emotion, all of which have made me who I am now. Over the past ten years, what has changed is not only the external appearance, but also the increasingly powerful inner heart.

I am grateful for the me I used to be, for the stubborn self who refused to admit defeat, and for the self who was beaten down by the predicament and still stood up.

My student days are over, but this is also a new beginning. In the future, I also hope that I can maintain my original intention and forge ahead.

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A person who has fallen into low self-esteem because of poverty, hardship and bullying, seems to have encountered all injustices, but he is lucky, he has a group of relatives who make him feel warm, and he also met a teacher who taught him how to be a human being. A group of companions who agree with him. Although his parents could not give him the wealth that the world is desperately pursuing, they also gave him everything. That was all their love, a love that would rather suffer for themselves than for their children. And these should be more precious than those so-called wealth.

It's a pity that he woke up to this truth too late.

I believe that there are not a few people who have similar experiences to mine. You may be like me, dislike your parents, afraid of making yourself feel ashamed because of the clothes you wear and the car you pick up and drop off; you feel inferior because you don’t have pocket money and refuse to eat and party.

But, why bother to be coerced by the materialistic desires of this world, let others look down on you, you have to understand that what people are proud of is only what their parents gave them, and this is not worth mentioning. Poor and strong, the ambition not to fall into the blue sky. What is really scary is not what other people think, but what you think of yourself.

Similarly, I also hope that future education will not only focus on the level of grades, but also on the cultivation of people. A truly strong person must have a strong heart.

I would like to use this article to commemorate my four years in college, and at the same time, it is dedicated to those who have been inferior and confused to find their way. I hope my experience can inspire you.

July 9, 2023