It's been a month since the winter vacation, and I don't know who I am anymore...
Although this year's rotten heart is right, but last year's me was not like this
In June 2021, the year is divided into two periods of different meanings:
Before June 9th, before I do everything, I have to think about whether this matter will help my goal of "----entering a prestigious school", I am bound, bound to study, bound to think about the present How to live a happier life is bound to think about how to deal with interpersonal relationships in a small world...
my high school
At this time last year, it was supposed to be a holiday, but at that time I was racing against time, scrambling for online classes, doing exercises, dreaming that I could go to the prosperous magic capital, how could I have time to enjoy my vacation.
In March and April, because of his extraordinary performance in a big exam, he boarded the school's podium.
It was time to see the cherry blossoms.
"Only by running can the dull life be windy." That was what I said to my classmates while holding the podium.
After the speech, it is followed by the examination in April, the examination in May, and the college entrance examination!
But the time has not passed so smoothly, so quickly. In April and May, perhaps the reason is too much pressure. There will be many failures in exams, many quarrels with relatives, and many times sitting in the room in the early morning. , staring blankly at the light and shadow outside the window, the light in the eyes is blurred and mottled, I know, it is the reason for tears.
When I got to the college entrance examination, I just finished the exam like that, and we ended up like that...
In the days of waiting for the results of the college entrance examination, games and novels seem to be accessories and boring.
Finally, the results of the college entrance examination came out. I was not so satisfied. It was far from what I wanted, and it was even far worse than my Yuan-tuned results.
I know, the dream of going to the magic capital is shattered...
Quite depressed for a while.
Listening to the advice of my parents, I chose a local school, filled in the majors indiscriminately, and didn't think about anything.
After a period of time, I packed up my mood a little, and went to the distance with my classmates.
I go to see the towering mountains and rivers
Enshi Grand Canyon~
Go to see the peculiar cave
Tenglong Cave~
In the process of escaping my past life, I slowly began to think about the life I wanted.
I decided to reconcile with myself.
If you don't get 985, you can't get 985, 211 is fine.
This is what I said at the time:
I want to make peace with myself!
When an experience ends, you often get the most and hurt yourself the most.
I accept my limitations, accept my short-sightedness, accept that my body is not healthy, accept that I am sometimes very cautious, accept that I can’t clear up the emotions of the outside world, let my family suffer in vain, accept that I sometimes do things that I can’t understand Clearly childish behavior.
I totally accept this.
In the future, I can truly distinguish my own affairs from other people's affairs and God's affairs and admit my powerlessness, "It's going to rain, and my mother is going to get married." I can't control this.
But what I can manage is my attitude towards these things, stop attributing these things to myself or others, and get through the future with a simple slogan (none of your business, no of mine).
All I can manage is a lazy afternoon, a decadent evening.
Summer belongs to nudity and wantonness, as well as coolness and exhaustion.
I no longer force myself to be better, I want to be better naturally.
In the future, I will go to the doctor to see my uncoordinated muscles and the acne on my face.
In the future, I will be more attentive in managing interpersonal relationships and find a comfortable way to get along with each other.
In the future, I will give more tenderness to my peers to my parents.
In the future, I will really learn to be grateful.
Now, thank you!
Thanks for meeting!
Thank you to everyone who has been in my life!
Thanks for a sudden bad thing, it became an opportunity for me to understand that I need to be grateful!
I stopped grieving about the past, I realized that I was in a new chapter in my life, so I started to think about what to do next.
I'm a business student. At first, I didn't know the difference between a technical post and a non-technical post, so I brushed Zhihu 25 hours a day.
I understand that it is difficult for me to enter the top bank of securities and get the top resources in my major. I am not willing to enter the bank as a teller or a manager.
But if I start to learn C now and study technology, I have a chance to enter a big factory.
During the time of learning C, I also participated in an internship duck~
Then I knew about CSDN, and I still remember the days when I asked questions here every day.
Then I also looked for the ACM Association of the school's computer school, and now I have successfully entered the development team and training team through selection.
I also built a blog on GitHub with HTML, CSS and a little JS~
Then I was still looking for the best solution in my major, passed the selection of the pilot class of financial technology, and became the academic committee with the computer knowledge I learned in advance.
I know these are not difficult, but for me in the low period, it is undoubtedly a proof or a comfort: "You can."
Of course, after I went to college, I still had a bad habit: "I work hard without reservation, I don't know what I want."
I always feel that only by working hard can I live the life I want to live, but I never thought that, in fact, I can live the life I long for now. This is understood when I talked with a close friend of Huake.
Here's the outcome of the conversation that Friday:
This is a cultural dumping, a value victory.
"Work hard and make progress, be free and comfortable."
The values used to be to force away the space of freedom and comfort, but
now the values are:
"The life at hand is the life I long for."Happy Friday!
Free and comfortable~Thank you
@huake classmate "To tell you the truth, I haven't participated in any activities since the beginning of the school year""I went to the networking activities to read books by myself"
"I don't want to waste time on pointless socializing"
“I can have time for coffee”
"Go out and take pictures"
"Happy Valley"
"watch movie"
“Eat a different meal every day”
"I have eaten most of the 35 canteens in Huake"
"I'm one cat away from the life I want."
"Although it will be a little lonely."
"But I think loneliness is the highest freedom."
My values have changed a lot since then. I still write about a topic until one or two in the morning, and I still go to the library every Sunday...
However, when I don't want to study, I will stop suppressing myself, but go to the things I like to do, reading, painting, cooking, and listening to concerts!
There really is nothing happier than a dry meal.
concert~
grow up, a lot
As for 2022, I want to do an internship, I hope I can go to Bytes, the winter vacation has been rotten for a month, and I have to start studying hard!
Networking, algorithms, front-end, and many more are waiting for me to learn and practice.
I also hope to meet the right person, and the freshman really wants to fall in love. (
May we all become more comfortable and freer!
Thanks for reading!