Looking back on 2021 and looking forward to 2022-my personal annual review and summary
foreword
Today is January 2, 2022. At the turn of the new and old years, I reviewed the course of last year, and I felt a little turmoil in my heart. Use this to make an annual summary, examine the past, and look forward to the future.
2021 review
the beginning of the year
Carrying the plan for the end of 2020, learning java, and preparing to find a job
January
At the beginning, I was very impetuous. At that time, I kept thinking about how to write something to motivate myself, so I went to visualize the world. But let it go, maybe post a few circles of friends.
Then I continued to learn the basics of java, in order to improve my own ability.
Wrote two notes:
- Chapter 3 Spring Lecture 1 - Explaining the basics and advanced applications of Spring - study notes
- Chapter 4 SpringMVC Lecture 1 - Explaining the Basics of SpringMVC - Study Notes
In late January, I was still thinking about the future in confusion, and wrote:
After another period of time, I had a predestined relationship with the relationship. I did not perform well in response to this opportunity, and ended in a disabled state, which lasted about a month.
This experience made me realize at least these few issues with me:
- lack of empathy for others
- Trying to get one over others
(maybe there are more, but that's about as far as I've documented)
This experience has had a profound impact on me. Although the memories have been constantly beautified in my heart, the right and wrong at that time are still vivid in my mind, and I still remember the warning: to recognize the independence of people, and not to judge by the standards of things . judge
In this regard, every time I think of this, I will still look back,Am I showing due respect in my dealings with people?。
February
Prepare job-related matters, prepare and submit resumes, and one of Huawei's database positions has attracted my attention with high salary and low threshold. But I need to pass the first level, the algorithm written test
I have passed, purely relying on a few days of brushing questions and studying, from knowing nothing, to being able to challenge difficult problems, I have put in a lot of hard work. During the Spring Festival, I almost put down all the entertainment . Everything is to get this position (after all, it was said that the salary started at 20k).
In the end, although it was not a full score, it passed the written test with a high score. Next is the interview, a total of 3 rounds, I passed the first two rounds.
The last round is the qualification interview, which examines the basic literacy and ability to withstand stress, which is a breeze for me who is full of fighting spirit. However, in theory, there may be an unknown reason, so the interview with me was terminated .
I waited for news for more than a month, but there was no news. I was greatly shocked, but not devastated.
March
In the days of waiting for the news of the interview, I have already started to learn new knowledge. Although I passed the written test through intensive self-study, but in the process of learning, I found that I really lack the knowledge of many algorithms, so I signed up for the course
. Classes: algorithm class, discipleship program
And study hard, wrote a lot of study notes, and the style of writing changed from frivolous to calm.
- Algorithm Learning (Disciple Program) 1-1 Linked List Study Notes
- Algorithm Learning (Discipleship Program) 1-2 Cohort Study Notes
- Algorithm Learning (Disciple Program) 1-3 Recursion and Stack Study Notes
I have a column for storage, and I have been writing until the end of July
April
Finally, I didn't wait for the news of the new position, and I decided that I was eliminated. I was hit hard, my studies were not that strong, and I was a little busy at work during this time.
Therefore, in the past two months, I have not studied seriously, and my overall mental outlook is not good.
In late April, I went to a party, and I still had the courage, but not enough of my efforts.
I still feel lost .
May
I went home on Labor Day, and my spirit was cultivated, and I took theThe aftermath of the 54 Youth Day inspires my fighting spirit, but it is still in the adjustment stage as a whole.
In late May, fighting spirit recovered
mid-year
Learn from history and think about your own shortcomings
June
In the first ten days of June, I first used my studies to strengthen my confidence, and kept my fighting spirit and continued to study, catching up with the progress of the course
In mid-June, to welcome my 24th birthday, I raised my fighting spirit every day like a formation, and every day is a day full of energy.
Going out on my birthday, thinking about life, thinking about the future, determined to use communism as the cornerstone and criterion of my beliefs, and learn the spirit of the Red Boat。
At the end of June, after my birthday, I felt lost. I was full of energy, then declined again, and exhausted three times. I had a feeling of drawing a sword and looking around at a loss.
July
At the beginning of the month, the party celebrated, visited the Revolutionary Memorial Hall, and learned something. I can't tell what I learned, but I am sure I planted the seeds
Keep learning algorithms, keep blogging.
At the end of the month, in low spirits, I realized that something was wrong, maybe I was on the wrong track.
I studied very hard, very hard, to the point of exhaustion.
But I feel unrewarded, I have accumulated knowledge, but there seems to be no way to prove my worth
August
At the beginning of the month, try to raise your spirits, study hard, and let knowledge change your destiny.
self-pull, struggle
In mid-August, mental problems
Late August, continued to have problems
My spiritual problem is not that kind of big problem, but my position, path, belief and other factors have been tested, and I have become confused and at a loss.
At the end of August, I recovered from the collapse and realized that my spirit could no longer bear the failure and could no longer tolerate more delayed gratification. Finally, after a lot of thinking, it was decided thatMaximum shrinking battlefield, change the goal to do one thing well
From then on, no matter what, at all costs, to do one thing well has become my core guiding ideology
But this matter must have strategic significance, so I chose to take a certificate, an intermediate software development engineer , and the direction I chose was project integration, paving the way for the possible development direction of project managers in the future.
September
The new route is not easy, but it has greatly relieved my mental pressure and allowed me to overcome difficulties with maximum strength again. At this point I am still a little confused.
The Mid-Autumn Festival gave me a new opportunity for spiritual cultivation, and I accumulated more strength.
At this stage, my learning path for soft exams was very tortuous. I found that I lacked guidance .
October
After the National Day, I felt that I had fallen into a state of laziness under the policy adjustment of the new route. In this regard, I signed up for the sprint course based on the principle of doing whatever it takes .
At this point, a month of intensive study has begun.
In the process, I discovered that my inferiority is still doing its best, which makes me gallop on the road to destruction. The relatively obvious disadvantages are:
- slack. Before the end of the period, unwilling to work hard , always want to be lazy
If I had started studying earlier, I would have been more likely to pass the exam, but I only worked hard in the last month
But in this high-pressure environment, I regained my potential, and I started to work hard. At least for this month, I adhered to my core guiding ideology, no matter what, at all costs, do a good job matter
Although it was my mistake that got me into crisis, this response also let me know that I can do better if I am willing to invest resources earlier.
So I re-established my understanding: those things that I can do, I can do better after working hard, and those things that I may not be able to do, maybe I can do it after working hard .
However, in order to make a conclusion on this, one more result is needed, that is, to take the exam and get a result.
For this, I prepared two results:
- If the grades are not good, then I will reprimand my slack and let me do better next time .
- If it barely passes, then I will reprimand my slack, so that I can lose less money next time .
(The high score is not considered, because the mock test results show that my score belongs to the section with a high probability of passing)
However, something unexpected happened.
the end of the year
Shrinking strategic goals and advancing steadily
November
Due to the impact of the epidemic, the test is temporarily canceled and the registration fee will be refunded.
This is a sudden event.
but for meHeavy blow, because in the equivalent substitution, I have escaped the exam.
The reason is that when I got the news that the exam was cancelled, the strongest feeling in my heart was gratitude rather than regret .
But my efforts were not in vain. Maybe I was just learning in behavior during that period of time, but my spiritual world experienced another transformation.
In mid-November, I quickly rekindled my fighting spirit and set my next goal, learning to drive.
I'm trying to learn to drive by next year. (If it doesn’t work, you can delay it a bit)
December
In mid-December, subject 1 is tested, and the goal is to practice subject 2
At the end of December, I encountered an opportunity to conduct another interview, and finally passed the interview.
Summarize
During this year, many things happened, among which the following things were decisive for me:
- trying to fall in love
- find a job
- learn algorithm
- Birthday & Learning the Spirit of the Red Boat
- soft test
- learn to drive
During this year, I fell into the trough of the big stage for a total of 3 times, and each time was shorter than before. They
are:
- The confusion that started in April
- The confusion that started in July
- The confusion that started in November
During this year, I have had four high-intensity endeavors with different purposes:
- Written test in February
- Learn Algorithms in March
- Liver learning progress in June
- Soft test sprint in October
After such a macro review, I am convinced of my previous judgment. Every crash is due to hard work but no return, or lack of practical return. every time iLike leeks in stocks, they keep covering positions when they fall, and cut meat at the bottom of the valley.
However, unlike stocks, am I really cutting meat at the bottom of the valley?
predicament
I have a great difficulty:Can't judge success or failure.
As someone with low self-confidence, I engage in high levels of self-doubt every day: Am I doing it right?
For this, I urgently need an evaluation system to establish my own status, but this is exactly what I lack. After leaving the campus, self-evaluation becomes extremely difficult.
When I adopt the classical approach and use achievements to judge myself, I also face a recursive dilemma, how to judge achievements.
But the lack of evaluation itself is also an objective reality.
Society’s evaluation of people is complicated and may not be usable. Therefore, it is necessary to use one’s own social evaluation to extract one’s own self-evaluation so that one can have a decisive understanding of one’s own behavior. Every graduating student must master the skills .
catastrophe
In the aftertaste of learning the spirit of the Red Boat, I reflected and recalled, and finally realized a core point, every successful person is accompanied by success .
So I need to be successful .
Seeing and understanding are two realms.
During the self-pull in August, I admitted my failures and mistakes, took a serious inventory of my existing assets (a little deposit, the fire of fighting spirit, and vitality), and finally established a direction: success and
then success .
So the first step is to succeed once
From this, the guiding ideology was established: no matter what, do one thing well at all costs . This matter should not be too small, so small that people think it is easy (such as learning to drive), and this matter should not be so difficult that everyone complains about it (such as postgraduate entrance examination, public examination).
So the soft exam was put on the schedule.
(So when the strategic goal of the soft test was shattered by natural disasters and man-made disasters, I fell into a trough again. But even so, I was determined to shrink the battlefield, and finally took learning to drive as a starting point for climbing again)
achievement
Under the guidance of the core idea, I abandoned my past prejudices, rekindled my fighting spirit, and rebuilt my spiritual world.
I'm finally back .
A great opportunity came and I took it.
I believe that my return played a key role.
Outlook for 2022
mission planning
for basic planning
- On the main line, I want to improve my level to be qualified for my position, which is the basis for me to assume social responsibility.
- On the branch line, I want to optimize my interpersonal skills, improve my leadership level, and prepare for possible future strategic arrangements
for long term planning
- On the bright line, I have to complete two tasks first, one is to learn to drive, and the other is to take a soft test.
- On the dark line, I climbed the ladder again and rebuilt my own tomorrow.
for ultra-long-term planning
- I will have a very good performance when I climb the ladder again. At this most hopeful moment, I must hurry up and find my future life partner. There is not much time left for me.
epilogue
When I wanted to make a summary of the year, there was a poem that kept echoing in my mind:
Xiongguan is as long as iron, but now I am starting from the beginning.
In 2022, I want to win one game, and then win another game, and
maybe lose in the middle,But when the time comes, you must remember
what it feels like to win.