Angel 2019/1/11 21:44:50
Today, I want to share my story with you, OK.
I was born in a rural China which is very traditional and very old.
When I was very young, my world was only a grandmother, no one else.
Grandma used to be a primary school teacher. She was very strict and sensitive. I am very afraid of her.
When I was young, My parents aren’t around me, and I could only live with my grandmother who make me feel very Terrible.
I began to learn observant , learn to analyze people’s expressions, learn to predict the next what to say, what to do will not be scolded by grandma at a very young,
I have been afraid to say my real thoughts to anyone since I was a child
Only by constantly pandering to others will it make me feel safe.
So, later, whenever I make friends with others, I subconsciously cater to other people’s ideas and hide myself
It has become a habit of mine, a habit I can’t change.
So, I envy those who are real people, they can laugh when they are happy, when they are unhappy, they can cry loudly!
Because there is always an invisible hug behind them, all of them to accept all of them!
I’d love to be a real person,
I also hope that there will be a person in this world who can fully accept my existence, whether I am good or mediocre.
I very much hope that there is a huge force behind me, when I really do something wrong, it can make me feel very secure, can let me full of courage to face the bad things in life!
God closes a door for you and opens another window for you. I thank those experiences when I was a kid and let me see a lot of things that no one else can see.
But I also want to be able to rely on my own strength to open the one that God closed!
