"I still love you?" The face of the phone, my heart really wanted to say these words.
"I want to give you in the end say?, Do not say, oh I want to sleep." I am familiar with a telephone a sweet voice came over.
"Ah ~, take care of myself, I will always miss you, good night." Then came a long period of quiet, until I hung up the phone.
I leaned against the wall in a remote college dorm hallway, tears dripping slowly from my cheek. Heart block wall of a damn fool myself feeling uncomfortable.
Man facing the biggest dilemma is always more mature than girls of the same age. When they mature a little naive, and find out that they have been manufacturing regret and remorse. Youth no effort, no fight for love, do not continue to maintain friendships, there is no kindness to cherish their parents. . . Scenes picture as if ready to tear yourself now.
I met her for the first time in three days. I do poorly in school, or so last first. Occasionally, second and third. It is familiar bad student. She is a representative of the political class, the class and the school is the best achievement of the boy next door.
I was not a level of her. Even three days of next semester, I still have not spoken to her a few words. Perhaps it is too boring, actually one of my good friend telling me secretly wrote her a letter, you can call it a love letter. Then a few days, I found her classmates include all strange to me. Until I received her reply, I understand the whole thing. It is also the matter later affect the future growth trajectory.
If I could choose again, I think I should no longer be involved in this never-ending selection of a marathon.
'Life is like a journey, along the way there will be many views, but people always want to move forward, perhaps I'm your scenery along the way that touch, although you will make nostalgia, but it is not your end, you look forward to study hard, I will be with you for the future struggle. . . 'In school street, I carefully read over and over again. It was at this time, my heart actually welled up little waves. I want to learn up.
My family was not good, parents are working, but they are very attached to my education, winter registration cram, cram school enrollment summer vacation, vacation time will not sign teacher of remedial classes. But I always learn not to go in, go to Internet cafes to steal touch, every time my father pulled me out of the cafe when I would be beaten black and blue, will be secretly weeping mother after I was beaten. If the fight can change the nature of the child, and that China would not have so many rebellious child. Wait until the parents go to work in the field, I will soon went to Internet cafes.
Father interrupted the broom did not leave any mark in my heart, that just a few lines, but in my heart left in waves. I decided to learn, live Tathagata live Qing.
I pick up a pen to write a letter in reply eloquent. I told her that I would protect her laugh, I'll chase her, I will make her proud of me. Even if Heaven and I will not give up.
The remaining three months will be in the exam. And I do the countdown in the school rankings, even every test I always was placed in the principal's office test, but at the moment I do not feel a trace of panic. There are seven feet footer body, the courage to shake the sun and the moon and the sky.
That was my life by far the best time of the day. I have been eagerly absorb knowledge every day, every day to learn At 34 o'clock at night sleep for an hour they go to school. English, Chinese politics, history, geography books I almost gave back down, physics, chemistry, mathematics I almost never encountered difficulties. Whenever I want to give up, I have a feeling in the eyes of my attention. I can not throw in the towel, I can not give up.
My home is in a suburb of the village, the road leading to my house is full of potholes, every household keep a dog, I live at home junior high school, junior school study up 10:00, cycling Dao Cunkou when the sky is already completely dark horrendous . Prepare a stick in my hand, frantically rushed home, this time, the village will be out chasing the dog bite me. My blood come out loud roaring toward the dog bite me, the dogs will not stepped forward, but there are vicious dogs bite me on, I'll stick to hit a backhand of these animals barking, so I can return home safely. If you counseling, and these dogs will push for too much to bite you. Ruthless people are forced out.
I forgot to eat how much pain, how many times forget that he wanted to give up, I loved her too hard up. But the next day to see her bright smile for me, I feel everything is worth it.
Physical exam and the exam will test the physical and chemical raw score will be counted inside the test results. She always forgot to bring rope skipping, so I lent her the results I was a physical education teacher penalty lap, she looked at me very embarrassed, but I really was very happy. I hope she has been guilty of it. Hee hee.
I own three-month period with a strong ability to learn so that teachers and students have to impress me. I am most concerned about is that I seem to get her approval, I feel her with me when not too repulsive to me. Once rows of seats and she said I could sit with her, sit together, I froze a moment later he did not speak. Wait until the selected location, I chose not near a location away from her. I am very low self-esteem. But I am very proud, I do not like to be sympathetic. Missed this opportunity, now I realized I missed her life.
After the entrance examination, the results came out. I live day, 532 points, just one point more than our local advantage of relatively good high school scores low altitude passing. But I'm not happy, because she and I are not a high school. My heart secretly made a decision, and she must be a university school. After receiving the acceptance letter, she smiled at me and say goodbye. Do not expect this is the people have changed.
I was too arrogant, I am proud to see the real person. High school teachers and I was completely broke, home self-study, self bitter, nor her smile encouraged me, did not contact her. The only support I fight just to go and she was admitted to the same university.
My hair white half, Yongnaoguodu debilitating brain has suffered from great auricular nerve pain, I will not throw in the towel, I put the medicine into the milk bag loaded with hot water in the morning to drink a bag at noon with hot water heat what to drink a bag, heat it with hot water at night to drink a bag. Drink a full three years. Entrance before the advent of night, I was in a corner that no one wept, ate so much pain I believe God will give me a fair.
Results down, only one of the two divided high scores. I get this message thunderstruck, I'm standing in the school pyramid ah man, often around 10 pre-school, how the college entrance exam, so even a junk score. My heart very desperate. I would like to repeat, but the body tells me repeat I will definitely die.
Has failed, I no love, I am about to meet her, she was gone, I did not go. I should go, I regret to now, every time I can wake tortured by his own remorse in his sleep. Without fire, no longer on his back and then look back body.
Went to college, lost cell phone, she and I completely lost to the. Freshman year, the school has had an important thing, to stop enrollment up. I think the school or rotten rotten people with my kind of bar. Unexamined spent three years, still a little harvest, with a handsome appearance Henan University paid a girlfriend. I thought I had really forgotten her. Ha ha.
God get people, once finishing my high school notes, I found her phone number. Memory sudden influx of my brain. With trembling hands I dialed her phone.
"Hey, who are you?" A familiar voice suddenly knocked on my heart.
"I am, do you remember?"
"Ah." After a period of silence, I heard the answer.
"Recently okay?"
"Ah, okay. I had my hair cut short."
"Ah, I have something to say to you."
"Ah, you say."
"I still love you?" The face of the phone, my heart really wanted to say these words.
"I want to give you in the end say?, Do not say, oh I want to sleep." I am familiar with a telephone a sweet voice came over.
"Ah ~, take care of myself, I will always miss you, good night." Then came a long period of quiet, until I hung up the phone.
I want to say I love her, I can catch her?
I can not say I love her, I've been good enough for her.
I and spring are passing through, you bring youthful football galaxy.