EDITORIAL
First talk about writing this article is not to sell miserable, I believe there must be worse than I am, and did not complain of social, family members did not complain about the meaning of life than I am sure there are unhappy people. I have always felt a lot on my experience of these years, her friends often say that my experience could write a book, think, write it down or make yourself clearer understanding of their own.
status quo
My current state, worked for software development department at a large real estate company, he served as director of software development post. This title looks high-end atmosphere, in fact, no salary bonus, non-authoritative addition, it just seems a little high. Currently master both languages java and .net, can bring their own independent development or team development, proficient in two words I can not say, because the principle of these development languages inside. At first glance it is a headache, only experienced numerous times in order to understand the actual coding. But for now acquired skills can easily cope with the current development tasks, it can be said to be more than enough. In the team which is currently regarded as a leader of it, technical difficulties, tasking all I was doing, but want a new job has been the intention, the reason is infinitely superior painting pie, I rise to say a few months later the manager did not hereinafter, it is now 7k of wages or salary increase this year, a new time go up, in fact, in the final analysis is for the money, and now I pay only 7k much, for my current ability for the individual that is too low, then coupled with economic pressures of life, forcing me to make a change, the pursuit of higher wages, of course, I think could get to my current ability to afford higher wages.
Family of
I am 94 years of strangers, was born in a remote mountainous, backward conditions, but my childhood was really carefree. Sheep, cattle, running wild on the hillside, climb trees, catch crabs, fishing in the sunset., The stars, meteor showers, fireflies and so on and so forth. Such childhood to believe that only children in rural areas have experienced, but now in retrospect is really beautiful. Because I am a left-behind children, grew up from childhood with his grandmother, grandmother to give her all my love gave to me.
But with age grow up, know their parents after the divorce, my mother passed away, and the father's side of the relatives who will not let me go to the mother filial. Until now I still hate my father, but also later learned that the reason my parents divorced, actually he abused my mother, off to play at home, leading to the mother feel a shadow, and later became a nervous breakdown, people become god Britain Britain, and later dies eventually.
Come to talk about my father it funny, since I can remember he has been drinking, and now is alcoholic liver, liver degeneration, his family persuaded many times to no avail, always steal himself a drink, a drink produced each year because of intermittent all kinds of hallucinations, chaotic ghost various zombies, as long as one to work out, he will go wrong. One year working in construction whim want to go to Changsha, the results arrived the next day to drink drunk, mad at, and I work in other provinces, there's people called me and asked me to take him back, then pick to the phone I really collapse. Why the family a loving father, a mother, but I was this kind of environment, I do not expect him to earn that money, perfectly healthy body, so drinking at least not a hobby. Really crash desperate ,, and he was my father, I called on a cousin, recently bought a group of tickets, go to Changsha him to receive my city, took only six during the hour. The time has come back in the morning, that day I have not slept a wink the night, the next morning, I drove with my cousin and I went delirious father to the hospital, doctors diagnosed chronic alcoholism illusion caused only by to solve their own alcohol (at the time he promised to stop drinking, but this is not the first time he promised, I will put the ass when, after a pass by, he returned home to the affirmation or drink, I can not control, can not see), and then open a number of nutritional supplements medicine, he drove to the handlebars back to the home, home of the moment to see the crumbling adobe houses was actually not quite taste, he working for so many years, and now also home had left his grandfather's house when the separation. After I got home and sleep, sleep until the next afternoon, and then I go back to the city and the cousin of my job, this is my father, this ridiculous, cowardly, no ambition, no perseverance, no perseverance, in my eyes he just gave me a life of it, nothing more, and my mother's death and he has a direct relationship, so I hate him, hate, but he raised me, give me food to eat, at least let me to grow so big, in my knowledge, he only just for my upbringing, and I suspect he is occasionally good to me because of my mother's guilt.
I come to talk about the stepmother, is also a very effort of the people, I began to read from the fourth grade, I began to live on campus, every other period of time a holiday home, take the cost of living, and occasionally heard my father between the stepmother of dialogue, stepmother said: the man is back to take the money. My father said: ah, the thing to give, or the people in the village say gossip, and so he was 18 years old on the matter. The man is called to me among them. Both of them have a son, I gave birth in the eleventh grade, I did not know until this thing a particular holiday home, the family suddenly more than a baby, there was my half-brother and a difference of seventeen or eighteen this is really a ridiculous thing between he and I have no feelings at all, each meeting must be re-introduced me, every time I was laughing, this is really ridiculous ah. I am the stepmother when I was young, I had framed her wedding gold watch damaged (in fact, is coated with a layer of yellow powder), when my father beat my meal, do not ask what the facts. I guess she just wanted to tell me that she was in charge of it home. I live on campus before and after school in the last ten years, including my high school entrance examination, I have never made a phone call asking me to wear enough clothes, you cold. Never, and I never call them to cost of living, not too much care and greetings. Now I work, earn money, she'd often call to ask me to eat yet? And I always answer eat, every speech less than a minute. I guess probably I think I make money, and now that she could rely on was my first grade son later bar. One day last year, I received a telephone aunt (there stepmother's sister), say you want to build a house for the family, you know? Like the difference between a lot of money that way, your dad is not a good reputation in the home get loans, you go back with your name under a credit, the money also wants them to. Oh, they come also, on start-up capital of two thousand to repair the house or I go back to New Year's. I was really puzzled, obviously there is no money to repair, no way, even if no money, the money that out, then go to the bank a loan (and now I have this still further loans), he took leave of absence, the money send back (because his father did not dare punch on the mind reasons, stepmother illiterate, wanted to shout for help with relatives, both of them are afraid to let people know I had so much money, they do not hang on the face), I got home that day stunned , Okay, one more than two months to repair a flat, two-story house, bilaterally symmetrical, while three bedrooms, plus a toilet, I asked why this repair? Many of you his money? My answer to you is one half of the two brothers, after not fight do not rob, it can be really funny ah.
Every New Year back home, and every day they dialogue not more than ten, because I do not want to talk to them, they would not talk to me.
Sometimes I envy those original family, looking at the kind of love between parents and their children, envy. If I later father, I have to do a good job should bear the responsibility of a father! Original family child growing up I did not necessarily character, self-esteem before, weak, introverted, and my heart mature early. This is my family, I do not want to stay a "home."
Academic papers
Primary school in the town's elementary school, excellent grades, junior high school student at junior high school in the town, when the first two days of exposure to computers, online games, DNF. Those magic pictures before playing bully completely different, suddenly fascinated me, then a dollar on Friday, the internet cafe three dollars an hour, I'll take a week pocket money online. Precisely because of this, the original results were good, I turned into a forgotten poor students, placed in the last row.
After graduating from middle school, because the age is still too young to go out to work, I went to the vicinity of a relatively prosperous town, high school, high school do not need this in the exam, as long as you pay on that, so what kind of school environment it can imagine, this school, smoking, fighting, drinking, night FQ Internet, abortion, suicide, these things have happened, and I can be considered a wonderful work, can be considered Qing Lian without demon out mud and not dyed. At that time in high school, you have to buy food to eat at school, so I'm a little money to live off, think about that age, how much money the hands expansion yes. I went to Internet cafes, DNF at that time very addicted to this game, but to do the task to do but can not upgrade, you
More and more boring. Until one day, Andrews intelligent machine began to pop up. I own living expenses month to buy a small wasp-day language, that was my first Android phone, which I finished in Taobao first deal. Then I told Android phones inside the various configuration files with the fans, the change will lead to a string configuration interface to change the system, then very excited. Every holiday go to Internet cafes, others are playing in the game, I was in the brush, the system in exchange for going. Until then I have a whole year until all so personal, mobile phones are looking for me to brush machine, the phone does not know how what settings are also looking for me, really became a minor celebrity of a sudden the people. Later, it also increasingly boring, and knows Brush Brush package is to lower down, and then replace it finished. Then I started looking online Android related stuff, understand this thing has become, then know java this thing, bought a java object-oriented programming whim, imagine when 18-year-old high school senior, was able to understand a What is it, bought Mongolia, and looks very stiff, but I still insist on watching, stick back, even if no actual operation of the computer I was back. Then other people are doing third year college entrance examination questions, I was back in the java programming ideas. College entrance examination results are obvious.
After the entrance, a check scores, and my heart has a bottom, not on good schools, including specialist not a good point also on the kind of boring college, I do not want to have. Now think about it, I do not know why there were so decisive that time I thought, maybe I wasted three years in high school, I do not want to waste three years at the University of the bar. I was just an idea, I want to learn programming, then to the capital city where staying at a relative's home, this was my absolute. And both oppose, even my father said if you want me to college to get money to buy you a minute let you on, you learn programming is what? Finished school what's the use? I still insist, because I saw the magic Taobao magical, smartphones. This time, really thank my father, give me tuition, although the money is borrowed, at least, be supportive. After entering the training school, I really like is the trick general, the teacher said, logically structured, there are very clear in my head, and later mixed with a small group leader. Training school two years, from voice to html ps to c to js to C # to winform to .net, learning so much. But just scratched the surface, after all, be regarded as a beginning. You then need to find a job.
Working papers
Just graduated, you need to rent an apartment, find a cousin, borrowed two thousand dollars. First job interview is very simple, you may fancy my team have done a long experience, nor because I am training school and there are other views, in which the company spent more than two years, just started feeling pretty good, after all, their first job. I found a long time, as long as the boss is away, we started playing games, watching movies, sleeping, and I found joy and join them. Later, the boss from the outside to recruit a person to come in, then offer annual salary of more than two hundred thousand. Responsible for managing the technical team, I do not like this person together with me at the time because of some special cases, articles will be mentioned later in love, I'm gone.
Then into the interview and now the company encountered a can say it affect my whole life, which is now the company's manager (have left a), is to do the interview came in .net development, made six months later, he gave I have some information let me see, let me study with him and java, taught me to learn, to solve the problem, I can now have the ability, I am very grateful to him. .net mvc ef of dependency injection, domain-driven, java of SSH, SSM, spring boot, spring cloud-related as well as java middleware rabbitmq, redis, liunix, process engine, and so on, all my experience in this company can I am worth something before that company learned more than two years of countless times, and now this industry, we must study more people would be progress, more practice is the last word. In fact, my work experience is relatively small, after all, only two companies, actually two years or four years is really rewarding.
Living in China
Immediately after work, earn money, work four thousand a month, when seen so much money. I went to try things they have not tried, give yourself lost desktop, buy a 830 Giant, stolen, and bought a car. Travel, outdoor camping, adventure, traveling by bike, fish, raise Husky, I had not done the things that have to do it again, until last year, fell in love with the motorcycle, buy a car after much consideration, taking into account their own is a person, means of transport completely sufficient, further comprising to travel. Since bought it, I've met friends in various industries, has twice ride to Yunnan tourism, more and more play in the vicinity of the city, my life has become richer in content, not only the code, game and TV series. However, the ensuing cost is greater, plus a loan to repair the house I was really a bit much, you now pay for this, and this is the main reason I wanted to change jobs, and now the company would not Zhang too high wages.
Love articles
In the first company, I talked about first love was born society, or the angle of love. That girl is a company new to the test, and have a boyfriend, in my relentless pursuit, she and I together, of course. Love After poaching is not a long walk. She then turned to find a man, and then I leave from that company, and I now know is that they should now be in Shanghai, had it should be pretty good. Since then, I have not talked about love, even if the girls around and I want to clear the contacts I could not talk. I do not want to talk about, because my family reasons I do not want to drag anyone. See others in pairs into the right, she was alone, and occasionally does melancholy.
Melancholy so much. Now the main goal is to as quickly as possible to bear the debt also, and for a way to make their growth more work for a better locomotive.