Note: This is not a technical article, but recorded a few months I experienced recruits, Naked resignation, the mentality of looking for work, brief case a blogger, I was 16 years of graduate school move into up a Beijing company, java development, and many young people, did some time, I found not my job and career planning, so bare resignation, the immediate concern of Shanghai from Beijing, went through a hard to find a job and a smooth entry into their favorite company, this article is written late at night insomnia, desire to talk commendable, may be biased literary style, wording slightly longer, hoping to give some friends a little inspiration, to share a little, a little encouragement, without it , light spray.
When the Pro off the train, I glanced at the station clock stage, quarter past four, in the morning, the Beijing West Railway Station ..
At this time wanted to, who to call, no one line, and asked him, have you seen Beijing four o'clock do? I have seen.
But I know that this is a real trip to Beijing, do not fire a gun, quietly village. Because of this, I have come to resign, the resignation of things, you can beat gongs and drums?
Three months ago, I get off a train at the same, it carries a strange address, and countless newly graduated young people, ready to something big in the city.
Normal, cumbersome, unhurried do entry formalities, small companies, programmers, a monthly salary of five digits, the first world class and students stood Tonghuihe side, pointing country, I feel like I have not grabbed the railing point to float up, indeed, a very good starting point, is not it?
Pretty soon, I'll promotion and pay rise ....
I heard, the first North drift difficult, is to rent an apartment, black intermediary, such as river carp, hard to detect, beck and call, the pit that is to go, just arrived, homeless, the first night staying up a so-called four-star hotel the next day and quickly moved to a small hotel next to the company, the price straight down thirty-four ten, big save a fortune.
A few days to find a favorite house, on an intermediary to identify the monthly rent 3500,50 flat, two people live, the agency is just graduated girl, one can see that, probably because no makeup painting strong reason, I think she is very sincere.
Live in a big house that first night, my roommate and squeeze a bed, nothing to shop, nothing to cover, of course, no pillow thing, we can only complain about each ,,,, complain about each other is not a woman.
The next few days, slowly into the rhythm, because live far from the company, a person we were scouring a bike, also bought pots and pans, the day had begun to enter into doggerel rhythm.
In good times never last, after ten days, the company suddenly said that the new employee collective business trip, and then come back three months later, what? We've rented a house Yeah, charge a pair of three Yeah, it only lived for ten days, the company said , Oh, yeah, got to do with me, why do not you tell us? .... The company said it got nothing representation.
Click here to say the company, cautionary licensing legislation, in the current Internet environment, there is such a group of companies, known as a traditional software company, so they have a part, as most of them have one or two (chen) cooked (jiu) the product, what ah OA, ERP, ah, probably this, then the company will be able to rely on this to feed a large number of people, such companies do development department was basically to turn tail man, and not taken seriously, we probably this company of course, here, I am not against our company, I mean, all of you a traditional software company, is rubbish. the water just friends, be careful, the desert wind, than the walls in the complex.
It was the first time I moved the idea of resignation, but unfortunately too young, too simple, then the whole event gave me the feeling is imminent, had hair, radiating from Beijing and several colleagues as being like an angry bird playing to different cities. That time, I came from Beijing, just two weeks, accidentally, I was assigned to Shanghai, had been pushed on the demons are bound for high-speed rail, the thief pulling your ticket I think the price of the train could have been open to the South China Sea, open the door to go abroad, I put Beijing subway card into the bottom of the bag, I'll be back, I think.
First arrived in Shanghai, then a good impression of the city, because through security without water, Shanghai bus is really interesting, Mandarin, English, Shanghai dialect have to add, make people laugh every minute, so strong Shanghai dialect, I clothes.
I soon forgot the work flow, and began to show their strong resilience, the next day, went to see no more than ten years of primary school students, she expressed clapping and cheering for me, and standing on the edge of the Bund, we both exchanged some life experience and experience, she said she was going to listen to foreign law school, I nodded support, hope she can breathe more air a few mouthfuls of freedom for me. the next day, went to met a good friend, he I said the arrival of the Tisi cross-flow, standing at the foot of the Oriental Pearl, the two of us exchanged some life experience and experience with each other, to hear him say he was very unwell when I first came, but fortunately, a few days a girlfriend would graduate school read law in a very famous not far from the university, I nod in favor, I hope he can become an example of success around long-distance love alive, and said that China highly effective rule of law in the conduct of the road.
Very reluctant to spend more words to describe in Shanghai two months of life, summarized in one sentence, I'm at work, did not write a line of code, in addition to several sql statement no nutrition, the severity of the problem, understand the nature of people to understand .
During that time the extreme depression, and even getting a little low self-esteem, working hours, mostly idle, I was less than a week's time reading the ordinary world, more than one million words of fiction, I do not know of this novel initiative to find or this novel I found, in the kindle store a lot of books, a certain day of the ordinary world, point to open it, then there would be no return over the keys.
This teenager had read the book again, the content also remember that 7788 may be the change of mood, thanks again to read, like shown signs of tears several times, much as kind Lianwai banana mess showers, knocker mess patina of fatalism, stop reading, like a return to that era become Shaoping had finished his life, though not suddenly see the light, but we can also understand the feelings of faint able to express, probably, no matter how hard it is, smiling face life it, I heard has been changed into a TV series, he came home from work and quickly found a bit episode abandoned.
Work is so easy, so I think the company just like a sucker, every morning, I would wake up around six, that will not fall asleep, usually I'll get up a glass of water overnight, station in ledge drinking, then lying in bed, I sometimes imagine myself with existing ideas through to primary school, all the way to leapfrog, beating and hanging all kinds of school gangsters, famous boy, study abroad, sometimes simply do not want anything , was quietly waiting for the sound of rushing the bathroom.
Colleagues are always eight to a quarter past eight when out of the toilet, I always do not understand why he should pee when do sound so grand, so that he do not know that that kind of warm current flows down along the wall of the toilet can noise reduction of ten to you.
Wash is completed, we will walk to work, the road generally buy two buns, open Baozi Pu is a couple, never stern, two months, I have only seen a man exposed smile, he must be a big happy event it I think, working hours, half past eight to half past eleven, half past one pm to 5:30, most of the time, I was nothing, just look at the book and see tutorials, brush or mobile phones, it seems that I also learned to get along and boring.
Half past five to work, an office building, and instantly a huge heat wave and loneliness walking towards me, way back residence, will go through a park, I often see someone standing behind a bush pee in broad daylight, which I think Shanghai Well, but so slightly.
Park next to a basketball court, I usually added to the list to play for a while, busy all day, I have to put energy and stamina to relieve another way, tired, will make people complacent. So as to enhance well-being.
Speaking of playing, we should mention that I Wei feet traumatic experience, with Bryant's tone, that is, you know, I did that action thousands of times, back, shot, landing, but on that occasion, it hurt.
Floor moment, a surge of tears of pain from the heel all the way to the brain Bay, less than three minutes, I could not bear to look swollen, and I sat on the sidelines, watching a bunch of average age of more than forty people stripped to the waist, belly, yelling for the ball, I think, when I was four years old must not be like them so fat.
打开手机,发了条朋友圈,天越来越暗,被蚊子咬了好几口,我突然发现,我是在一个陌生的城市一个陌生的球场遇到了麻烦的事情,将没有人过来扶我,没有人背我回去,没有人替我带饭,没有人给我买药,孤注一掷,谁能给我关怀,最后滴滴快车伸来了援助之手,在楼下药店艰难的买了药,脚踏实地,一步一个龇牙咧嘴的回到自己房间,瘫在床上感觉像是在沙漠里走了三天三夜,我掏出手机,看到好几个评论和点赞,"卧槽,你怎么在上海陆家嘴","咦,你什么时候来的上海","主要是想秀一波定位吧",还是有很多同学关心我的,真好,我扔掉手机,开始思考,接下来该怎么办.
虽然没有吃饭,却也不饿,右腿支撑着左腿,左手给左脚上了药,右手握着手机给家里人报了平安,那一整夜,踝关节传来的阵阵疼痛刺挠的我一夜未眠.
凌晨一点多的时候窗外洒进来些许月光,我想这番场景,需要这样处理,镜头先一个大远景让我住的楼房和天上弯月入镜,然后一个缓慢的平摇,让我房间的位置置于九宫格镜头最中间,然后先快后慢的推镜头从窗台进入房间,万籁俱静,镜头慢慢靠近,中景切近景,近景切特写,最后一个俯视镜头固定在我上方四十五度,如果氛围得当,我会流几滴泪,借着月光,镜头若隐若现的捕捉到脸庞淡淡泪痕,我会慢慢转过头看向窗外,然后主观镜头跟随我的方向移向窗外,这时候对面楼上最后一盏灯,熄灭,镜头慢慢留黑,完美.
时间过得飞快,转眼到了九月底,在技术上这段时间基本处于停滞状态,我倒是认识了很多车牌,什么路易斯马丁,玛莎拉蒂,公司门口就是一幢路易斯马丁的4s店,偶尔能看到几个年级和我相仿的人来看车,试车,这个城市永远不缺有钱人,房价涨到50万一平,仍然有人照单全收,那是个我理解不了的世界.
月底,公司的hr给我打电话,跟我说在考核期间你的工作积极性不是太高,恩,的确,我上班时间有时候会看一天的视频教程,她欲言又止,我不起波澜,我辞职,我平静的说.
理想和现实的差距有时候让人接受不了,入职三个月,离职,对我而言,不是易事,虽然内心强烈的意识到不能在这么一点一滴的耗费生命,但想到后续的前路未卜,也是略感心寒,焦虑在那几天里,几乎分秒不缺席.
下班回来.站在房间的窗台边,我可以远远的看到东方明珠在夜幕下灯火辉煌,接受万千建筑的膜拜,它每天接受千万人的注视,但那些人也就是惊鸿一瞥,转身隐入人海,消失不见,它应该也是麻木的吧,生来彷徨,突然想起半壁江山的这首歌,恩,决定了,辞职,来上海找工作,我吐出一口气,草率但坚决的拟定了这个无论对错都将对我产生重大影响的决断.
其实很多事情之所以觉得困难,只是因为我们优柔寡断,患得患失,决定一旦做出,剩下的只需要去解决问题就好了,国庆回家,爸妈还是老样子,我平静的说出了我的决定,爸妈表示不理解,但是支持,一切都没有我想的那么坏,假期一结束,我又一次踏上了开往北京的火车.
有朋友问我,你想好去哪家公司了吗,有没有比较喜欢的公司,听到这话,我真想弹他个脑瓜崩,据我所知,通过社招找工作的应届生,只有一个途径,那就是海投简历,然后等待公司跟你约面试,开往北京的火车上,我收到了第一家公司的面试邀请,似乎生活在向越来越好的方向发展了.
四点多下了火车,蹲在地铁站等到五点半去投靠一个高中不错的朋友,到了他租的房子,直接倒在沙发上睡死过去,醒来已经十一点多.
我先去找了一个多年不见的高中同学,在北京读研,连哄带骗地,让她和我一道去了公司,办了离职手续,在地铁上,我和她交换一些这些年的生活经历和体会,她表示,再次开学不悲不喜,和男朋友相隔千里,觉得生活淡然无味,她说她想继续读博,我表示支持,并对她说,你喜欢一个人,我觉得就会喜欢很久,祝你幸福,她知道我说的是什么意思,人生已多风雨,往事无需再提.
有个人陪心情好了很多,下午送她回学校,又给另外一个初中同学,打了电话,我知道他就在附近工作,在一家鲜芋仙的店里,我悠闲地等待,他匆忙的出现,我和他交换了一些这些年的生活经历和体会,他表示,每天工作都要到十点多,周末加班是常态,工资还他妈低的可怜,不过自己现在是实习生,也不在乎,得知我要去上海找工作,他说明年毕业我也尽量往那边找工作.
我说,那就太好了,我本来还有些惭愧,本来我在北京还能给你些照应,结果你还没来我就走了,你还没走,我也要走了,我们相谈甚欢,哈哈大笑,毫无顾忌,他晚上还要回去加班,不一会也匆忙的离开了.
第二天晚上,我再一次踏上了开往上海的火车,这一次我平静的多,因为已经约了五家面试,有两家是我比较心仪的公司,至少够我忙活一段时间的,在疾驶的火车上,我开始回想自己这半年多的动荡不安.
初入职场的迷茫,以及对大学安逸生活的怀念,搞不清楚是因为迷茫而怀念以前,还是因为过往的安逸让人惰于思考,才变得迷茫,事情永远没有想象中的困难,很多时候,是因为有了选择,才变得焦躁不安.
我以前会觉得,工作,不就是赚钱嘛,工作的目的还不是为了不工作,现在觉得,还真不是,可能我们并不知道自己真正想干的是什么,但肯定知道自己不想干什么,浪奔,浪流,万里滔滔,江水永不休.长夜将至,我将从今开始守望,至死方休....
走的时候,我退掉了北京地铁卡,在放假前离开上海的时候,我办了一张上海地铁卡.
回到上海以后,开始了从没体验过的社招处女秀,本来想描述一下这段时间的心酸,但我意在励志,就不多提,总之,表面平静内心早已风起云涌,周三到了上海,周四去面试第一家,两轮面试,不到俩小时,周五上午给了结果,说面试官对我还算满意的,期待我加入,但是薪水肯定要比你上家公司低一些.
周五下午又去面第二家,笔试加两轮技面一轮HR面一直从一点多到了五点,hr说前三轮对你都算满意,还需要CEO面一下,下周一再来吧,什么,还要CEO面,是出任CEO,迎娶白富美的那个CEO吗,我故作淡定的说周一我有两场面试,她于是把时间定在了五点半.
周一上午,我去面第三家,到了公司门口,踌躇了很久,最终没有进去,因为下午是一场我更心仪的公司的面试,我怕精力会跟不上,下午如约赶往第四家,这是一家近两三年才迅速发展起来的公司,做音频的,我也是他们产品的用户,从不到两点开始,直到我出来公司,看了看表,5点10分,两轮面试三个多小时,出来直接虚脱了,还剩二十分钟,我一路小跑跟着导航到了第二家公司进行最后一轮面试.
最终一切都很顺利,面了三家,都顺利通过,我自信心爆棚,也无意在参加接下来的面试,开始做出选择,其中第二家公司能给开到五位数,但我心里早有决断,至此,一切尘埃落定.其中心酸,能再写个几天几夜,但是,结果是好的,过程就显得云淡风轻,我很满意.
第二天,和朋友一块吃饭,聊了聊过去,聊了聊未来,我们决定一块出来租房子,我想起了高中的时候,我的另一个哥们,就是前面提到的在北京读研的女生曾经喜欢的人,那时候我们总是形影不离,也一块幻想过,毕业以后去一个陌生的城市,一块找工作,一块租房子,一块吹牛逼,我突然感慨,那原来已经是四五年前的事了,而如今我已经和另一个人过上了这种生活,现在我们也偶尔联系,聊天的感觉依旧,我们都能很默契的一秒入戏,听他说,如果一切顺利,明年他也要出国了,我问他女朋友怎么办,他没细说.
一切似乎没有那么好,但也没有那么坏,学生时代越来越远,那些曾经朝夕相处的人,他们的生命里都曾有过我的轨迹,后来,随着时间的推搡,就这样,散落在天涯,他们中大多各自有了新的伴侣,你不再熟识,也参与不上,恩恩怨怨,曲曲折折,时间如雪,覆盖一切,不过,生活还在继续,我也给了自己一个企盼,希望自己能活的平凡而体面,保持身材,曾经的朋友也一定在路上体会自己那段路的酸甜苦辣,这里不是末路,也不是陌路,虽然那些命运的交织终会越来越淡,在越走越远的路上,还是真诚地,愿你岁月无波澜.
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