Life is life when you treat it well

After listening to countless inspirational songs, I found that my favorite is Zhang Yusheng's melancholy but very resilient - "My Future is Not a Dream".
Are you like me  who never give up the
life 
you   want even if you are
 indifferent torture. Changed countless positions and suffered countless failures, but life goes on. During the trough of life, I was at a loss, there were times of giving up, and there was also the unease of self-disgust. . . . . . It seems that he has already experienced his own unpleasant life at a young age. After graduating from Chengdu, he has nothing to do. After a year, he went to Guangzhou with his friends, but how can a big city have its own foothold without showing some real skills? Although he graduated from university, he seems to have learned nothing except to eat, drink and have fun. The only place I can live in Guangzhou is the construction site, as a coolie at the lowest level. After more than a year of busy work, I experienced not only the problem of salary arrears, but also the doubts and underestimation of my family members. Silent blame is often what hurts me the most, but it can only mean that I am incompetent. At the age when I should be self-reliant, I let my parents worry about my own life, and my inner torment deepens every time; When you avoid this reason, watching others get married and start a business, your self-esteem is even more affected.



After thinking about it a lot, I finally returned to Chengdu. I can't live in my own incompetence all the time. A thorough consideration, a plan for his future. Since it is a change, let it go. I have no code foundation at all. I finally chose to go to the code professor to learn development. Friends around me look down on me. In their opinion, software development is a high-tech thing. It is a scholar with a high degree of education. It is done by people like me who have been on the construction site to be a salesman. If I don't break out in silence, I will die in silence. I have been suppressed for a long time, and I always get pitied eyes when I don't want to chat with my classmates. Even if it is to prove myself, I have to work hard once. It can only be said that it is really difficult. I feel that I have taken the energy of the college entrance examination to face it. Staying up all night to study the logic of the code, and functional implementation are commonplace. I'm not a genius, I can only be a stupid bird and take the first step. After more than 6 months of hard study, in the process, I found that I gained not only conventional knowledge, but also my perseverance. Affected by the environment, I became more optimistic. More importantly, I still have confidence. Because of my hard work, I know more than the rest of the class, and under various inquiries from others, I have found a self-worth that I have never had before. It turns out that as long as one thing is serious, it can bring me unexpected results. The not-so-good experience in the past is the motivation for me to do one thing seriously now, and I have a wealth more than others.
For me, learning to be successful is not just a literal perception, but a mental journey from confusion to decadence and then to hope. I am very grateful for the indifferent treatment at the beginning, sneered, and I am glad that I was a little stubborn. I am good now, and I will be better in the future.