If I were asked to take the test again, I would definitely not be like this time.
It seems that I have returned to the winter vacation of 2017. Just after the new year, the fourth brother of an old grandfather who has almost never met came to my house. Because he is a fortune teller, he was very warmly received by his parents and uncles and aunts. My mother asked me when I could get married, my dad asked me about my future future, and the fourth brother mentioned that I would continue to go to school. At that time, everyone in my family knew that I didn’t want to go to graduate school and wanted to find a job. I also expressed myself at that time. The position of unwilling to take the postgraduate entrance examination and wanting to work, the fourth brother still said, you will still take the postgraduate entrance examination.
Gradually, after the school started, it was the second semester of the junior year, and the topic of discussion also involved work or postgraduate study in the future. At this time, my position was not so firm. From the beginning of looking for a job, it changed to asking seniors and teachers everywhere to introduce their own situation. I asked a lot of people, but in the end I still didn't have a score. It is nothing more than entangled in the work and the postgraduate entrance examination in the end which is better, in fact, things are very clear. If I can find BAT when I look for a job, I will definitely go to work; if I can pass the postgraduate entrance examination to the Qingbei Fujiao or C9, I will definitely go to the postgraduate entrance examination. It's just because I was used to a lazy life at the time, I didn't dare to change easily, and I didn't know if I could change into success. This rural child is no joke, I can't ask my parents for money anymore.
In the endless tangled thinking, a pack of cigarettes was gone. For someone who really has nothing like me, it is really too little to find a job for a few thousand dollars, and it will be slow to start low and rise. When I learned that the starting salary of CS graduate students in famous schools was in the tens or twenties, I decided to go to graduate school. I'm not afraid of failing the exam. I'm not a lazy person at heart. I'm just lazy when I go to college. In high school, I was often the first in my class to read early in the classroom. I was addicted to dota in my freshman year, and took part in the smart car race for half a year in my sophomore year. It was a redemption for me, but it made me unable to pursue a girl that I haven’t forgotten yet. In my junior year, I studied hard and took every course. The scores are not low, and there are also cases where the test scores reach 90 points, which is the second semester of the junior year. Take the postgraduate entrance examination, and do well to pass the entrance examination.
Which school should I take the exam? Some students take Fudan University, Harbin Institute of Technology, Xidian University, Peking University, etc., and which school I take exams, it’s already June. Which city do I want to go to, instead of going to the South, as far as I am, there is a prejudice against southerners. If you stay in the north and learn CS, go to Beijing. There are excellent colleges and universities in the CS direction. You can't pass the Qingbei test, the Beihang University test, the Beijing Institute of Technology, the Beijing Post, the National People's Congress, etc. One of the school sisters who used to do smart car competitions is here. Beiyou, just Beiyou, and Beiyou has a good job, which is exactly what I need. Now that you have decided on Beiyou, let's study hard, come on. But in fact, it's not.
In a blink of an eye, July 17th, the primary semester is over, and the internship score of 97 is the highest in my major. I am very satisfied because I worked hard. After playing dota2 in the dormitory for a few days, I went to the study room around the 20th and began to review the whole book. I found a lot of people who don't know how to read it. If you don't understand it, don't look at it and leave it to focus on breakthroughs later. Soon, the dota2ti7 International Invitational Tournament started around 8.6. I started watching the game until midnight, slept until 12 noon, had a meal, and went to the study room in the afternoon. I went home on 8.16, and it was almost September. When I came back, I suddenly found that it seemed that it had only been a hundred days. . .
(Why don't you want to read books, but always want to play games and watch games, is it because of laziness? The answer is obviously because of discomfort and fear, and found that it is more difficult than what I mustered up the courage to decide at the beginning, and it is not as simple as I imagined. Especially when reading the whole book and doing advanced math, I can't understand it, can't do the questions, I sigh and feel uncomfortable and don't want to do it. Sometimes I turn to English, and sometimes I go to the window in a daze. The more difficult it is, the more uncomfortable it is. It’s over, and it’s a vicious circle. I don’t smoke less. No, I can’t help it. I have to bite the bullet and go up. I really don’t have to ask others, and ask the girl next to me. Question (I feel uncomfortable, I used to be surrounded by a group of girls asking questions, and now it's my turn to ask girls questions. Of course, I was very respectful when asking questions. I wanted to study hard, and they must ask me higher numbers in the future. Question, this idea has hardly been realized), number one, four professional courses in computer, English one, and politics are well organized. After lunch, I will sleep in the dormitory for about 30 minutes, and go back to work at 1:20. From 10:30 in the evening I left the study room in the library, went to the Nantang classroom to find a place to study and came back at 12:00, and then got up at 6:10 the next day.) The harder I work, the less bottom I get, the more I fail to learn, and the faster the smoke burns.
In a blink of an eye, it’s time to sign up on the research recruitment website. Beiyou is a bit special, and you have to choose a group. This one is a bit troublesome, but fortunately, I, who has always been carefree, became cautious at this time, and felt that it was not easy. I took time to do my homework research, what happened to this group, what is it, and found a sentence: Beiyou, if you choose not well, it is similar to relying on Qingbei; if you choose well, it is the same as taking the second exam. It’s not enough to just find the information and report it blindly. I asked the senior who bought the professional course materials before. He didn’t reveal the situation, so there was no way. Looking for an instructor, I contacted a senior who was admitted to Beijing Post at his school. This senior is really good, this time I was able to be admitted to the senior and played a crucial role. When I asked the senior, the senior asked me about my review. I said that I only read two books in the next professional class, and the high mathematics is not good in 17 years. So simple, I scored 64 in the mock test. Senior, persuade me to go to this school. . . I didn't do it. I said that if I had come this far, I would fail the Beijing Post Examination (I am now terrified of my willfulness at that time). Senior, let me sign up for a group. The enrollment score of this group was second only to the exchange group last year. I told the senior that this group is too high. I guess it is not easy to say. Senior, told me the pros and cons. I thought that this is also a matter of probability. It is not hopeless for me to take care of myself, so I reported it according to what the senior said.
After a period of sprint time, in the full sprint, if you run too slowly, you will be finished, and you just bury your head and just run, and it is not very good if you don't communicate. .
Renting a hotel, taking the exam, and going back to school after the exam, I feel that the exam is average, but I still feel hopeful. However, in order to avoid the situation of neither getting into the exam nor getting a job, during the period, I contacted the seniors to push through a phone interview and two video interviews and entered the wave, and the salary was OK. Holidays, going home, gatherings, check the results: Politics 61, English 1 65, Math 1 73, Computer Basics 106, total score 305 . It's all over! ! ! ! ! ! !
After checking the results, I told the senior sister, and the senior sister sent it. . . . , I am half-joking to say that a classmate in my major (also a member of my smart car team, who passed the Fudan exam) surpassed me by more than 50 points in mathematics alone. Senior sister said what did you do early, why didn't you study hard. I really don't know what to say. I also told the senior about your grades. The senior said that you still have a chance to find a transfer. If you score more than 300 points, you should be able to find a transfer in Beijing, and there are opportunities for Beijing Petroleum and the like. I also decided to find a remedy.
However, the fourth brother’s prediction seems to have come into effect, and maybe he has received God’s favor. The statistics in the group are that the group I reported was upset this year and did not fill up. If the statistics are accurate, I will definitely be able to enter the re-examination as the original report, and My undergraduate school is 211 and I have done some competitions. Although the grades in the freshman year are not good, I still have some hands-on skills and development experience in some projects. I am confident that I have an advantage in the re-examination.
After that, I started to prepare for the re-examination, swiped on the computer questions frantically, and swiped frantically.
During the period, I was also uneasy, not knowing whether I could enter the re-examination or not. And even if I entered the re-examination, my grades in the first test were indeed a bit big. The postgraduates ranked third with more than 330 points, and I tied for fourth and fifth with another buddy with 305 points. The difference was more than 30 points, which was a bit too much. Do you want to go to Beiyou in advance to find a teacher to communicate with and submit a resume. I asked the senior, and the senior said that we will wait until the national line comes out. The teachers are very busy, so let me not worry. A few days after the national line came out, I came to Beijing on the high-speed train with my bag on my back. I was very excited to come to Beijing for the first time (as a person who has never been out of the province, it feels really good to come to Beijing. I love Tiananmen Square in Beijing, I really wanted to see it at that time), and I was very worried. When I arrived in Beijing at 5:00 pm, I stayed at my cousin's house for one night. My cousin and sister-in-law were very enthusiastic, because my cousin and I were 11 years different in age. The next day, I got up early in the morning to catch the bus, went to Beiyou at 8 o'clock, and ate a meal at a steamed bun shop next to it. A steamed bun cost 4 yuan and it was so small that I didn't want to eat a 3 yuan oil cake and a bowl of tofu brain. At around 8:20, I was waiting at the entrance of the laboratory, holding my resume. The laboratory was not open, and I didn't dare to look at my phone. A teacher came at around 8:40. I went up to say that the seniors are good, but I felt wrong. I changed my words and said that the teacher was good. The teacher said: go back and wait for the result. I followed closely: I am the original newspaper of our group. This time I want to submit a resume and communicate with the teacher. Then, the teacher asked me to put my resume on a certain table (there is already a stack of resumes on this table, and no one will read it, I guess). I said: Teacher, can I sit down and briefly introduce myself? The teacher's face is sullen: The teacher is very busy, you go back and wait for the result. Went in without looking back.
What should I do, I have to spend nearly 700 yuan to travel back and forth, can I go without saying a word? No, can't go. Waiting at the door again, a senior and a senior came in later. I saw a kind-faced senior, went up and said respectfully: "Hello, I am the original student of our group for this year's postgraduate entrance examination. Is teacher ** in the laboratory today? Senior Sister: It should be here after a while, so please wait a little longer.
At around 9:10, teachers came one after another, and the teacher also came in. Am I struggling to get in here? Still waiting. In the tangle, a half-bald fat man entered, and I followed up after watching. He went into the back room to chat with the teacher. I saw that I couldn't go in. Wait a minute and found out if the seniors and seniors were looking at me. . . That fat man was a student in this lab. After working hard for a few years, he wanted to come back to study for a Ph.D. After waiting for half an hour, the fat man came out. I saw that the teacher was looking at the computer and did not dare to go in. I waited at the door for about 5 minutes. The teacher suddenly came out and glanced at me. I quickly bowed and lowered my head to say hello to the teacher. The teacher asked : Are you looking for me? I said yes and went in. Then, the teacher asked me to sit down, and I reflexively said, "Teacher, I can just stand...", then the teacher asked me to sit down and introduce myself, (then it was finished, I was extremely nervous, and my words were all vibrato, I I don't know why I'm so nervous all of a sudden, I'm obviously not nervous at all when I'm waiting at the door). The teacher told me not to be nervous. After a while, when I talked about the competitions and projects on my resume, I finally calmed down. In the end, the teacher said, "Yes, it depends on what you do. It is suitable for the laboratory. Ask me if I know the re-examination process, and let me come to Beijing in advance to familiarize myself with the computer environment during the re-examination." At that time, I didn't react, except when the school gate of Beiyou called the senior, I recalled that I should be able to enter the re-examination. Senior, let me stay in Beijing for a few days to wait for the results. If I don’t get into the re-examination, it is very convenient to adjust (Senior, what he said is very, very right), I insisted on going back to school, and planned to go back to school in the afternoon. In the middle, I went to PetroChina Beijing to look for an agent, found a professor (thank you senior for the information), handed in a resume, and chatted with the old professor. The old professor saw that the project I was doing was similar to what he did in his early years. I greatly appreciate it and say "I appreciate you very much", and I will definitely admit you if you come here. This trip to Beijing is quite satisfying.
A few days later, theaters and group lines came out one after another, and I was on the retest list. However, a girl who was very good in my professional review did not enter the re-examination. . . Nearly 30 points higher than me. The selection group has exploded. . . Another man in the major who was 10 points higher than me did not enter the re-examination. . . One is speechless and regretful, and the other is that I go by myself, no one is with me, and no one is sharing the rent. The hotel over there in Beijing is so expensive that I can't afford it. .
That's it, get ready to take the test. I’m still quite confident. The original report for the Master’s degree was 6, and 2 were transferred (although they were all over 320 points), a total of 8, and I took 7 of the previous years and went home. Also, I was well prepared for the test.
The same high-speed rail, the same route, the same journey time. When I arrived in Beijing, I stayed in a youth hostel for 3 days, and got on and off the bed in a two-person room for about 95 a day. Get out of bed buddy, congratulations on being admitted to Peking University's clinical medicine in World War II. When I arrived at Beiyou, the senior and senior invited me to dinner. The senior also gave me the seat in her laboratory to make it easier for me to retake the test. Thank you. Report, political review, computer test (two A in ten minutes, the remaining two were stuck for one hour and fifty minutes, and the last was about 3 minutes. When I asked the next person how many times he did, he said 3, I was stunned, because I didn't look at him at first. When I saw the look and speed of his coding, I was speechless. In the end, I really ran out of time and didn't copy it. If I had done it two minutes earlier, I would have done three. Be open-minded), written test (there are a lot of original questions in the question bank, but if you don’t know it, you will be fooled. In the end, you can pass the test with 16 points), interview (the final highlight is the interview. If you perform well in the interview, you will be stable. If you do not perform well, go home. I It was the 11th, which was originally in the morning, but ended up being the first in the afternoon. The interview was alright, but when I was waiting outside, my mind was about to explode, and I learned that the buddy next to me was from our school, and the original The newspaper is also from our school, and one of them is from our school. Although the two are not, the school is similar to me, and the first test is more than 20 points higher than me. I am Nima...) (The mentality exploded, and I felt that the probability of being brushed was greatly increased. What is really speechless is that the teacher Bi She of the buddy whose original report was behind me is the admissions teacher of the laboratory... Let's bite the bullet, a total of 7 The teacher sat across from me. I printed out my resume, award certificates, transcripts, etc., and ordered them together. I introduced myself in oral language during the interview. I recited it dozens of times. I can't remember it at all. I was bombed. A teacher asked me a question in English, but I didn't understand. What should I do? He said it again, but I still didn't understand. .He: why is your english very low? Me: I dont often use english. Ask me about 6 and my grades... Other teachers started resume competitions, let's talk, I also emphasized in the middle Now, my listening and speaking are poor, but I have no problem with reading. I often go to stack overflow to find questions and the like. I wrote 5 project competitions, and it took more than 20 minutes. One of them, a teacher caught me calling Other people's library functions, this point is not ignored. I said that I mainly realized this part of the function with the help of other people's functions, (the ready-made wheels are not used, so I can't make another wheel, and I will not make them, this sentence does not Dare to say it.), said that I am not very good at it, I am studying hard). After the interview, I felt ok. There are some cross-exams ahead of me, and I think I have an advantage over those cross-exams. Come out and light a cigarette, it's extra fragrant, cool!
When I got to the gate of Beiyou School, I asked someone to help me take a picture. Whether it was successful or not, it was a commemoration. I made an appointment with a high school female classmate who was in the computing institute and went shopping. Although I was nervous, I was still very happy. It's fine, but, there's nothing you can do. In the evening, I came back and asked the seniors from the previous group to have dinner. If it wasn't for the seniors, I wouldn't be able to enter the re-examination at all. (Forgot, later I told the old professor from North Petroleum that I was in the original newspaper and caused trouble for the old man. Mr. Wang said, "Do hard work, master your true skills, and contribute to the prosperity of the country in the future!" I was moved I want to cry, because of one-sided relationship, and I have no grandfather since I was a child. My grandfather died before I was born. It is really moving to have someone from my grandfather generation say this to me, and I feel remorse for my previous decadence. And ashamed) When I asked the senior, the senior said that he invited him, he took money for the internship and so on, so he wouldn't let me ask. No matter what, I must invite this meal. I really want to thank the senior. It is the first time I have met with the senior for the meal. Before, it was only QQ and phone exchanges. The seniors are great! ! !
After dinner, the senior said to take me for a walk, I can't say it, don't bother the senior, I'm really not in the mood. Usually the result will come out at night, I have to go back to the hotel to wait for the verdict, but who knows that I will wait overnight.
The shared roommate left first. He was from Beijing Post in World War II. This time it was cold too. I feel sorry for him. Another friend passed the exam, congratulations.
Back to the hotel, take a shower, lie on the bed and wait for the result, listen to the song. At about 8:30, there was a message in the group, and someone said, "Dude, I'm ashore, and the street phone is on." I was immediately excited. . Sitting with the phone in hand and praying. The group continued, and 5 people who knew of it went ashore, and 5 people received calls. Time passed by so slowly, even if I was crawling, it was already 10:30. Why didn't I get a call yet. The other two did not say in the group that they received the call, one was from the school, and the other scored more than 350 points in the initial test. .
Is it really so uncomfortable, did I really win the lottery? Tossing and turning, getting out of bed and moving around. Around 11 o'clock, the buddy in this school chatted with me privately and asked me if I received a call. I said no, and he didn't either. I asked him if you asked about the 350, but he didn't ask. I thought to myself, it’s just the two of us, and I’ve written two of them this year, and the original newspapers of both of us have been brushed. . I also communicated with him, and he was also very uncomfortable. I told the matter, the senior, and said, or you can find a job in Beijing, introduced me to a company, and sent a HR WeChat. After thinking over and over again, I decided to go back to Qingdao to work at Inspur for a year. I told the senior, who said, "It's better to stay in Beijing. You can decide." I really want to stay in Beijing, but the default is 5,000. Should I ask my family to pay me the 5,000? How can I export it?
I started going to bed at 2 o'clock, I don't know what time I fell asleep, and at 7 o'clock, I felt as uncomfortable as my throat was stuck, so I woke up and took a shower. After doing some mental preparation, I thought I didn't pass the test, so I went to work. It's all the way, and I'll definitely do it well. It's a bit uncomfortable to come to Beijing twice, to waste so much money, to delay this nearly a year, and to live up to my parents' expectations.
Call your parents, and the phone calls, "Mom, I didn't pass the test."
Mom "Is the result so fast, doesn't it take a few days to come out?" (Mom doesn't really want to believe it)
"Here, the results came out the night after the interview. All the applicants who were admitted to the interview received a phone call, but another buddy and I didn't receive it. It's just that I didn't pass the exam."
From my father, "Is there a chance to adjust, let's fight for it again"
I said slowly, "Generally, there are none, other colleges have completed their re-examinations, and other good schools have basically completed their re-examinations. Beiyou is particularly late."
My mother answered the phone and said in a familiar tone, "It's okay, if you don't pass the test, you won't be able to pass the test, it's nothing special. After the re-examination, you'll be fine. You have a good time from there for two days, go see Tiananmen Square, go shopping Play. Come home for two more days to rest"
When I heard my mother let me have a good time, I suddenly couldn't control my emotions. I hurriedly said that I would not go home, went back to school, and hurriedly hung up the phone.
I couldn't stop the tears,,, because I didn't work hard in the early stage, the math was down, the re-exam was swiped, and I wasted so much money when I came to Beijing (why is it money again, I remembered that my parents were reluctant to eat and clothe, and gave all the good ones My brother and I have never been short of money. Every time I make a phone call, I ask how much money I have left and if I want to make more money. Before the start of school, my parents would deposit enough money in my bank card for a semester. And it's more than enough, I've never spent it all. I suddenly remembered that there was a time when my mother came over at a high school parent-teacher meeting, and I got up at 5 in the morning to make a large truck for wholesale goods in the village, and if I took the first bus later, I would be late. , but what happened to the lateness? My mother had to come early, not late. My mother suffered from stomach tuberculosis, and it was particularly uncomfortable when she was hungry. She struggled to walk. After she came, I took her to the cafeteria for dinner. Eggs were sprinkled in the morning. After all I said, I don’t want eggs, just a few oil cakes. At that time, I said that adding an egg is delicious, but my mother really didn’t want it. Adding an extra egg is just an extra dollar. I feel really uncomfortable when I see this. My parents have never been stingy. You may not understand the taste of it. The more you think about it, the more uncomfortable it becomes. You don't criticize me, but you let me play. How can I have the face to play, and I can't cry.
I have booked a high-speed rail ticket. I will go back to school at 4:30 in the afternoon. If I don’t go home, I have no face to return. I packed my luggage around 10 o'clock and wanted to go to Tiananmen Square, but I had the guts to go.
Suddenly, I found a message in the group, saying that a certain teacher received a transfer, and there are still places. After rushing out of the hotel, riding a Mobike and rushing to the school, I was already sweating while waiting at the entrance of the laboratory. When I was waiting for the teacher, I was also contacting the senior laboratory of the original newspaper, and I wanted to understand. Even if I didn't pass, I had to call to inform me. This is a bit too bad. The senior, asked the teacher, and told me that the students were not notified in a unified way, but were notified by the teachers, and some teachers had not yet notified me. ! ! Really dumbfounded! ! Not long after putting down the phone, the phone text message rang! ! "Congratulations on being admitted by ****"
I picked up the bag on the ground and walked away, my mind blank.
I called my parents and seniors again.
Went to Tiananmen Square.
On the 4.1st, I didn't eat that day. I was walking on the road smoking a cigarette, pulling my suitcase, and looking light.
I feel that I am really favored by God this time, the fourth brother is too accurate, the fourth brother is awesome! ! ! !
When you see this, you are also destined to work together and hope to be the pillars of the country in the future.
Self-improvement in this article
2018.4.21