Today, I saw a classmate on an app for the postgraduate entrance examination and said that he hadn't posted any updates in the space and circle of friends for two years. I just wanted to tell my feelings of loss in a place where there was no one.
Seeing what he said, I suddenly felt like I wanted to cry. I was really a person who had fallen from the world, so why should I know each other before.
Speaking of his past experience, I don't know anything. However, knowing his dynamic behavior, I think, I can guess his previous thoughts. Because I also posted two talks in two years, two talks about gatherings of friends. Later, after graduation, everyone went their separate ways. Perhaps, I really wouldn't even be able to post it.
In the past, a little sad, sad, would make some groaning words in the space. Gradually grow up, and gradually learn how to endure alone and digest one's own pain alone. The information in the space is constantly decreasing. In the past, some joys were shared in the space, but now, the desires in life are always unsatisfied, and I don't even know what I want, let alone express the joy in the space.
In the first three years of college, I was alive and unconscious, but in the next semester of my junior year, under the persuasion of my family and the influence of my surroundings, I chose to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and my life was full of vitality and hope. I have a little joy and a little pain again. However, after the preliminary examination results for the postgraduate entrance examination, I have no idea where to go. Because my grades are not ideal.
It was not unexpected, because before I took the Beijing University of Posts and Posts, I thought I could not pass the exam. Later, in the action, there was a lack of clear goals, and I didn't know how much I should learn. I applied for Beijing University of Posts and Telecommunications because I had studied mathematics and I wanted to take a master's degree, and the other was because my friends encouraged me. Although they did lift me up a little bit, I should thank them even more for giving me a good goal to strive for, which gave me a good time for the postgraduate entrance examination.
Looking back now, people really should have a clear understanding of themselves, and they should not be arrogant or humble. In addition, if you are not crazy or become a Buddha, if you don't have the sorrow and sorrow of bending down, you will not have the comfort of raising your body.
The reason for my failure in the postgraduate entrance examination is that I didn't achieve these two points. The first one chose a university where he had no self-confidence at all. The second one did not have crazy studies. He was always afraid to give up, and was always afraid that his efforts would be contrived in the eyes of others. Because I feel that the way others work hard is very artificial. What a ridiculous idea, I didn't work hard enough, but I thought others were pretentious.
Finally, I hope that for the rest of my life, I can work hard, listen to my inner thoughts, and live what I want.
