When writing this blog, I suddenly remembered the words left by senior Zheng Yuanfeng to my QQ dynamic: life is suffering: birth, old age, sickness, and death, love parting, resent for a long time, can’t ask for it, can’t let it go. I may have experienced the love and parting, I can’t ask for it, and can’t let go of these three kinds of pain, which once affected my normal working state.
I talked for more than two years. When she agreed to be my girlfriend, I felt that my fate with her going around was the luckiest thing in my life. I would doubly cherish the time with her. This is my first love recognized by me. The aftertaste is very sweet. It makes me feel the meaning of life that love brings to me, because we have gone to many places, let off the lotus lanterns, made wishes together, and rode a small motorcycle. The car took her around at night and scared her that she was running out of gas, etc. Later, I wanted to take her to Thailand, Sanya and other places, but these might be buried in my heart. The thing I have been struggling with in this relationship is whether to start a business first and then a family, or whether to start a family first and then start a business. If I didn’t have such a wonderful first love, my previous path might be to start a career first, and then send my blessings on the day when the person I like gets married or engaged, but I have a very sweet first love and experience the world. Pain, this kind of pain has a greater impact on me than when I took the postgraduate entrance examination, because the final result of the postgraduate entrance examination is very exciting, but the feelings are not.
I have read a lot of posts about relationship issues. They said that two people are always attracted to each other when they are together. I was not the rich second generation at that time. Maybe what moved her was really like her. After we were together, I thought I can tolerate anything from her, and later I discovered that these tolerances are based on not triggering the bottom line. The value of this relationship is that it was not appreciated by everyone from the very beginning of being together, but it has gone through more than two years. In this process, the boys hope to make achievements in their careers, and the women hope to have more company. , Boys are often inexplicably sad, and girls’ efforts have never been responded to by boys (maybe in fact boys feel very difficult now).
Ever since I failed in the high school entrance examination, I have never believed in fate, because I don't think I am lucky, nor do I think I can go on by luck. So I have been struggling with myself for the college entrance examination and postgraduate entrance examination, resisting fate. During the college entrance examination, I was rebelling against the fate of staying in a bad school and only being able to enter a normal university. When I was taking the postgraduate entrance examination, I resisted the fate of the ideal school that failed to pass the college entrance examination, and my academic career ended in this way. I also don’t believe that I will be overwhelmed by other people’s degrading feelings, because I don’t think I’m a mediocre person. I always believe that my current economic downturn is only temporary, because the Internet industry is now a big fan of opportunities and salaries. Not bad, I am more confident. I hope that one day I can turn the tide and step on these reality factors and not let them determine my destiny.
I try to tell myself that the person or thing I like does not necessarily have to be occupied or owned. Letting it at the right time and position will make it play the most value. One of the reasons is that I want to fulfill it and let them choose their own destiny; the other reason is that I want to come out. I used to talk about myself as a spare tire, and the deep meaning is that I don't want to make myself too sad. If the hand is too tight, the sand will walk, and if the hand is too loose, the sand will walk. Probably her position in my heart is very important, so I once had a lot of humble thoughts.
In fact, I sacrificed a lot for this relationship. When recruiting at school, I gave up some fast-growing companies (Pingduoduo, Didi, etc.), and chose a company that is very idle and has a good salary, so that I can make flexible arrangements. In my own time, if the woman has something to do, I won't be so passive. The last time I changed my job, I also hoped to complete the promise of buying a house in the next year, so I now try my best to increase my salary. In January 2021, I completed the task of depositing a 100,000 gift, but at that time she had unilaterally announced that she had broken up, but I still want to complete this task. In 2020, I did a lot of part-time jobs and kept compressing my personal life time. I did make a lot of money, but later I found that part-time jobs are very good in school, but at work, I have nothing to do with my resume and self-improvement. The usefulness of a little bit. I still have many plans in the future, which were all made silently in my heart when I was with her, but I think it is necessary to realize them one by one, such as buying a house in the provincial capital, selling the house in my home town, etc. Wait.
After talking about relationships, my personality has also changed a lot. I can now understand what girls want and how they usually think. If it weren't for this relationship, I might not know it until a few years later. I used to interact with men and women without distinction on social platforms, but now I have learned to avoid suspicion and think more about things when doing things.
I like Thai romance movies very much, because the movie speaks very purely, it's just feelings. It won’t be mixed with a lot of interest and intrigue, and the ending is perfect. Tell us that as long as we really give, the ending is very warm and beautiful, so I have an urge to go to Thailand to see it. The final ending of "Little Lover" is male. The host’s calm and warm smile, the end of "Love Letters", the hero has a new sense of life, walked out of the confusion zone, and re-recognizes himself; the heroine and the hero of "The Little Thing of First Love" have experienced the passage of time the most, and finally The best years of each other ushered in another reunion; "30 is Beautiful" in the beautiful and warm sister and brother love; "Next Stop, Say I Love You" began to create a lot of chance encounters, and then separated from each other due to contradictions, and then The two lived as hopes in each other's hearts, and then met again.... These are wonderful stories that are hard to see in domestic TV dramas and movies. I don’t really believe that I can find true love in two months. If it’s true love, I sincerely bless her. In my heart, everyone is not perfect. When it comes to falling in love, what you see in the end should be the fault of the other person. As long as one party can't stand it, it won't be able to go on. I don't want to put pressure on her because she is very unique in my heart, and I don't want to show her my negative emotions anymore, because I am unhappy, she seems unhappy, which goes against my original intention of dating and life.
I have always wanted to convey some positive things in the social circle, so I try to write with relief and without excessive remarks, so that on the one hand I can express my feelings, on the other hand, I can bring some good things to others. . I believe that this world is still very beautiful. We must carefully experience the little things in life. No matter how difficult things are, there are ways to solve them. Don’t give up hope; I suddenly thought of Jay Chou’s lyrics: "Dreams that can’t be caught, don’t change. "You got it", this should be for people to listen to the extreme, and it feels quite reasonable.
The male protagonist in "Seaweed Billionaire" experienced all the pains of life, and finally withstood all the pressure and failures, and became a person who can dominate his own life. I really like the lyrics of its theme song: "Even if you dream Don’t give up hope if you’re so shabby." It’s probably because I have experienced the pain of postgraduate entrance examinations and bet my whole life on the review for half a year. In the years when I can’t see hope, I insist on that fragile dream. So the understanding of this sentence is very profound. If I can't hold on any day, don't give up hope.
Below I have shared a few photos that I think are very good, very good memories, full of happy smiles, I hope these good memories can accompany my future life. The feelings that can withstand the precipitation of the years are true feelings. I also hope that one day in the future I can meet again and get to know each other again. At that time, I am no longer the one who has a love problem, and she is not the love impulse back then. Of her.
