Eleven is a holiday to celebrate, but for me is the opposite.
Others and their families, lovers play when I was their posts, non-stop coding ..... all this seems very dull, I feel nothing, but he was a state cut through the sky circle of friends I believe many people first thought might be "National Day military parade," "friend play landscape" .....
No, not, not, my circle of friends is a former girlfriend of state, are two people in the heart of the sun than the projected picture , also equipped with a text " for everyone than a Big Apple " (ha ha, is not to see this issue status of people that this is a lovely little angel, yes, yes, ex-girlfriend is such a person, mention will be proud of, here omitted 5000 words ......), when the first eye see this state when the head instantly Mongolia, Mongolia's feeling, you have experienced it, the brain short blank, I do not know where they are, his chest as if something had blocked the same, difficulty breathing , rapid heart beat .... sit quietly, sitting, after a long time, has opened a circle of friends re-read over and over again ..... do not believe my eyes, it's not true that he fooling themselves (is not it funny), and finally staring silently staring, feeling across the screen when her mood is so relaxed, happy, joy, like a flying bird, a fish free, original recall when we were together, she is so Splash lovely, sometimes naughty Funny look more pleasing, every time out to play like a pistachio as .....
But a young man does not know how to cherish, do not know how to love, care for, protect her, and now she was a result of side not me, but was replaced by another person. From July 8 to 18 years now we have been separated for 1 year and 2 months, and this year will live with each other fiery aquatic life, by God's "blessing" from July last year we separated, I the company was assigned a new team, lived 2467 overtime non-human model, 7,8,9 March more than 150 hours of overtime, overtime is super 10,11,12 March of 130 hours, until May of this year there was some recovery. I graduated 14 August entry into the company, before overtime together can count the number of hands up, but this year is really "the devil in" psychological suffering violence, brain and physical strength but also brutalized, are I say that this is a "punishment" do? ? ?
I was introverted, shy, strong self-esteem people, there is nothing like carrying their own, suffer in silence, in a multi-year time we broke up, I have many times, many times, to recover her dream there will always dream about our time together, or we and good looks, there are numerous pictures stamped in my mind, but either because of weak or no self-confidence, the courage to say to her again, only We can silently watching, watching, whenever there is a message or her status will not sleep well for several days, or even every time the bus when I would put in the car all the people see it again, looking for her ...... figure, even though the heart is anxious, expected, anticipated, but the action really slow, to be honest when I was afraid to face her, sad, sad, rebuke my picture, I'm afraid see her cry like, really, because when you see her cry, I will be very sad, faint of heart ache like a drop of blood, tearing feeling, but I would like to show very strong, I do not know What drives me nothing to disguise a Veil (a spanking look), it is a character flaw or "the devil" at work ......
Talk about the experience between us ......
I graduated 14 years came to this strange city, she was younger than me next, for our feelings, she arrived in the city (I was really touched, even though I sometimes joke that she and I would like to security research come forward), had just graduated, not much revenue (remember just graduated wage is 3800, after tax less than 3,000, a small second-tier cities), life was very constraints, a two-bedroom house can only be shared with others in the each month, the kind of room count about 850 hydropower, urban and professional reasons, she first came to work here is not very well, we can say we live a life of each other, usually she will wait for me to work, I will give back door a big hug, then I think this is enough, is my greatest happiness, but also my greatest support pillar, night market snacks every Friday night and weekend buffet meal is our most looking forward to is the happiest time occasionally go out and play, and occasionally buy some food back to eat their own cooking, washing dishes I cook her, two people busy enjoying themselves, she likes to eat Pork I do, and I deliberately bought a Cookbook (so now I will do a lot of home cooking), after dinner we play the game "King of glory," she worse than I Oh, I was always the scapegoat Man, and I do not want that after all together over ...... although occasionally some small friction, but we all believe that the man is like one another.
17 years of the second half and 18 years of emotional turning point when, for some reason sometimes lead to some small contradictions friction can not be resolved in time, like a balloon, then the course of time, conflicts began to erupt. So here also advise you a small partner, after two people get along, there is no terrible contradiction, the contradiction must be solved in time, what is the problem, more exchanges communicate with each other, do not be buried in the heart, buried in the heart like a time bomb, not sure what the root fuse will "bang" a loud noise.
For our feelings, I have been owed, why should not know how to love that, do not know how to cherish, nothing met a young man willing to accompany my life, why, why should this make fun of fate, more than a year I've been asking myself, also asked a lot of people, why, why should this ......
Constraints of life directly affects the material life, then pay thousands of dollars a month, you can not give flowers you want, you want plush toys, you like clothes, cosmetics, can not go on a trip with you, not with you features a variety of restaurants to eat food, though in your mouth does not say, but I know everyone is eager, you have never been asked of me, wronged himself out to take a bus, feet tired, take a break also crowded bus subway; I am most sad is picked someone else stood in front of a fast withered roses say get back to their feet with rose petals, then go back to when I press later determined I want to give you a day roses; like dolls machine in the plush toys, nonetheless reluctant to grab coins; like nice clothes stood watching for a long time, looked and looked and saw the price, always willing to walk away; watching others with lipstick, you say that they are embarrassed to come up with, people are using the brand; it is the envy of others on a holiday to go on a trip across the country, various views of the Sai cuisine, always said that after we have money, They go, "Well, after we go," later, and now, we have the opportunity to do all these years ??? In fact, she said, every word I have in mind, not only in mind, but printed in my mind, because this is my motivation, goal of fighting, and some others, we did not, but then I will a lot of cash, as every man has pieces of self-esteem, they looked at the surface does not matter, in fact, as long as the people he loved every utterance will in mind, because he will give the people he loved best.
The two years I have been working hard, now no longer the monthly salary of thousands of pieces, and others together to rent to me, before we expect everything, I also have the ability to deliver, why are people have changed .
In my most bitter days she traveled together with me, now how can I let go! ! !
Today the state to see her hair, found his other half, really, I am very uncomfortable, that only experienced to experience pain. But I'm happy for her, really want her to be happy, happy! If that person is not good for her, I have to beat the man at the meeting.
Then I can not imagine what the scene would see her, or that she would not be married invited me to, what we would say the first thing to meet
Hey, I do not think, if you really have the opportunity to meet the future will know
She is a good girl, stupid kind of white sweet, in fact, I am most worried about is her kindness would be cheated, really hope that this one is love.
Said more than a year trying to say the truth, the courage to say, record it down today, but since the language is not strong organizational skills, communication skills are not strong, did not write out the full interpretation of the inner thoughts, may be just 30% of it, have the opportunity to continue to add it!