Yesterday, all that is still upset my plans.
Serious than I imagined. I risk death to bring Mr. bigger than I knew before.
Although immediately also I think that the insurance can not do more to die. I can be more like an accidental death, although certainly not jumping in a car accident at ease, but I can do it, make it more like an accident. Mr. compared to now experienced, what more this pain is not.
I want to die, too I would like to died. I've started a new program, previously abandoned line with luck, may be less painful to die of desire.
But it really safe? I always take the safe way to seek comprehensive consideration to think about it, the risk is too great. Once that did not do a good job, if there is one thing I do not like to die unexpectedly, it is entirely the risk of being traced to let Mr.
Before Purchase Plan is completely dead because of what the law will not be held on the other side, people who want to save the network cable. If not ill-wishers who grabbed something, we can not afford to lift the storm.
But now I can not, if there's a little bit of news that the school ... No, this must not happen.
Either I do the best chance ... but I did not even exercise. Tut, really did not let me die unexpectedly methods do.
So only one way to go.
Alive, overthrow all the arrangements considered alive.
...... but this is too difficult. I do not fear death, I fear alive. Every day alive than anything painful. If there is no chance to die ... My life is a living death.
To now there is no hope, no power, decided early on to die, I reconsidered alive. What it is not does not matter, I ignored a lot of the things suddenly become breathless. During this time I said it does not matter how many times it does not matter, the more pain the next several times.
Death can no longer be free, and this is really the worst thing. Sure enough, obviously people like me still die relatively easy.
But not ... not. I said for what Mr. can be done, if only life that will not trouble, then I must live.
We must live ... to the future of Mr. valued, for his hope for the future.
This can be a little remedy some of the mistakes I made, and can slightly reduce some of the possible future loss of it. Even if this is not a help, but what I should do, reduce trouble and Mr. encounter all compensate.
Even so must be alive ... alive ...
This will allow Mr. situation a little better ... if you know the words he would not feel at ease a little of it, so do not worry about things like what was expelled ... okay, do not worry anymore. I will do my best ... to remove obstacles for you.
Ha ... live, a difficult proposition. This requires a good plan ... a lot of things.
It must be re-done complete control of yourself, to be able to timely suppress his urge to prevent suicide deaths occur. ... must be determined in the case of self-help is no will.
Even if everyone agrees that I am going to death ... because I had no desire to survive the performance. Even if I do not believe he is the best that he could be alive, I have to help themselves. I have to save themselves in case of no support.
Now to me, very difficult to do it. But do not try does not work, because it may be the only way to reduce the trouble to bring Mr.
Calm down the ink Yu-sheng, I still remember how it used to be to adjust their own, just as, again.
First, it is best to find a little positive momentum, at least can make people cheer of power. ... Then I start experiencing problems yet.
It can be used as a power thing has gone. I do not want anything ... and no one needs me. Although framed it, in order not to pose a risk to Mr can become a driving force, but the idea itself only made me realize that I will bear more pain.
But because it is in solving a Mr. is very dangerous trouble, so it does not matter, this is enough, to hold this idea as the source of it. Although this is the case, would it not be easier to crash out ... ah ha ha, but now there is no other way.
How then to solve their own death drive, how to make better emotional stability ... no matter the mood is not always bad, as long as the risk is not okay.
Probably ... if you do not die, I can let go of the hurt himself. Such plans will not be disrupted, but also I have to die well alleviate the guilt. If you can Zaihen punitive own, probably will be able to maintain psychological balance.
This is not difficult to solve, I just need no longer suppress the urge to hurt themselves. The urge to harm themselves and death can actually offset, I say this is also quite interesting to say ... maybe a little more appropriate alternative?
Sure enough, in every sense, more dead than alive yet ...
Ha, okay, this is very good, very good. I can do only so much, no problem.
Even if this time is not only self-help themselves ... even the desire of their own, will be able to do it ......?
One last question, how do do it, if it is barely want to die how to do it.
Ah ... okay, then force yourself to do it. If at any point hold on, put the blade embedded in the arm.
It hurt? But compared to the trouble you bring to others, which is not worth mentioning. You can do so much, that you should do more.
Ah ... so it does not matter, so that you be all right. As long as I can do, how much help will be on the busy bar.
Eye sore.
Today can not sleep, I have to prepare a detailed plan as early as possible.
When generating the idea to continue to live the feeling of light around suddenly darkened. Dizziness, and even vomiting sensation. Shades grayer than usual around the around is such a despair.
But even this desperate man, but now we must find a way to live.
If my message does not appear again in everyone's field of vision like ... before they occur it has not changed.
Maybe I'll run into some people become very sorry thing. Maybe there's coaches feel close to us is training people regret things that might help my people will think is a waste of time was also dragged down by a very sorry thing.
Such a thing, I pray will never happen a ...
If you can die early enough, so do not worry about all these. But now that must be considered is another way ...
I must survive in a world of time, I can no longer do more things for everyone, not a bad influence, but could help things ...
Sure enough, people like me, can not do anything, right?
Mr. muster. He sincerely help a worthless person, while smart enough to see everything and do it to withdraw. Of course, all this ultimately wise and decisive people's help, I thus have great admiration for them and appreciate everything they do.
Whoever is cut off, and my contact is very correct choice. I knew from two weeks ago, Mr. can do good enough, you can do distractions.
For this reason I am very happy.
After a year of self-help and memories have been very different, to put it funny points, ghosts know this year I experienced what.
So no one will stick, will help me to achieve success, no matter what kind of people will not work.
Because after all, I could not even human neither. Humans do not understand how to pull back the ghost as one of the dead.
Although perhaps at that time I was not bent to die ... I understand their determination is too late. If earlier will be able to recognize their own destiny, so many things would not have happened.
But even say that I still have the desire for the opposite goal.
In any case, from now on, this is a pulling on the sling stood up stories.