I've been very uneasy recently, and I often think about some things that I don't have. Maybe it's because I'm thinking about changing jobs recently.
Every time you look for a job, the first thing to do is to summarize the past, think about the present, and look forward to the future.
To sum up the past, I have been working for nearly 3 years. To be honest, I understand some development routines, but the depth is not enough, the technical research is not deep enough, and I always try it out. I also know that it's a bad habit for technology, but it's always because of this or that reason that I can't go deeper. Just like a question in the interview not long ago, let an object be instantiated, transmitted to the other end through TCP, and de-instantiated. It was not a complicated question at first, but it took me a long time to solve it, and it was not perfect. It seems that when learning knowledge, there must be a bit of energy, and only in this way can success be possible!
The current situation is that I have taken over a few other people's projects, which means maintenance and adding some small functions. I used to be very satisfied with this model and didn't pursue it, so many abilities have not been exercised until now. I watched a movie yesterday, and it suddenly dawned on me that it is possible to succeed if you work a hundred times harder. I remember when I was in high school, I could always practice there for a goal, but I forgot such a simple truth when I was out of that environment. I have to admit that many times, I am just a walking dead, mechanically completing the superposition of one function after another. Many times I wonder, is life like this? To live, to survive, to waste time on this sort of thing. Everyone is like a screw in the big factory of the world, playing his own role. When a screw is broken, another screw will be replaced immediately. Perhaps, what I have to do is to try to make an unusual screw, or a screw that is not so ordinary, so that my role can be seen by others. When others see me, they will discuss with others, "Look, he is that so-and-so, how powerful he is in so-and-so, and there are very few people who can do this!
I have many shortcomings, such as,
Unconfident (when communicating with others, I always show an unconfident mentality and dare not argue with others. In fact, I feel that technical arguments are beneficial, at least it can allow various ideas to collide);
Poor eloquence (some things are always not well expressed, or lack the art of speaking);
Fat (this shortcoming grew up with me, since I can remember, I have basically never lost weight. I know that obesity is really bad, whether it is in terms of image or health. But I can't control my mouth, many times I always compromise on food);
Lazy (lazy since childhood...lack of self-management awareness);
Bad temper (the more kind people are to me, the easier it is for me to bring negative emotions to them. After each episode, I always feel sorry for them, but I can't control it when I get there);
Happy with things, sad with things (should be translated as being easily affected by foreign objects, in fact, I know that the real big man is the one who does not change color when Mount Tai collapses before, this is the temperament of a general);
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There should be many more that are not listed, but the above have had a great impact on my life and psychology. Perhaps, I should find some way to increase my self-confidence. Regarding the cultivation of eloquence, it should be simulated a thousand times and ten thousand times behind the scenes. That's what sweat means. Regarding that fat, all you can do is exercise + control your desires. If you have a bad temper, you should do more psychological construction for yourself and think in a different position. The last one, you should strengthen your own psychological quality, I don't want a glass heart, I want a strong heart!
Hopefully I can get over these shortcomings from now on!
Think more, summarize more, and make progress.