During May 1st this year, a colleague said that he wanted to go to Dunhuang. He thought that it would be a good thing to go to Dunhuang and visit the great northwest of the motherland. On the 5th day after I came back, I suddenly wanted to write something about what my trip to Dunhuang brought to me.
State of mind and life before departure
Some time before May 1st, I was very busy with work. As the company's business volume gradually increased, there were more and more things to design the trading system, and there were some other new requirements. A while ago, my life became a bit messy. I worked overtime every day after 8 o'clock, which directly led to the inability to carry out my daily studies, and the progress of my studies was particularly worrying. At the same time, during that time, I found that I couldn't focus on multiple things at the same time. , the many things here refer to my linux learning and fitness, so I try to temporarily cut off a hobby, fitness, try not to go to the gym, and replace the heavy weight training 2 to 3 times a week with a relatively small amount of daily exercise ; I put more energy on my studies, but I haven't found a good solution and obtained the desired effect during that time. Everyone's physique is different. I have to use fitness to support my daily study and work. In addition to ensuring enough energy, but also to maintain the health of the cervical spine.
Main travel itinerary
The whole trip to Dunhuang is actually nothing impressive to me. Dunhuang may have been very prosperous in the past (thanks to the Silk Road), but now it seems to be a small city mainly based on tourism income. friendly. Basically, like other tourists, we go to the famous scenic spots in Dunhuang, buy one or two hundred tickets, and watch one or two hundred performances.
life after returning
After returning from Dunhuang, what I feel more is the determination of the answers to the problems encountered in life now. Since graduating, I have not been able to find a balance in my life. Various things have made me doubt my own life. As many classmates fled Beijing, I once had the idea of leaving Beijing. The problems encountered in Beijing are likely to be encountered after going to Hangzhou, Guangzhou or Shenzhen. In fact, a lot of things happened in Dunhuang, including the first rear-end collision in my life, encountering tourists who also work in Beijing, etc. These experiences have made me understand and firmly believe that I am a simple person, a person who wants to live in his own way, and a person who is unwilling to face life in a chaotic and dazed state. These are basically discovered after encountering things. of;
What I can remember now is that a very friendly driver in Dunhuang asked us about Wang Yuanlu's view of selling the cultural relics of the motherland. I said at the time that it was understandable, because people die for wealth and birds die for food, but the same people Colleagues and the driver have the same opinion. If he hadn't sold the cultural relics abroad, he would not have paid attention to the Mogao Grottoes and Dunhuang, and even the current Dunhuang Studies. At that time, I clearly realized that I am a A very "selfish" person, I can fully understand some extreme things such as hurting others, committing crimes, visiting prostitutes, etc., and basically have no personal feelings. This may be related to the environment in which I grew up when I was young. I hold a knife in front of my mother, the hawker takes pleasure in bullying children, the boss oppresses the employee because he is a child, and the society is full of malice from time to time, etc. These make me grow into an indifferent and considerate understanding In the conversation with the driver, I clearly realized who I am as a person, and the memories of my childhood flashed, and I realized that it was this that created my humanity;
There is also a smell on my colleagues, a relatively strong body odor, I try to compromise, after all, many northerners do not need to be very clean, but this ended in failure, the strange smell even made my body produce This experience also made me realize that I am originally a southerner, and the southern environment not only created my southerner physique, but also directly affected my "southern" character and personality. In the same way, there are many times in life when I compromise others and change my mind to deal with things, which will make me feel very awkward, and can explain why sometimes I am lazy and have too many things in the room, which makes me feel awkward and uncomfortable. The logic of things They are connected, and this allows me to find the reason why I insist on living and growing in my own position. If you find the reason, you will be able to successfully prove that what you are doing is right;
What I can think of now is that I saw a large-scale stage play in Dunhuang, which is quite shocking. In my opinion, this proves once again that what I am doing is right. There are many historical figures in the stage play, which are basically related to the history of Dunhuang. Related, for example, Chang Shuhong spent most of his life studying Dunhuang, protecting and recovering the historical relics of Dunhuang. The main idea is that everyone will encounter all kinds of beautiful things in life, because everyone's growth environment is different. Everyone has different aesthetics. There are various characters in the history of Dunhuang, such as generals, Taoist priests, emperors, monks, deans of colleges, etc. Chang Shuhong may think that the thousand-year history of Dunhuang is a beautiful thing , General XX may think that fighting on the battlefield is a very meaningful (beautiful) thing, etc. You must find the things in your life that you think are beautiful, and spend decades of your life to pay for her, I have been looking for, my The road may be linux, although I am not sure, but what I know is that when I write assembly, solve algorithm problems at work, and brush ACM math problems in my student days, I will have a continuous sense of pleasure and even climax. This may be mine the way.
Now I think of these experiences for the time being, I think I will add more...
Sometimes when I encounter difficulties when studying or exercising, I doubt my motive or correctness of doing this. I feel that I encounter more things, and at the same time prove the meaning of my life, so that we can Only then can you really show off your personality and have a life of your own. Otherwise, you can be a house slave, do what others have done, and live a life defined by others. Can you endure such a life? Life is inherently colorful, good and bad. This is the meaning of life.