Time flies, and it has been almost two years since I joined Beihang. When I came here, I didn't have any goals; two years were about to pass, and until a few days ago, I still had no goals; until a few days ago, I was hit hard by life and I woke up like a dream.
Think about yourself, it's almost 21 years old! Once upon a time, this age was so far away for me, so far away that it seemed that I would never touch it; but now, it is within my reach - I have grown up, matured, and my family is old, Soon, I will be truly responsible for this family. However, what I am ashamed of is that I am still wasting my time, wandering aimlessly on the campus of Beihang University, and letting myself get by with the "halo" of being a student of the School of Computer Science of Beihang University every day!
What the hell am I doing? Am I worthy of my family? Am I worthy of the teachers who had high hopes for me? Am I worthy of the one who has suffered so much and suffered so many sins and worked so hard just to be the best of all people? Am I still the proud, stubborn, arrogant, fearless me?
What really made me wake up, in addition to the ineffectiveness of OO after three consecutive attempts, and my own insight-this is the opportunity for me to wake up, and it is also the motto I should always keep in my heart.
The thing is from a few days ago. That day, for convenience, I opened an old HP notebook that I haven't used for a long time, and planned to use it to open some files, and then use the new Shenzhou Ares to open other files. As a result, the old notebook ran smoothly, while the new notebook ran relatively laggy. Because of the trade war between China and the United States these days, I have inadvertently thought that even an American notebook produced in 2008, regardless of its performance, is at least smoother and more efficient than a Chinese notebook produced nearly 10 years later. It's easy to use; then, even if China's technology level and manufacturing level are not behind the United States today, and the two sides are at the same level, China's manufacturing is far behind that of the United States, right? Otherwise, how can the Shenzhou Ares notebook manufactured with the manufacturing process 10 years later be as smooth and easy to use as the HP notebook 10 years ago? Among them, the manufacturing process level is obviously not the decisive factor. The decisive factor is something that has nothing to do with the level of manufacturing technology, which I call the industrial spirit. At present, Chinese companies rarely have an industrial spirit, while almost all American companies have an industrial spirit. Chinese companies without an industrial spirit only produce products mechanically in accordance with the steps, while American companies with an industrial spirit will demand the perfection of every step during production, so as to maximize product life, performance and quality. Therefore, American notebooks still run smoothly after 10 years, while Chinese notebooks have experienced performance declines such as stuttering in less than two years. Not only notebooks, I have also seen some reports that the same parts are assembled in the same way and assembled in the UK, and their performance is more than 30% higher than that in China - this, among them The difference is obviously also in the spirit of industry.
Then, I quickly thought of myself. I usually do not perform well in studies. I usually tell myself that there is a big gap between me and those so-called great gods, so there is no comparison - this is also what elders or other classmates say to comfort and persuade people. . However, I seem to have forgotten that if I were to learn new things, would there still be a basic gap between me and those so-called great gods? For example, we all learn OO, we all learn OS, or we all learn Tai Chi fans. Is there a gap between me and the so-called great gods? Completely non-existent! Even in a sense, I have an advantage because I have stronger perseverance, and I can use it better after I learn it! But the result? Time and time again, my performance is far inferior to the so-called Great God. Among them, what plays a decisive role is obviously not the foundation, nor the personal ability.
The decisive factor is obviously the spirit. The Great God has performed well in the previous process, so he has stronger self-confidence, and he is more confident and full of expectations for his new journey, and he is more positive and optimistic when dealing with it. , so I lost self-confidence, and I didn't think I had the ability to learn and master new things well, so I was full of fear of the new journey, and I was afraid that I would "make a big show". If you are so cowardly before you fight, how can you not be defeated?
So, from now on, I have to recognize myself. I have two major characteristics - not good at speed, but extremely tough; not good at accepting, but extremely useful. This means that when I do things, I may be slower than others, but I must be more persistent and persistent than others; when learning new things, I may learn and accept slower than others, but once I learn , I must use it better than others. Therefore, my ability is not necessarily worse than anyone else's, on the contrary, it is probably better than most people! Therefore, I have to firm up a belief that my ability is better than theirs, and the reason why I am temporarily worse than them is just because I am slow to learn, I have not paid enough, and my efforts are not in place!
The awareness of the spirit is only one point of awakening me, but not the main point. The most important point is that I am shocked that I have become dependent on the status of a student of Beihang School of Computer Science! I was shocked to realize that if this continues, my future will probably depend on the graduation certificate of Beihang University! How can this proud me accept it? I can't accept it! My ability, my status, and my life must never be judged by a diploma! As proud as I am, I should let the Beihang graduation certificate be the icing on the cake for me at best, and even the identity of Beihang students is optional in my profile, and it takes up too much space to write it, so it is worthy of me pride!
So, I swear, I'm going to work hard, I'm going to be great, I'm going to shine! I want to be so good that the graduation certificate of Beihang University is not necessary for me! I want to shine so brightly that I don't even deserve to be a student of Beihang University on my profile!
This oath is arrogant and arrogant enough, but hasn't I always been like this? Because of my arrogance and stubbornness, I became excellent and entered the Computer Science Department of Beihang University! Now, standing on the tail of 20 years old, I have to tell myself and the world that I will continue to be arrogant and arrogant! I have experienced more desperate situations, and I have also risen against the trend in even worse desperate situations. Now, in this less severe situation, why can't I rise up?
No matter how much scorn and ridicule I have to receive, I don't care! In the same desperate situation before, didn't I suffer the same scorn and ridicule? No matter how much perseverance and hard work it takes, I will still fulfill my promise! When I was in a more desperate situation before, I was still able to buck the trend. Now that I stand at a higher starting point, I should shine even more!
I thought a lot about whether to publish this article, and finally decided I would. Just like when I left Jade High School for more than a year, and then finally studied at Yangmei Middle School, I only scored 494 points in the first monthly test, but didn’t I still arrogantly swear to sprint to Tsinghua in the summary of the monthly test? Now, as a standard Beihang student scum and trash, I have to make my arrogant oath openly and aboveboard! How can I be so good if I don't even have the courage to make an oath? If I don't even have the confidence to become that good, what vow do I make?
I believe! I believe I can persevere and have more perseverance than others! I believe that I use it better than anyone else for anything!
I swear! I swear I'm going to be great and shine! I want to be so good that a diploma from Beihang University is optional for me! I want to be so good that this information about Beihang students does not deserve to appear in my profile!
I will persist and fight for my oath!