When we were young, we laughed and cried, and when we grew up, we laughed and cried.
I was born in a small poor village, when I was a child, the village was relatively poor. I was very happy at that time. I had a group of friends who played happily together every day.
When I was a kid, I loved New Year's Eve. I like New Year's clothes. At that time, I will save my new clothes for the New Year. A candy of 3 cents can make me very happy. Come to my house; a few days before the Chinese New Year, we will go up the mountain to fight cypress, each of us will bring an axe and run between the mountains; during the Chinese New Year, we will play poker together to endure the year, and we will come out at 12 o'clock Burn cypress and set off firecrackers. I had nothing at the time, but I was happy.
Slowly, we grew up a bit, entered school, and we started to have more homework. But even so, we were carefree in elementary school. Because we are poor and in the countryside, we do not have the conditions to enroll in some extracurricular interest classes, nor do we have that kind of vision. Although our childhood was not so colorful, we were still very happy.
When we entered junior high school, our homework began to increase, and the pressure began to increase. Former friends also went their separate ways. Only during the New Year can we all get together, and we cherish the time together more. In junior high school, I met a lot of friends, including my best friend. We were always inseparable. One time I didn't go home for Chinese New Year. I also played with him and my two other friends. We went to the park to dance Jumping on the bed, because it snowed, the boss also went home, no one took the money, there was still a lot of snow on the jumping bed, but we were still very happy. We went home to play with friends and played poker together during the New Year. Although the things we played during the New Year were very monotonous, we were very happy together. The village was full of our laughter and laughter.
Going into high school, it was more stressful to study, I got into the so-called top class, and one of my best friends in middle school got into the regular, and we got separated. Because of the high pressure of study, I fell in love with music. When I'm alone, I like to listen to songs, that kind of enjoyment that not everyone can feel. In school, in fact, many people misunderstand that those who do not like to study are more stressed than those who study well. I'm the kind of person who doesn't like studying in high school. I don't like to study every day things that I don't really like, but I still learn something. And high school life has given me a habit of liking being alone. Many children like to be in groups, but I don't like it very much. Many people say that I don't fit in groups. Whenever I'm alone, I listen to music with headphones. I don't like listening to gossip, I just want to stay in my song all the time. It's not because I'm not gregarious, but because I haven't found a friend like my high school classmate, but if it's just the friendship of ordinary classmates, there are actually few common topics. I don't like basketball, I don't like football, and boys in high school usually still like these things. It's not that I don't want to talk to them, it's that they talk, and I don't have much interest at all. On the contrary, the beautiful melody of the music makes me very relaxed. Actually, I don't like to sing, but I like to listen to music, not music about love, some with beautiful lyrics, or some old-fashioned songs.
Likewise, music accompanied me into college. In fact, when you enter the university, you also step into the society with one foot. Some social phenomena also began to appear. Including the performance of various occasions, various entertainment among the students. But I don't like doing things like that. In fact, we all know very well that many times we don't have such a good relationship, we are just friends at the dinner table, but many people do better than me, and I don't like that kind of hypocrisy. In college, I was first exposed to software programming. Sometimes I am very fortunate that I did not allow myself to enter the state of being a scholar in high school. If I can do well in the test, then there is a chance that I will miss out on software. In college, I experienced a lot of things, happy and sad, basically all of them. Those are some good memories, and they also laid the foundation for entering the society. In the university, the schoolwork is not stressful, but the graduation job is about to be faced, and the thinking begins to change slowly. When I came home during the New Year, although I played with my friends, I didn’t feel as happy as before. Each of us has our own affairs, and each of us has a mobile phone. We have started to live with mobile phones. Even if a few friends are together, we all play on our own phones, and we each tell our own stories, but it's still relatively harmonious.
During my college career, I met some like-minded friends, some teachers who really care about students, and I also met my girlfriends. I am very fortunate to meet them and make my college career so happy. Of course, I also encountered some sad things, but these will become memories, ups and downs, part of life. We met a lot of friends, but we couldn't get back the feeling we had when we were young. We began to mature and develop into so-called gentlemen. But maturity comes at a price, we lose our time, our joy. I am a slow-heat type, I can show my sincerity towards friends, but I don't have the kind of enthusiasm that many people have towards strangers. Many friends felt that I was a joke after getting acquainted with me, and they lost a lot of friends because of this. They thought my indifference was fake. In the university, there is no one who can really make friends, because usually indifferent, when you really want to show your sincerity, the other party will not buy it, they are used to your indifference, your weakness will make them think you are naive . In fact, every man has his own childish side. They like to show their real self to their real friends, but real friends come from ordinary friends. They are used to ordinary you, but it is difficult to accept the real you. In fact, I am not indifferent. People who have been in contact with me for a long time know that as long as they find me and ask me to help, I will try my best to help. Many strangers find me difficult to approach because I don't like to laugh, and I don't like to be in groups. I like to walk quietly by the lake, on the small road, listen to songs and enjoy the tranquility alone at night. But after a long time, I found that I was wrapping my heart tightly without knowing it. I didn't want more people to enter, and I no longer like to be close to others, because as long as I am tempted, I may be injured. , The injury is serious, and I dare not try again.
Only after I really stepped into the society did I discover what the real society looks like. We start to get on the right track in life. When I first arrived in Beijing, I was deceived when I rented an apartment. Everything I said before renting the apartment was scattered like nonsense. No one would reason with you anymore. At that time, I realized that the society is not as good as I imagined, because Many people want to live, so they choose to deceive. I always thought that these deceptions were far away from me, but I didn't expect them to happen around me. At first it was difficult for me to accept, many people said I was negative, many people said I was avoiding. In fact, I cared about the money, and I came back after a few more days of work. I just don't want to accept the dark reality that this society has so many, it's too far from the reality that everyone thinks peace is the most important thing, I don't understand why they lie, can't a serious business support themselves? Then I accepted that they wanted more, only through some unreasonable means.
In the society, I no longer trust anyone at will, and my friends from the university are also distributed in the north and south of the country, and gradually they have little contact with each other. There are very few friends who can tell the truth, and more of them are friends of wine and meat. Sometimes I really miss the days when we were students. There is no conflict of interest between us. Our friendship is a very simple relationship without many social temptations.
I didn't go back to my hometown for Chinese New Year this year. My friend called me, which was really heartwarming. Now we are very convenient to communicate, QQ, WeChat, Slack, etc., we no longer use text messages and phone calls. Our New Year's blessings are also distributed in groups. To be honest, we don't read many blessings carefully, because they are the same, and there is no point in reading them.
In the past, we would make a phone call during the New Year. When we heard the voice of our friends, we were very happy, but now, when we see blessing text messages, it is as casual as eating and sleeping; for the red envelopes we received before, we can We have collected them for many days, and now we rarely see red envelopes. They are all QQ and WeChat red envelopes. We were also happy at the time, but we found that we couldn’t get out of our mobile phones. The New Year is not as prosperous as it was ten years ago. In my city, except for a few rows of red lanterns to herald the Chinese New Year, there is nothing else to see. The current Chinese New Year is a holiday for us.
We have grown up and China is richer, but we are less happy. In the past Chinese New Year, we could hear firecrackers everywhere, and people would gather to play poker and mahjong. I don't see the harmonious atmosphere in the village at all in the city. All I see is the defense among people, like guarding against thieves against their neighbors. In ancient times, when the household was not closed at night, the relationship between distant relatives and close neighbors no longer existed. We would rather talk nonsense with people we don’t know online than say a word to our former good friend, not because we don’t want to say it, but because we don’t know what to say.
In society, all your actions can be questioned. Your kind words and deeds will be said to be a show by others, and some of your behaviors of helping others will be said to be famous. When your kindness is shown, a group of people will guess your intentions, and then we dare not show it again. Show us any kindness, any mercy. We have been assimilated by society, and we have become the people we used to hate. We follow the footsteps of society, the fast-paced life makes us lose the time to calm down and think, we are tired every day, but do not know what we are doing. Day by day, year after year, the same life, the same picture, we have countless cycles. Slowly, we agreed on a saying: this is society, this is where the deal is.
Why do people come to this world, we are not machines to make money, we are not here for work. The question we should be thinking about is: Who am I? where am i from? Where are you going? At a glance, we have actually seen our own birth, old age, sickness and death, but we do not want to admit that we think we are young and we have capital. We work hard to make money, and we use it to get what we want, including relationships. We have lost the innocence, kindness, heartfelt devotion we deserve. Because we have to adapt to this society.
According to the Buddhist scriptures, there are seven hardships in life, such as birth, aging, sickness and death, separation from love, meeting of hatred and hatred, and inability to seek. We have actually experienced a lot, but we have never seriously considered it. We fight for our desires, and we use our so-called reasons to erode the kindness of this society and make her more realistic and more beneficial. We arm ourselves tightly and move forward in the ups and downs of this society. Only when we are alone will we take out our heart, touch it, shed a few tears, and then put it back. We dare not show our weakness to others, including our parents. Because we've grown up, we've always wanted to show the best of ourselves to those we care about.
When we were young, we cried and laughed because we saw candy; when we grew up, we laughed and cried. We don’t know why, but we feel bad, that’s us The sealed child is heartbroken, but we'll be good at disguising soon. At a glance, we are born with babble, we always hang our joys, sorrows and sorrows on our faces, to closed hearts when we grow up, to bearishness when we get old, everything is put down, and our life is over. A hundred years later, a handful of loess, we do not own anything, not even a handful of loess.