After returning from a suspension of school, I wanted to transfer my major to computer. However, although the results of the transfer of majors are enough, the application time has passed (our school submits applications for the next semester), and there is no chance to transfer majors. After being introduced by the senior at the time, I paid 10,000 yuan to enroll in a programming class and wanted to learn programming systematically.
By chance, I was the vice president of our school’s robotics club at the time (although I just came back from school, but the popularity is still there), that year the club’s instructor was replaced by a computer school teacher, he was a lecturer, hand But there is a small laboratory inside, with a few seniors who are said to be very good. I inquired that last year several seniors under his laboratory had published several papers with high gold content. Two of them went abroad to study, a few were guaranteed to Shenzhen University, and several seniors received scholarships, and the tutor also gave value to the students. A computer worth tens of thousands of dollars. At that time, I thought this teacher was very good, so I wanted to join his team.
At the beginning I managed the club and dealt with the teacher from time to time. My major also had projects and competitions to participate in. After the teacher knew about it, I wanted me to help him bring a small project and make a competition. The project is basically what the seniors have done before, take it over and pack it, make a PPT, and I can just go to the defense. The teacher may think that I did a good job, so I often help him with some small projects. Almost a semester passed. I realized that although I had been working with him on projects, I had never touched the technology. It was all existing things. Then I assigned a few laboratories to change it. It is the position of team leader, but only responsible for PPT, notebook, defense and material procurement. To put it nicely is a project manager, but to put it straight is a chore. I told the teacher that I wanted to learn technology and wanted to join his laboratory. Unexpectedly, the teacher agreed soon.
At that time, I could say that it was a zero foundation. I only learned the C language for less than two months at the cram school. After the teacher knew that I had signed up for the cram school, he asked me to refund the money, saying that the cram school was very tricky and asked me to concentrate on studying in the laboratory. I listened to the teacher very much, although at that time, whether it was a senior theology senior in the club or a senior in the laboratory at that time, they told me that the class was very conscientious and taught very well, and even I felt that the cram school taught very well. But I still listened to the teacher and refunded 7,000 yuan. To be honest, the habit developed since childhood is too obedient.
I took this 7000 yuan to apply for the IELTS class because the teacher told me that going abroad is easier than taking the postgraduate entrance examination. Of course, I also hope to go abroad to see it by going to school. The teacher told me that it is easy to go abroad and not difficult to prestigious schools. He knows many Daniel teachers and can write me recommendation letters. The schools he mentioned that he has known Da Niu mentors include Imperial College London in London, Tokyo University in Japan, Beijing University of Posts and Telecommunications, etc. Hearing this, I naturally believed, and I think I'm so lucky.
At that time, I hadn't passed Level 4, so I was going to nibble on the IELTS book. That was the summer vacation after my sophomore year, and I officially entered the laboratory. The teacher first gave me Wu Enda's machine learning course. That's right, I am a 0-based person who only knows the C language and directly look at machine learning! And asked me to finish the brush and finish the homework within two weeks. I said teacher, I have zero basics, and you know that I have never learned anything. I don’t understand this. Can I start learning from basic courses? The teacher said it’s okay. You don’t need to know too much. It’s probably fine. Your main task now is to go abroad and publish your papers. It’s not too late for you to have a higher platform and make up the foundation.
The teacher asked me to deal with two papers this summer, one for the four SCI areas, and one for the Chinese core. The SCI paper is an experiment that has been done half a year ago. Basically, the writing is almost the same. I am only responsible for the revision and submission-related chores. The teacher said that I knew a very good editor in Japan, and every time I changed a version, I would send it to that editor for revision, and then I made revisions based on the editor’s comments. The six or seven editions were revised before and after, and the paper was voted out. Two weeks after the submission, the SCI reviewer replied to me that our experimental method is too old and this journal is not suitable for this type of article. It is recommended to try another journal. The implication is that your paper is too low! Not worthy of SCI, go and vote for regular journals! The seniors in the lab said that it was basically cool, but the teacher said it was okay. Change it. You can post it after a few more shots.
The other is a senior thesis. Let me cut it out and vote for a core of Peking University. The senior made an application, how to make this application, I can't understand what the function is, and even the code can't run. Tell the teacher that I don't understand, I can't code, and I can't run, I still want to spend more time to lay the foundation. The teacher said, "It's okay, you should know something about it. If you can't run, you can go to the senior in the laboratory. You don't have to worry about the basics. If you have a paper, you can apply for a good school or go to a good platform to make up for it." Such a ridiculous thing, although I will be suspicious, but I still believe it. I asked the head teacher to run the code. With the help of translation software and Google, I probably understood his running process. I don't know how to write a paper. After all, I'm only a sophomore, and I haven't read much literature. The teacher didn't teach me how to write. I deleted the paper in a mess, and I thought it was rubbish. Send it to the teacher, but the teacher said it’s okay. This is a good start. Submit first. Chinese journals are easy to submit.
The two papers were completed almost in the same week, and the summer vacation was almost over by then. After the semester, I went to the laboratory several times and found that there was nothing to do. After the semester, I had a huge number of undergraduate courses in mechanical engineering. There were 11 courses, two course designs and a number of experiments, so I went to the laboratory every day. The number of times is greatly reduced. The teacher told me what was going on in so many classes. Your college would really find things for the students. Look at XX seniors. They should skip class and do what they should do. It’s fine if you don’t fail the course at the end of the semester. I don’t know how those two seniors skipped classes and didn’t fail. Our professional courses have to check in with their mobile phones in every class, and we often practice in class. If we don’t do one time, we can directly halve the score. If we do it twice, we get 0 points, and the final exam The proportion of the total score is only 60%. And I found that even if I went to the laboratory, I still could only get some chores, or let me read some books that I didn't understand at all, such as the watermelon book on machine learning and the flower book on deep learning. The teacher never mentioned the two papers to me again.
It was the winter vacation in a blink of an eye. I signed up for the last IELTS one year ago. I learned very hard, but I can feel my progress in English. In the laboratory, although I was very busy every day, during the summer vacation, I went to the laboratory at 8 o'clock in the morning to read papers, check materials, write emails, and read courses that I didn't understand. I didn't leave until more than 10 o'clock in the evening. Because I think the teacher's arrangement for me must be reasonable, and it must be because I didn't work hard enough to understand it. I'm so naive.
The day after I finished the IELTS test was New Year's Eve. I booked a high-speed rail ticket for the 7th day of the day to go back to school, because the teacher gave me another thesis task and wanted me to go back as soon as possible. However, the epidemic came, and I could not go back to school.
To be honest, without this epidemic, my university would be over.
During the epidemic, my dad called a brother of mine who was studying for a Ph.D. and asked him about his situation at school. It was because I was reading a paper at home. My brother also asked me about my situation by the way, saying that I should be a junior, and plan to enter graduate school or work in the future. I told him that my original plan was to go abroad, or the laboratory teacher would apply to me for undergraduate study. My brother thought it was good at first, but after asking carefully, my brother realized something was wrong. He asked me to check whether the two papers during the summer vacation were published, and then check the teacher's basic information.
After checking, my brother said, I don't stay in the laboratory anymore.
He said that the current system of appraisal of titles and bonuses in domestic colleges and universities requires the publication of papers and patents. My teacher is only a lecturer and cannot take graduate students. My thirties are now at the stage of being hungry for papers, because if a few years pass, after 35 years old, many project funds will no longer be able to apply. Basically, it won't go higher. So as long as the students are willing to follow him, they are generally not rejected. Students in this major have a foundation, and cooperation with teachers may be mutually beneficial, but I cross-professional past, there is no foundation, he will not give you time to make up the foundation, just want you to help him with the thesis, and it is impossible to fool you into the postgraduate entrance examination. Yes, I can only tell you about going abroad, because you have to publish a paper before going abroad. But in fact, foreign tutors are not fools. You can't understand the papers you publish, and you won't know how to ask you for anything. So if you want to stop the loss in time, I suggest you take a look at the postgraduate entrance examination if you want to cross-professional.
After listening to it, it suddenly dawned on me. It was February, and the teacher sent me a message asking about my thesis and IELTS score. I got 5 points in IELTS (I didn't pass CET-4 at the time, and I checked CET-4 scores with 474). The teacher said it was not high, but continued to work hard, and then pushed me another classmate in the laboratory, said he would also take the IELTS test, and asked me to give him a tutor. It can be seen that this classmate came here after hearing that the previous batch of seniors led by the teacher were very strong. No one in the laboratory took the IELTS test before. I was the only one who took the IELTS test, so I asked him to learn from me. He himself spent 20,000 yuan to apply for the full IELTS class at New Oriental, saying that he would get a score of 6 or more in the test before June. I asked him how your basics are, and he said he didn't pass the fourth level.
He said that the teacher also asked him to do the thesis again and again to take the IELTS test. If he could not go out of the country, he would be offered a postgraduate insurance program. Don't worry about his grades. In that semester, because the epidemic was an online class, he basically didn’t take any class. Later in the summer vacation, I asked him how he was doing in IELTS. He said that he didn’t take the test because he failed the test. Then his instructor told him to hang up. After the subject, there is no chance to guarantee research. When he learned the news, he realized that he had been pitted. But fortunately, he came from a major and decided to take the postgraduate entrance examination by himself. It is not a cross-examination, but it is not too difficult.
I was different. After I learned about the news in February, I couldn't get any more for more than two months. I couldn't read the book. Every time I opened the book, I would think of me who was working hard in the laboratory at that time. Obviously I worked so hard, and obviously I started planning for myself very early, and obviously I had a lot of time to make up the foundation, but in the end I still found nothing. At that time, it had been almost a year and a half since I worked for the teacher for the first time.
During that time, I couldn't go anywhere, nor could I talk to my parents too much. My dad doesn't know what I have gone through. He also thinks that he should spend some money to ask the teacher to get me two papers, which will be very useful in the unit in the future.
I locked myself in the house every day, thinking about why I was like this, whether I really like computers, and can I really withstand the pressure? Jobs gave me the answer again: "Sometimes life's going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love, and that is as true for work as it is for your lovers." It can be said that Jobs is my soul mentor, and his speech at Stanford alone is enough to change my life.
At that time, I almost gave up the road of computer, because based on my undergraduate grades and awards, there are already two teachers in this major who want me to protect his research, excellent research plan (required to cross the national line, interview, and scholarship Very high) also passed. However, just as I was about to give up, I accidentally discovered that in order to make a thesis, a few CSDN blogs that I was self-taught with python had gotten tens of thousands of clicks, and many friends commented that I summarized meticulously. Seeing this, I really cried, and I am not so useless! This incident really gave me a lot of courage to continue in the computer industry.
Postgraduate entrance examination, postgraduate entrance examination is the only way I can go. From the end of March, I decided to start the postgraduate entrance examination and collect information about the postgraduate entrance examination. I found that the postgraduate entrance examination is really difficult, and most good schools are ranked 408 in the English entrance examination. With a very poor foundation, I can't finish learning, and my undergraduate studies are still heavy. From April to June, my review efficiency has been very poor. On the one hand, I often cannot accept that I wasted my precious year and a half in the laboratory. On the other hand, I paid attention to a lot of public accounts for postgraduate entrance examinations, and the public accounts were generally anxious. He will tell you how many questions you should do, how many vocabulary passes, and where you are in progress. But I did almost nothing at the time. I reviewed it at home for two months, and the progress was really pitiful.
After the epidemic was under control, I persuaded my parents to return to the school and rent a room for postgraduate entrance examinations. At that time, I was studying in a small dark room of 15 square meters. The efficiency was much better than that at home, but I still couldn't keep up with the progress. At that time, I would go to the rooftop to blow the air every day. On the one hand, it was really hot in Xi'an in July, and there was no air conditioning in the room, only a fan that was not very useful. On the other hand, I like to be in a daze on the rooftop, empty myself, thinking about nothing.
School started soon, and I ran into a teacher in the laboratory. He said how about the postgraduate entrance examination? I said it was difficult, but I was preparing. He said that a good school for postgraduate entrance exams is not good. You might as well take a look at a school in Hong Kong. There are branch schools in Shenzhen. It is easy to apply as long as you fill in English and essays. . . I nodded and said I would consider it.
After semester starts, the school must make up for the final exams and laboratory practice that were not able to be carried out due to the epidemic. For two months from September to October, the progress was almost zero. Review the final exam during the day, and make up the experiment and experiment report at night. At that time, we had a one-month internship. We originally arranged to go to the Hubei Automobile Factory for an internship. However, the cause of the epidemic requires that we watch video lessons in the classroom and check in every day. We must go, and we must write a 10,000-word internship diary and a 10,000-word internship diary. Internship report, and requires both pictures and texts. Finally, the internship was over, and the college added two comprehensive courses and comprehensive experiments to us for professional certification. These two things that were done in the first year of last year were all done after the postgraduate entrance examination. At that time, they all required 80% of the progress to be completed before the postgraduate entrance examination.
Almost all the students were against it, and the teachers were unwilling to take it. In the end, the college had no choice but to open one eye and close the other. Most of the students completed the postgraduate entrance examination two weeks later.
In the last two months of the postgraduate entrance examination, I felt that I would definitely not be able to pass the exam, and I would know nothing, and I had to compete with the teachers of the college every day. For professional courses, I signed up for Beijing University of Science and Technology, which only took two books, and found one-on-one seniors. The professional courses of Beike are relatively simple from the previous years. The senior said that he should grasp the key points to review and learn all the major questions that must be tested. It is no problem to choose to fill in the blanks and take more than eighty or ninety. I was desperately reviewing the key points at that time, I asked if I would take the algorithm questions? The senior said that he had never taken the test in previous years, and only got 10 points last year. If you don’t have enough time, you don’t need to read it. You can practice again when you retest.
As a result, in the 2021 postgraduate entrance examination, the Beike professional course tested nearly 60 points in the algorithm, which was a disaster for me. I only got 48 points in the test with a perfect score of 150, and I did not pass the national line. And my total score of 278 points, 15 points past the national line.
Facts have proved that my foundation is too poor, and the topic is a little flexible, and I am blinded.
But who can blame this?
Blame the teacher in the laboratory? I have been very cruel to him for a long time. But in the future, I will definitely meet all kinds of people. Perhaps what I have gained this year and a half is not professional knowledge, but something that I can't learn in textbooks.
Does it mean that the college disregarded students' considerations when entering postgraduate entrance examinations, and always issued arrangements that were not conducive to postgraduate entrance examinations? But if there is nothing in the school, will I be admitted? I always ask myself that.
Is my father to blame? Is this society to blame? Is it to blame for the unhealthy ethos in Chinese universities?
I can blame everyone, and I can blame everyone.
After all, I can only blame myself for losing myself and losing my heart. When I heard the pie drawn by the teacher, I had no longer the desire for knowledge in my eyes, only the pursuit of utilitarianism.
Now I am 23 years old and am about to graduate from university. It seems to be young, but time flies, how many years can I be younger?
The experience of university is probably my lifetime wealth, the hardships I have suffered, the grievances I have suffered, the places I have been, the people I have met, the good and the bad, have made me who I am now.
What's the future? I don’t know, World War II!
The postgraduate entrance examination is still my way, because I know that after so many experiences, my enthusiasm for computers and the Internet industry has not diminished, and the postgraduate entrance examination is the best opportunity for me to change careers.
Give some suggestions to students who want to take the postgraduate entrance examination in my article. When collecting information, you must first clarify your basic level, and then choose the appropriate grade school according to the preparation time and status. Don't think that non-985 is not on the postgraduate entrance examination, so you can only be the denominator of the postgraduate entrance examination. Once the goal is set, just work hard and don't read too many postgraduate entrance examinations. It is more about selling anxiety or advertising. Make a good plan and learn step by step. Don't look at the progress of others. As long as you can complete the learning goals you specify, keep your breath, and stabilize your mentality, the results will not be too bad. Come on for postgraduate entrance exams!
I have always been confident that I am a good person. I used to be, I am now, and I will be in the future!
If the heart is there, the dream is there, and everything is just starting from the beginning!