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Recalling all the way, I found that I shouldn't be a serious programmer, and everything that followed came from a flyer ten years ago .
At that time, I was in the second grade of high school. I just walked out of the school gate at noon. The sunlight just pierced my eyes through the flyer. The content of the flyer was very long. It was a description of hackers written by a technical college for enrollment. It probably meant that He is a weird man who loves freedom, equality, and open source, hiding in a dark corner.
After I received this flyer, it was out of control. After a few days, I made a decision. I decided not to go to the third year of high school. I went directly to the college to sign up. However, despite the persecution of my family, I finally insisted on finishing the third year of high school. In the third year of high school, I really want to go across the past and slap myself twice. I 工整copied the flyers on white paper in unusual fonts. Others memorized classical Chinese, and I read the flyers . At that time, Li Yang came to the school to give a speech and promote his crazy English. The whole school was crazy English every day, and I read the flyer every day. At that time, I didn't have a mobile phone and couldn't surf the Internet. I was simply 黑客精神attracted by that . Later, I found a "Hacker X Archives" magazine in a bookstore. I read it when I 免费上网had time . Later I often went to Internet cafes to study what happened . One time my computer got a blue screen and I ran away. Later, I found a series of programming books in a larger bookstore. I bought a book for a lot of money, but it was confiscated by the head teacher the next day. After a few months, my classmates are making various efforts for the university entrance examination every day, but I have no plans to enter the university at all. The reason is that I 按需学习don’t want to study for the examination. This idea is also painful for the future. The experience was foreshadowed , but when I was less than half a year away from the college entrance examination, I still started to feel nervous. Once I was walking in a bookstore and suddenly saw Qitian really super right brain series, about wave speed reading, about photographic memory, and I was obsessed with studying those things every day. I laughed at my classmates and said that they were the least effective way of learning. He also said that if we want to quickly enter a higher civilization, we must have a higher learning method. That’s it, the college entrance examination Naturally, the test was very poor. After high school, I was stupid...
But I have been obsessed with the content of that flyer, and after inquiring about the tuition fees of that college, I gave up. I heard that a relative is engaged in software development in Beijing. He asked for his contact information. He bought a train ticket to Beijing. He had his 18th birthday on the train. He had never been out of the house when he grew up and cried into tears on the train. People just because they miss home .
getting Started
When I arrived in Beijing, I 巴沟村rented a house of about seven square meters at the terminal station of Line 10 for 300 yuan. The houses had only one floor, and the roof was covered with asbestos tiles. At night, cats ran around on the roof. , I heard a crash in the room. A few days later, I borrowed a few books from my relatives (hereinafter collectively referred to as Master) and got a computer with a second-hand large-head display. Master is a Java engineer, so I started the journey of Java programmers and started reading the Java grammar. I wrote the first one Hello World. When I saw these characters output from the console, I felt that from this moment on, I was no longer learning for interest, but was responsible for my own choice . I typed the code for half of the book, and then I started to learn 数据库the relevant content. Finally, I wrote a few interactive small pages using SSH framework + JSP, and I would also ask the master immediately for any problems encountered. It's sad to say that during this time, I wash my face in tears and miss my hometown very much. But the next day, I forced myself to continue typing the code. It lasted for more than three months. I felt I could do everything, and I started to apply for a job.
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As soon as I opened the recruitment website, I saw that the requirements are basically undergraduate or college degree or above, and the minimum requirement is more than one year of experience. I was instantly dumbfounded. What should I do? Once I passed by the entrance of the National People's University and heard the auntie on the side of the road shouting 办证, huh, apply for a permit? What certificate? In the end, I used 200 yuan to exchange for a graduation certificate from a certain university. What about the experience? I found a few projects online, packed three years of project experience, and started to apply for a resume interview.
I was very impressed when I went to the interview for the first time. Standing at the entrance of a tall office building, I saw that the workers who came and went were dressed really well, some in suits, some in sportswear and sneakers, and then I looked at myself. , The cold weather is still wearing slippers and shabby clothes. A child who had just ran out of the village prepared to go in for an interview with a trace of fear , but was stopped by a security guard on the way. At the interview site, in a cubicle, the interviewer only asked a few technical questions, and I began to doubt life. What's more terrifying is to start counting time, eighteen or nine years old, graduated from university, three years of experience, genius! Embarrassing, so embarrassing! Well, the interviewer is embarrassed. I will go back and prepare again. The first interview is over.
I went back and started frantically brushing up the interview questions and continued to submit resume interviews. I almost ran all over Beijing. Basically, one or two a day. It lasted for more than three months. I interviewed about a hundred companies. I was finally caught by a company by luck. I was admitted. The reason for the admission is that I 笔试did a good job. The project manager of this company is also from a certain university. I occasionally ask what teacher you know when I chat. I am vague and unclear. . . . . . I'm very scared to talk about this every day.
Later, I started working on the project, the public opinion monitoring system, and asked me to use JNI to call some interfaces written in C++. After a week, I didn’t get it done. Therefore, the project manager and a doctoral consultant from Tsinghua University quarreled. Having seen the world, I was terrified by this battle. The next day, I told the technical person in charge that you should fire me. I can't do this. Let me go after a few days. So my first job was scared away like this. It was still snowing that night, standing in the snow crying like a child, tears of snow blending. . . . . . The snow stopped, and slowly walked back to the house, thinking about packing up and going home, but what do you do when you go home? Go to work with parents? I really want to go to work with them, pick cotton in Xinjiang, and make children's toys at the Guangzhou Electronics Factory, but in this way they can even cultivate a hopeless son. After making the final choice in the torment of various voices in my mind, continue to learn and continue the interview! The mind slowly matured in the washing of tears and the washing of reality .
A month later, I found a company by luck, although time was counted during the interview process, and I was said to be a genius. It is a state-owned enterprise, and they say that state-owned enterprises will check their academic qualifications. I met the best colleague so far in this company. Everyone called her sister Yue, and she would patiently help when encountering problems. There were three back-end developers and a student named Wu. We have a very good relationship. .
Later, I started to contact the project and the wireless positioning system. At the beginning, I often went on business trips to various mental hospitals in Beijing, and then went on business trips to prisons in another city, and I went alone. About a year was spent in prison. A lot of things happened here. The system we built was to monitor these prisoners. They were all serious prisoners. After 狱警following, I don't have to worry about being killed by them suddenly. And they weren't as scary as I thought. Later, they got acquainted and the prison guards didn't have to follow. Their work during the day is to make down jackets. There are almost a hundred people on each floor. Everyone has a sign on their workbench. It says what crime they committed and how many years have been sentenced. Chatting with them will make you cherish life more. . I saw a few people who were similar in age to me, twenty years, forty years, and indefinite. I also asked that indefinitely what is your motivation for working here every day? He just said to 好好表现fight for commutation, and after talking with them for a while, he asked myself, what reason do I have to give in in the face of difficulties?
The most impressive time was when I was writing the code on the second floor of the guest house at the entrance of the prison. I just implemented a cross-border alarm function. I suddenly heard that it was noisy outside. I saw many helicopters above the prison. The cornfield outside was instantly razed to the ground by the armed police. It turns out that someone has escaped from the prison. I actually witnessed the live version of the escape. At that time, I was thinking that if our system went online, this kind of thing would not happen. Those few days were scared to go out, and worried that he would suddenly appear and kill me. After half a month, I was arrested. The people involved in our project were basically replaced and forced to suspend work.
Later, I went back and continued to write code. A new colleague from the company came to the company. He often called me senior and often asked me to go to school. It was embarrassing to hide my experience from such a good colleague. All spent in guilt. Although I am preparing for the self-examination, it will take a few years to graduate. I started to have an idea that I want to leave this city where I have mixed feelings. Because the company belongs to all the research places, the project manager suggested that I take the postgraduate study of Beihang University. The condition is to stay in the company for several years after graduation. If I agree, I will show my stuff. At that time, the smog in Beijing was very serious, and it was so serious that it was difficult to breathe when going out ; coupled with the guilt that I concealed from my colleagues every day, these conditions were added together, and a decision was made. I confessed my concealment to sister Yue and Xiao Wu. My sister said she had guessed it a long time ago, but she didn't care about it, so I was moved to tears at the time.
I resigned the next day after I confessed. After saying goodbye to my colleagues, I went back to pack up and prepare to say goodbye to this city. During my work, I moved from Bagou Village to Shangdi Jiayuan near Shangdi Software Park to get closer to the company. I said goodbye to my master, I will be a teacher for one day, and be a teacher for life. Goodbye.
on the way
I got on the train from Beijing to Hangzhou and I recalled the experience of the past three years, which is really vivid. Later, I learned that Sister Yue had gone to a first-line Internet company and that Xiao Wu went home and inherited the family property. After sitting on the train all night, it was dawn and it was about to arrive at the station. I saw the city in front of me as if it were built in a forest, and I felt much better. I dragged my luggage to rent a house. After I settled down, I started to study and prepare to find a job. I seriously changed my resume and changed my three-year experience to two years. Finally, I was able to 真实面目find a job. If the academic qualifications can also use the real academic qualifications, this big psychological burden should be able to be issued, that kind of magnanimous feeling is good for me.
One time I passed by a building in Huanglong Times Square during an interview. The whole building was decorated with white glass. It looked very magnificent. I wanted to work here. One month later, an outsourcing company had a telephone technical interview a month ago. There was a telephone retest. During the telephone retest, HR told me that they would check the qualifications. I confessed to HR that my real qualifications were high school. After a few days, HR called and asked me to provide a high school graduation certificate. You can also call the high school teacher to confirm the call. After looking for two days, I finally found the phone number of the high school head teacher. After they confirmed the call, they asked me to go to the site for an interview. I also said that although it was outsourcing, the company had very high requirements. When I arrived at the scene, I found that the interview location was the white building. I was very excited to go in. This interview was like being interviewed by the interviewer 活剥. I also gave all the questions he asked. With the answer, I feel that I learned more in this interview than I learned in the past year. A few days after the end, I called and said I was admitted, and then I started to work there. After a few days, I couldn't help but curious to ask HR why I was admitted. He replied with two words, honest.
So I started my normal commuting life, riding a bicycle through the mountains and tea forests on weekends. One afternoon I saw a book "Ten Years of Backpacking" in a bookstore on the second floor of the company. I saw the lifestyle described by Xiaopeng. I thought that it was probably the life I longed for. A thought lingered, I would resign. Go travel.
After a month, I sent a resignation application to the project manager. The reason was that I was going to travel. After leaving the job, I started to run around with my bag on my back. Recalling that I did learn a lot in this company. The technology and environment used are basically cutting-edge. The most impressive thing is that the CEO of this company sang a few songs on the stage during the annual meeting, and then fell on one knee on the stage. Tens of thousands of employees from all over the world gathered in this stadium and saw some old employees crying. Some called him Teacher Ma and others called Mr. Ma.
I ran like this for several months and spent all my money. Then I went to work in Shanghai for a year, saved a little money, and 机器学习became interested again. On the initiation of an idea, I want 辞职to go to Tibet, then come back and retreat practice, to learn. So I rented a cheap house opposite the Pudong Library. It was partitioned by wooden boards. There were five or six rooms on the first floor.
I bought a ticket to Kunming and planned to ride from Yunnan to Lhasa. Just before dawn the next day, I suddenly heard a knock on the door, and then the partition board was smashed open. I don’t know where there are so many security guards. The hammer hit, and the room became a lot brighter immediately after hitting it, and five or six men's and women's beds were unobstructed. Everyone didn’t panic, they sat on their own beds and started chatting. It turned out that I lived next door to a photographer. What's more, he was driving to Lijiang the day after tomorrow. After chatting with him, he decided to drive his car to Lijiang first. Kunming's ticket has been refunded.
Two days later, we drove off and left the baggage in the house. We went to the corner and asked the landlord to pay attention to it. Later, I heard from the landlord that Shanghai was cracking down on group renting. I guess I wanted to make us poor. People who can't afford to rent a house get out of Shanghai. There is another person with him who has some resources and wants to cooperate with Lijiang to develop new tourist routes. The three of us played all the way to Lijiang. The photographer was also cooperating with a large travel agency in Lijiang. We all lived in the boss’s villa and went to various scenic spots every day, which were specially recommended. Because we said it was a travel agency in Shanghai and wanted to cooperate with it. Now we are here to collect some points. The management staff immediately arranged various unique and interesting routes and played it for free for more than half a month.
I also met an overseas Chinese couple who had worked in the United States for decades, and now they have retired to travel the world. I really envy them. He walked with me, too 程序员. I asked him which company he was in. He said that he had spent decades at Morgan and Citi, and he told me his pension, damn! His pension every month is many times higher than my salary! They are all engaged in technology, so why is the gap so big? I also had a chat with the photographer. The photographer wanted to accept me as an apprentice. He said that he would go to Yubeng and Meili Snow Mountain to take a few photos in two days. It is estimated that it will take about 20 days. I refused, because I plan to take a second-hand bicycle and go to Tibet. The photographer and some other partners strongly advised me not to do this after hearing it. If I am alone, and unprepared, there is a high probability that I will encounter danger.
After hearing so many experienced people say this, I dispelled the idea and bought a bus ticket and went there. After saying goodbye to them, I set off. Before I left, someone told me that he knew a girl and she happened to be one now. I’m in Lhasa. If she hasn’t left, you can find her and give me the contact information.
Only Shangri-La has a car to Lhasa, so I went to Shangri-La first. Due to the speed limit during this period, I finally arrived in Lhasa after sitting for four days and three nights. After I got off the car, I started looking for an inn and walked on the road in Lhasa. I feel a headache at all. When I walked to the inn, I met her and went with 纳木错her. She had altitude sickness, and I was by my side. After a few days to say goodbye to each other, she returned to Jiangsu, and I continued my journey. When I reached Qinghai Lake, I decided to end this journey to find the girl.
After leaving Qinghai Lake, I went to Shanghai to pack up my luggage. I originally planned to study machine learning in retreat here. . . . . . It didn’t take long for me to spend my money in Jiangsu. I wondered if I could start a small business. I contacted a friend in Xinjiang and cooperated with him 卖红枣. He sent the goods to Jiangsu. I rode a battery car around the city to various businesses. Sales promotion, half a month passed, not sold at all. I was eating red dates on the side of the road and thinking about my life. Later I thought I would go to the pedestrian street to try it out. After a week, I still didn't sell it at all. Only one dog came to patronize this stall, and when he saw that he was about to raise his hind legs, he realized that the situation was not good, and he scared him away with a roar. I didn’t succeed in doing business, and I started looking for a job. I went to a photo studio for wedding photography. After a few months, I mentioned it to her. Or let’s go out and play together. She said yes, so we started a paragraph. Travel on the go. We walked through Hulunbuir Prairie, Manzhouli, Dali, Shangri-La, Daocheng Yading, and also went to Xiaopeng's Ten Years Backpacking Inn in Shuhe Ancient Town, Lijiang. . . . . . We got married a year later.
Peace and confusion
I chose a city for the rest of my life. I chose Chengdu. I decided to have a child a year later. My heart is completely settled down and I have to work hard for my family.
Later, I started to concentrate on my work. I went to get off work every day and lived a stable life. Five years passed in the blink of an eye. I slowly started to become confused. Although I did some architect-related work, I thought of planning for the next ten years. , Become at a loss, do not know what to do.
Suddenly I feel that I should change my career and choose a more valuable and interesting job from scratch as I did ten years ago. It is not an exaggeration to say that it is a ten-year itch. Sometimes I feel bored with what I am doing now, sometimes When thinking about things from multiple latitudes, you will become more and more unable to sit still. Now that the T-shape has not been formed, π is here again. Now when I meet someone with some qualifications, I just grabbed it and talked about career planning. I was probably going crazy, and there was no answer until now, so I kept looking. . . . . .
At last
Finally, thank you cxuan for this opportunity. I found that the process of writing is also a process of in-depth dialogue with yourself. I suggest you try to write more.
In addition, as a programmer, my experience can be said to be of no reference value at all, and I should even take it as a warning. If it arouses everyone's resentment, please forgive me.
2020.11.6 written on the bus after get off work
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