Today, I saw a picture when I was scrolling through Twitter. It feels very similar to my mental journey in the past few years. I would like to share it here.
There is nothing under the first person's feet, and there is beauty in his eyes.
The second person read some books, saw the darkness behind the beauty, and began to fall into confusion.
The third person is knowledgeable, understands the laws of operation, and understands that the world is not black and white, so he sees the light.
As for me, I may still be in the second stage, but I also know that I should move on to the third stage.
The first stage
Ignorant little pink mentality
During my studies, I was born in a small town , and I was more pursuing exam-oriented education and pragmatism. All I thought about and learned were for high scores in the exam and learning skills , and I completely ignored other quality education.
I also went to the library. I read "Proficient in Java", while my roommate read books such as "Selected Works of Mao Zedong" and "Modern Chinese History". At that time, I dismissed it, thinking it was a "waste of time", and seeing these things was not a meal.
After graduation, my roommate joined the system, and I went to a small factory as a code farmer. The small factory is also very good, working from nine to six, not pursuing marriage and buying a house, and living a happy life.
However, I still did not continue to study, my head was empty except for technology , I only passively received information provided by mainstream media, and never thought about the internal logic.
Once, the social security tax reform (2018) required companies to report the payment base based on the real income of employees, which means that the social security payment amount increased and the salary received decreased. I saw that everyone in the group was complaining, but at that time, I expressed my "high opinion" in the group:
Isn't social security also your own money, is it more profitable to increase the payment base? gj This is for our personal benefit!
As a result, I was ridiculed, saying that I "know nothing". After working for a period of time, I fully understood their shortcomings.
second stage
The pressure of life eventually makes me the person I hate the most
In the early days, I liked to visit Zhihu, and I also followed some front-end bigwigs, hoping to learn some technology.
But starting from a certain period of time (around 2020), I found that these people like "key politics" very much and talk about state affairs.
Most of them were negative emotions. As a "little pink" at the time, I couldn't accept it, so I blocked several people.
As I get older, I force myself to pay attention to things other than technology: real estate, marriage, childbirth, education, financial management, communication, and to a greater extent, politics, history, and economics.
粗浅了解之后，我开始悲观：
- 刑不上大夫
- 十年寒窗凭什么拼得过人家三代人的努力
- 历史就是圈，教员想改变的事情是无法改变的
- zg人的劣根性
- tz内的劣根性
于是，我也开始键政，变成了那个曾经最讨厌的人。
第三阶段
探索底层逻辑
工作压力加上生活压力，使我一度抑郁，甚至产生过极端想法。
好在，我有一个好伴侣，是她陪我度过了那段痛苦的岁月，鼓励我多看书、多思考。
现在，我也分享下我的一些想法，虽然还未正式踏入第三阶段，但也大概摆脱了第二阶段的影响。
- 接纳自己的平凡
- 最重要的能力，是获得能力的能力
- 遵从历史规律，做务实求进的人
- 思考底层逻辑，所有方法论都可以通过底层逻辑（相同之处）＋ 环境变量 （不同之处） 来解释
- 提升思维认知，多学习技术之外的内容
最后
以上便是我工作六年的心路历程，从开始的无知，再到键政，最后开始寻求转变。
本文纯碎碎念，欢迎各位客官吐槽~