It has been almost two years since I joined the big family of iteye blog after graduating from college. I read a lot of blogs of tech giants and found that in addition to the in-depth research and summary of technology, their blogs also have more or less information about themselves in the blog. The growth and mental journey on the road of IT. After thinking for a long time, I decided to leave the first IT career chapter in my blog when the most beautiful season is about to leave Hangzhou.
Before I went to college, I was a well-behaved child. I had never even been to an Internet cafe. In addition to the general conditions at home, I had never touched a computer. I remember that QQ was very popular at that time, and my classmates were popular at that time. When I applied, I had no interest at all because I had never been in contact with computers, and I also hinted that I would try not to deal with computers in the future. Maybe it was destined that when I was applying for the university, I was transferred to the software engineering major by a major that had nothing to do with computer science. I remember that when I first saw the admission letter, my intuition was that I was very tall, because I only followed me at the beginning. The major (civil engineering) I applied for was two words short, but then the problems I faced began to come one after another. I searched all the colleges and universities in China, as long as the tuition fee for this major is very expensive, the annual tuition fee is more than twice that of the ordinary undergraduate degree, I suddenly feel like I have taken three exams... My family situation is more than my heart. Everyone knows that the whole family is too happy for other people's children to go to university, but my family was worried about it. At that time, I was ignorant and yelled at my mother about it. Later, my mother secretly hid on the kang and cried. At that time, I didn’t leave the house, and my temper was quite short-tempered. If my father didn’t stop me, I would have burned the admission notice (I’m so stupid when I think about it now).
In this way, computer first appeared in my world in the name of my university major. At the same time, I applied for QQ, which was a few years later than others. The first computer-related course I took after I went to school was computer basics for college students, because the basics were too basic. Because of the poor study, I was confused, which also led me to not use the office software very neatly... In the computer class, I sat in the last row according to the student number and turned back and asked our beautiful teacher at the time. Questions such as: What is word? Why do you have to send an email as an attachment when you hand in an assignment? Why should the attachment be compressed with a compressed package? ...I'm pretty funny when I think about it now, but it turns out that it's always good to be ashamed to ask, although sometimes there will be embarrassment, unpopularity, ridicule... But when you really master that knowledge, that kind of achievement I feel that it is the so-called shame or embarrassment that can cover everything before. Although I have a weak foundation in computer science, fortunately, I have always been diligent and down-to-earth. In addition, the environment in the northeast is snowy and cold, and I can just calm down and study in the classroom with peace of mind. Therefore, my grades in the first semester of freshman year are still Yes, next semester, I will be honored to be invited by the beautiful teacher behind me to study in the laboratory. In the next year or so, I used the convenience of the laboratory to explore all kinds of computer knowledge that are mysterious to a rookie like me. To counseling people... Gradually, I discovered and found a sense of accomplishment. There is a vague feeling that it is fair in the world of programs, and the right and wrong and twists and turns are reflected in it more vividly. It can't tolerate a sloppy And mistakes, this is actually somewhat similar to my own personality. Gradually, I discovered that I have code obsessive-compulsive disorder, which may be related to my pursuit of perfection as a Virgo.
In March of 2012, in the second semester of my sophomore year, in order to be able to go to work as soon as possible and with advantages, I consulted with my parents alone and signed up for a training class at a training institution outside the school (the tuition fee was negotiated at that time). More than 10,000 yuan, just as the National Inspirational Scholarship still has a little surplus), from then on, I rode that bicycle and went out to study every weekend, early in the morning and late in the night, because I usually have to attend classes at school, so I can only sign up for after-school classes (use Saturday and Sunday) and the time of winter and summer vacations), and so on and off until June 2013, during which one summer vacation and one winter vacation were devoted to training and learning. At that time, there was a belief that I would use my major to earn back the tuition that my college spent more than other children. I remember that at the end of the winter vacation in 2012, I had not returned home during the training. When I called my mother, I vowed to say that in the near future, after I started working, I could easily earn seven or eight thousand a month. I heard that my mother was happy for me. I am confident.
In June of 2013, due to personal reasons, there were some problems in my relationship, which caused my original plan to be completely disrupted. I still couldn't keep it after 3 round trips from the Northeast to the Central Plains within a month. The whole person seemed to be abandoned. At that time, the Ministry of Industry and Information Technology organized In the preliminary round of the Blue Bridge Cup Software Competition, I won the first prize in the undergraduate group of Heilongjiang Province by virtue of my strength, so I advanced and was scheduled to go to Beijing to participate in the finals in July... But at that time, my heart was dead, and there was no review or review at all. The thought of preparation, and finally the finals of University of Science and Technology Beijing in July did not perform well and returned home with a second prize (but fortunately, I went to the Qiu Depu Gymnasium of Peking University to observe the whole process of the award ceremony) . The speciality of our major is the 3+1 model, that is, the first year of the senior year is an external training and internship. My goal has always been to go to Beijing for an internship, but that At that time, my heart was dead, and I decided to stop living in Beijing and just find a job in my hometown where I could eat. The next day was really the beginning of the pain. During the internship, I found a job in my major at the beginning. As a result, the salary was 800 yuan a month, and I was fired for more than 20 days. In the end The salary was given more than 293 yuan. The first time I was hit by reality, I was a little breathless... That period was the most difficult time in my life, and then I simply found a job that was not compatible with the computer (brushing the computer). , because domestic smartphones were quite popular in 2013), so I spent two months working day and night with a group of people who could do a job without graduating from elementary school (every day after get off work, drinking at restaurants and drinking after work) Playing billiards with milk tea, someone handed me a cigarette and lit it while I was slightly drunk. Many times I only rode a bike home alone at around 12 o’clock in the evening.
可惜好景不长（感觉自己像个扫把星），2014年元旦刚过，刷机这个点人家山西的也给倒闭了，幸运的是那时候天天喝酒打台球和领导混的还不错，他推荐我说去北京刷机吧，本来我是不打算去的，但是仔细一想都已经到年底了，如果此时不去的话整个腊月一分钱都挣不着了，虽然给的钱不多，但是至少过年买衣服的钱有了，就这样腊月初五带着一个98年的小弟踏上了人生中的第一趟动车开往北京西，到北京的时候晚上八九点人生地不熟的遭遇了所有人都碰到过的黑出租，从那以后在就开始了在北京没日没夜且没休息的刷机。因为有几个还是山西老乡一起的，因此过完年后便也就自然而然的去到北京继续这份刷机工作，直到4月底我决定辞职不干，连夜走天津跟朋友去大连来了一次为期3天的毕业之旅，之后回家待了十来天又北上回学校准备毕业。
14年5月18号回到学校，此时的我“伤口”愈合的已经差不多了，这一年的实习时间里我感受到了现实的残酷，人情的冷暖，更加清楚的认识到了如果仅仅因为某些事而放弃专业的话首先父母为我花了的那么多万学费就白白浪费了；其次我要想达到当初跟母亲夸下的一个月七八千的收入那样一个目标何其困难；再次别的行业完全没有所谓的真正法定假日，那样没日每夜的干啥时候是个尽头；最后连一份基本的劳动合同保障都没有。于是，经过几天的深思熟虑，我深刻的意识到我该回归本心了，是金子就一定会发光（迟早的事），而我在计算机这个行业就是一块金子，那我就应该发出自己应有的光芒，让那些质疑我的，不相信我的，离开我的看到我真正的实力...差不多一年的时间都没碰过代码，我开始疯狂的回忆练习争取早日捡回那些本就应该属于我的东西，大概用了半个月的时间边写实习日志，边准备毕业设计和毕业论文，我觉得差不多可以应付得了工作了，接着就开始在网上填写自己的简历，并通过电话沟通谈好了具体的面试时间，待毕业答辩结束后当天下午跟同学们吃完最后一顿班饭，通宵唱了一宿的KTV，第二天天亮回去收拾好行李便踏上了回北京面试的火车。
从此，我真正的IT生涯漫漫长路才正式拉开了帷幕。