At three o'clock in the morning last night, the night outside the window was dim, and I was still at the company sorting out the materials that I would need to talk about tomorrow.
Suddenly my heart stabbed a few times for no apparent reason, and then I couldn't breathe. I had to save the file first, and then lay down to rest early, and fortunately, it was all right as before.
I can’t remember that this is the first time this year that something similar happened. I had this symptom as early as last year. I just kept busy. After I finished this thing, I had the next thing. I always told myself that I was finished. Just check it, and the result is never when it's over.
No, I’m going to tell the company’s administration that next month’s team building will be changed to go to the hospital for medical examinations. Otherwise, according to my busy schedule, I don’t expect to have time to go next year. Don’t go directly to the funeral home.
The actor Jiang Wen once said: "Middle-aged is an age that sells laughter. It must not only win the favor of the elderly, but also be a role model for children, and always pay attention to the face of his wife, and constantly cater to the boss's mind."
In fact, not only for middle-aged men, it is not easy for every adult.
Didi President Liu Qing, daughter of former Lenovo Group Chairman Liu Chuanzhi.
She graduated from Harvard in 2002 and went through 18 rounds of interviews to join Goldman Sachs.
She works in the Yangtze River Center in Hong Kong. She leaves work at about 5 o'clock in the morning every day, and then comes back at 9 o'clock to continue working. I can only sleep for two to three hours a day, and work an average of more than 20 hours a day.
In Youku's "Friends", she talked about a past event. His parents, Liu Chuanzhi and his wife, went to see her, and their parents went to see her daughter, but she had been working overtime and didn't even have a chance to go downstairs.
His parents were like this in the office building of the Yangtze River Center. They waited until 6 or 7 o'clock in the morning the next day before they met between the father and daughter.
In addition, in 2015, Liu Qing revealed that he had breast cancer and had undergone resection.
That's right, Liu Qing, who was born with a golden key, was under such great pressure. When she was pressed all day long, she didn't even have a chance to meet her parents, and she got cancer directly.
Many people would not figure out why her family is so rich, why there is so much pressure. At this time I remembered a joke on the Internet, saying that there were two old farmers in ancient times who imagined the emperor’s luxurious life. One said: "I think the emperor must eat white noodles and buns every day!" The other said: "More than just, I think The emperor is sure to use the golden hoe for all the ground!"
In fact, what is the life of the real emperor? We can take a look at Yongzheng in the Qing Dynasty. He only sleeps 4 hours a day and takes only 3 days a year.
Including me, more and more adults are exchanging health for money, just to give more families, more protection and more hope for the future. It's just that some people are busy with the food and clothing of the family, and some people are busy with whether the next generation can achieve a leap in class.
Last year, NetEase's violent layoffs were once heated.
It not only reflects the sadness of contemporary adults, but also shows the ruthlessness of the workplace.
What happened is roughly like this: Employees who joined NetEase in 14 years worked 4000 overtime hours in 5 years, and asked for a handful of leave. They often stayed up until two or three o'clock in the middle of the night, and all project dividends were less than 3000 yuan.
At the end of January 2019, the employee was diagnosed with dilated cardiomyopathy, and his heart was nearly doubled.
Subsequently, Netease used all kinds of methods to force him to resign and relied on the compensation and allowances he deserved-slandering low performance, removing work positions, special monitoring, security threats, forcing him to sign a resignation form while in hospital, etc.
Finally, after the employee was discharged from the hospital and returned to the company, he was driven out of the company by the security guard.
Netease is one of the largest game companies in China, not to mention other small companies.
In life, like Netease employees, there are countless adults who use their bodies as a bet to bet on a good life.
The sadness and hardship of adults can be seen everywhere.
Last year, a video went viral on the Internet. After drinking with a client, a man fell drunk in a subway station, crying like a child who made a mistake. He slapped himself and cried, "I am useless, I am useless".
A moment ago, he was still smiling and saying goodbye to the customer. A second later, he fell drunk on the subway, crying loudly because of the hardships and helplessness of life.
Soon after, his wife came, and he threw into her arms, his voice was already crying hoarse, and he kept apologizing to his wife "I'm sorry, sorry".
In fact, he didn't do anything wrong, but the pressure on the man was too great.
Jobs, mortgages, car loans, supporting parents, raising children, all these are like mountains, overwhelming most adults.
Even many adults are so pressed that they can no longer breathe.
Last year there was another hot event, a 44-year-old Wanda senior woman committed suicide by jumping off the building. In order to complete the performance, it is commonplace to work overtime until one or two o'clock, and I only went home for more than an hour on New Year's Eve. As a result, during the meeting, she was still criticized mercilessly, and even her boss expressed the intention to replace her as the general manager. After that, she only tweeted "I'm sorry" in the crowd at home, and shut down and jumped off the building.
If life is not aggressive, who wants to "go away" and be separated from his family forever.
Just two days ago, a middle-aged man in Beijing died suddenly on a subway escalator.
Because of the tremendous work pressure, more and more adults die suddenly.
In 2018, three sudden death tragedies occurred in Hangzhou within a week, and all the men who fell were middle-aged men.
In 2019, three doctors died suddenly within ten days.
According to related surveys, an average of 1.8 million adults die suddenly every year.
This means that an average of about 5000 adults die suddenly every day.
This is a terrible number.
Lao Zhang is an editor friend of mine. He is in his thirties and works in a well-known domestic media. Seeing it right away with me, I often talk to me about his sadness and pressure.
His job is the kind that must be kept on standby 24 hours a day. When snatching news, sometimes he will choose to sleep in the office. When there was no big news, he also had to stay up late to revise the manuscript. Sometimes he had a bad idea, and it was another overnight stay.
Like me, his heart has been tingling several times.
He once considered changing careers, but after looking at the house loan, car loan, and the expenditure records of his parents, children, and the entire family, he never thought about it again.
He studied media-related majors, and entered the media after graduation. He knows nothing but media. He has no experience in other industries, and he needs to learn from scratch to transfer to other industries. But the pressure of his family's expenses did not allow him to do so.
One thing he and I do most often is to send each other "Yes" at four or five o'clock in the morning, and then the other party responds with "Yes", and then each party sends two smiley faces.
Do you think we are really not afraid of sudden death?
But look at the piles of documents on the desktop waiting for me to correct and comment. Apart from turning on the phone and silently buying an insurance for ourselves, all we can do is to take a break today.
There is a lot of pressure, I can't say it. Because I know, if I say it, everyone will say that I want too much, and then I am exhausted.
I preset a scene when I was in my seventies and eighties. I hope that at that time, I will have an entire aircraft team to serve me, and carry me here and there to handle various affairs.
Is it too big? But what is the difference between humans and animals? Isn't it, because there are more people and dreams? Can only say, what kind of choice will lead to what kind of life.
I believe that Liu Qing, the president of Didi, who has completed breast cancer removal surgery, also has her ambitions in her heart. That's why she fights like that. Even if she had been so busy that she had suffered from cancer once, after the operation was completed, she was still resolutely devoted to more busy work.
Of course, more busy people in this society are like my editor friend Lao Zhang. He is for the family, there is no way.
I believe a lot of people are like this, such as taxi drivers who play hard at night; editors who catch hot spots all night; migrant workers who do the dirtiest and most tiring work on construction sites; and takeaway boys at three in the morning. …
Do you say they don’t know that they are at risk of sudden death? In fact, many adults know that they may die suddenly, but they really have no choice but to continue gritting their teeth!
In addition, a friend who started a business and did a good job. During this year's epidemic, a friend who made hundreds of millions of e-commerce sales, told me last year that he had made a will. In this way, even if there is a bad accident, it can give parents a little more life security.
I still remember at that time, I was still standing and talking to him without back pain, saying that making money comes with making money, but life is more important. However, his reply to me at the time was that he had failed too many times. This time was his closest to success. He was not reconciled if he did not go all out to toss the company on the market. When I am old and dead, I will never look down on my eyes.
Some people say that the stress of an adult starts from not daring to get sick, but it is actually more difficult than this. Knowing that you will get sick, knowing that you may die suddenly, you can only continue to stay up late to fight!