Letter 1
From:
"Mu Qing"
Delivery time:
1:45:16 on February 18, 2020
Recipient:
Shangguan Leng'er
Hello, this is Mu Qing. The girl is currently in normal school in 1997.
I do n’t know how big you are in front of the screen, you are a boy or a girl, but I ’ll make a tree hole first, and I want to tell strangers what those people in the depths of the heart do n’t say to those around them.
Just before the 22nd birthday in the previous paragraph, the gift I gave to myself was to look at the sea. I wore a cotton-padded jacket and fell twice on the ring road. As the northern child saw the sea for the first time, I was very very happy. It ’s really good to be in the sea. That was also the first time I loved the city where I studied.
Tell me about yourself, the story may be a bit long, please be patient:
I will talk slowly as a tree hole.
I have been a very independent person since childhood and I am also a widowed person. I am ashamed to say that I did n’t have a particularly good friend around me when I grew up. I remember being good with others when I was in junior high school. The good friend you thought did n’t need you very much. Since then, most of the time I walked alone. Later, when I was in high school, I rented a house outside. I did n’t have a parent, but only myself. Step by step, adapted to all the things one can do, at that time there were still no friends around.
I have watched a movie called "The Life of Abandoned Pine Nuts" for a long time. I have been thinking for a long time. The lucky people are curing their childhood in their lives, and the unfortunate people are being cured in their childhood. Unfortunately, I am the latter. From the beginning, I lived in a quarrel every day, really every day. In fact, the family is the factor that affects my growth the most. My dad loves me very much, my mom loves me very much, but unfortunately they do n’t love each other. I cry and grow up so that they can quarrel and eat normally, because I am used to not being loved, so I wo n’t ask anymore. Until now my brother is in his tens, and sometimes he sees violence and arrogance on him. , I'm really afraid that he will become the same person as my father ten years later.
From childhood to old, I do n’t envy the wealth of the family, I only envy the fulfillment of the family. As I go to college, I feel more and more of this feeling.
So ah, after I grew up, I have been healing my childhood, studying hard, and becoming a very powerful person in my classmates. When I was elected to the class committee, I felt that I was also a person in need. For a long time, I felt that I was good alone, fearing feelings and growing up.
I have a book that records my little things every day. I do n’t know when I ’ve developed a habit. I seem to be able to guard my little world and have my own independent space.
I am not a person with a negative life, most of my state is very content, contented to learn, contented with life. Contented every Saturday and Sunday, you can go to the library to read your favorite books, and feel that life is still full of hope every day. Negative and can not solve the normal life, life still has to move forward.
Then this year, I decided to want to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and I felt that I wanted more. I have always believed that as long as I work hard in life, I will be saved.
Thank you,
a friend from afar,
it doesn't matter if
you go back or not, thank you as a tree hole.
byMu Qing
Tell me about yourself, the story may be a bit long, please be patient:
I will talk slowly as a tree hole.
I have been a very independent person since childhood and I am also a widowed person. I am ashamed to say that I did n’t have a particularly good friend around me when I grew up. I remember being good with others when I was in junior high school. The good friend you thought did n’t need you very much. Since then, most of the time I walked alone. Later, when I was in high school, I rented a house outside. I did n’t have a parent, but only myself. Step by step, adapted to all the things one can do, at that time there were still no friends around.
I have watched a movie called "The Life of Abandoned Pine Nuts" for a long time. I have been thinking for a long time. The lucky people are curing their childhood in their lives, and the unfortunate people are being cured in their childhood. Unfortunately, I am the latter. From the beginning, I lived in a quarrel every day, really every day. In fact, the family is the factor that affects my growth the most. My dad loves me very much, my mom loves me very much, but unfortunately they do n’t love each other. I cry and grow up so that they can quarrel and eat normally, because I am used to not being loved, so I wo n’t ask anymore. Until now my brother is in his tens, and sometimes he sees violence and arrogance on him. , I'm really afraid that he will become the same person as my father ten years later.
From childhood to old, I do n’t envy the wealth of the family, I only envy the fulfillment of the family. As I go to college, I feel more and more of this feeling.
So ah, after I grew up, I have been healing my childhood, studying hard, and becoming a very powerful person in my classmates. When I was elected to the class committee, I felt that I was also a person in need. For a long time, I felt that I was good alone, fearing feelings and growing up.
I have a book that records my little things every day. I do n’t know when I ’ve developed a habit. I seem to be able to guard my little world and have my own independent space.
I am not a person with a negative life, most of my state is very content, contented to learn, contented with life. Contented every Saturday and Sunday, you can go to the library to read your favorite books, and feel that life is still full of hope every day. Negative and can not solve the normal life, life still has to move forward.
Then this year, I decided to want to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and I felt that I wanted more. I have always believed that as long as I work hard in life, I will be saved.
Thank you,
a friend from afar,
it doesn't matter if
you go back or not, thank you as a tree hole.
byMu Qing
Letter 2
I settled everything, sitting on the bed, holding the computer, late at night, the sound of striking the keyboard is particularly obvious.
For writing to you, say good night, every day.
My heart is full of enthusiasm and enthusiasm.
My heart is full of enthusiasm and enthusiasm.
This is like a secret date.
What is certain is that I am and you are also.
What is uncertain is that, still, in such a relationship, what changes and unknowns we will have.
Some people are destined to need hard work to feel the freshness of their hearts.
So, I began to imply that I am not without vitality, but the threshold is too high, and there is no wave in the general play.
So, you need to make some surprises from time to time,
确信我们的生命力还是有温度的，还是鲜活的，以及感受小确幸的暖暖。
在我的世界里，时常有一个这样的画面：
在一片绿油油的青草地上，一个约莫五六岁的小女孩，穿着红色的连衣裙，扎着两个小辫，笑起来如阳光一般美好。
她顾自在草地上玩耍，
有时候发现了一只美丽的小瓢虫，
有时候发现了一朵靓丽的小花，
有时候发现了一块奇特的石头，
而每一次的发现，她都会特别兴奋，特别开心的回过头，
脸上充满笑意，还有扑闪扑闪仿佛会说话的明亮而干净的眼睛，眨巴眨巴。
好可爱的样子。
小女孩，回过头，是为了望向某个人，
而他正宠溺的看着小女孩，没有说一句话，满脸都写着温柔。
一直以来我就是那个渴望寻找这样一抹温柔的小女孩。
当我在很多次很多次的知道“爱自己”，也在不断的努力和练习，
某天，我又看见 爱自己，这三个字。
我知道，在那个意向中，我可以这样温柔的看着和陪伴那个小女孩。
我也知道，我还没有足够的能量，以及足够的耐心。
所以，我邀请你，也在这里。
感谢你的存在。
“我在”，就是一种很大的力量和支持。
而，每一个，当你觉得孤独和无所依靠，需要能量的时候，
我也会无比温柔的告诉你：我在。
我们不需要任何世俗的礼尚往来，不需要有来有往。
然而，某个时空之中，我们都在。
亲爱的，晚安。这是我第一天跟你道晚安~
我只是在呢喃自语，
如果你看了，就已经是一种见证和陪伴了，
因为我知道一定会有人看。
如果有什么信息能和你共鸣，
你从中看见了自己，
那就是另外的收获了。
如果你看懂了，
如果有什么信息能和你共鸣，
你从中看见了自己，
那就是另外的收获了。
如果你看懂了，
你从中看见了我，
还能有什么回应，
并且这回应我们还可以彼此共振，
并且这回应我们还可以彼此共振，
那就是更大的惊喜了。
没有无缘无故的遇见。
致敬未知。
没有无缘无故的遇见。
致敬未知。
Letter 3
嗨，你今天过的好吗?
我今天有点虚弱。
你知道或者相信身心合一吗，有一本书就是这个名字，身心合一。
除此之外还有我们的灵性，很难描述灵性的存在，如同很难描述被称为“上帝”或“神”的存在，我不是某个宗教的虔诚的信徒，
但是我敬畏一切的未知。
在看的书《无量之网》也写到了这个看不见的连接万物的“网”的存在。
我愿意相信，有一些也许我们并不知道，但是却“存在”的能量和存有，因为这会让我觉得，世界很神奇，很有趣，很好玩。
最近一直在关照自己的身体，我的身体还不太好，没有什么严重的问题，但是也并没有成为很健康的存在。
我一直在很努力的了解祂们，身体是很神奇的。
起床就觉得很虚弱，我的经验告诉我，这是身体和能量层面的清理。
下午，把我的水晶都摆在了身边，我有不少水晶，祂们也都很神奇。
刚开始，我是打坐坐在水晶的中间，胃部和顶轮都有明显得感觉，觉得身体还是不够放松。然后把所有的水晶都放到了我的前面，在我的双脚中间，然后我就躺下了。身体可以非常明显的感觉到水晶的能量，从我的双脚，一直慢慢往上，到顶轮，好像不久我就迷糊了，尽管我盖着毯子，还是觉得躺在瑜伽垫上有些凉，我也特别想要躺到床上去睡会，然后就抱着粉色的水晶原石，一起睡觉。水晶是凉的，贴着胸口，凉凉的，可是身体并不会觉得寒凉，当水晶接触身体的时候，会有特别明显的能量感，进入身体，身体会在这样凉凉的感觉中，感受到无比的舒服和滋养。我就这样抱着粉晶，侧躺睡了一会，感受到无比的温柔和爱。
我在迷糊中，想到，我要告诉你，这样的感觉，温柔和爱的感觉。
后来我又平躺，水晶在我的体温中已经变得温暖，不凉了，平躺，我就直接把水晶放到了胸口，那是一块有我手掌那么大还很厚实的水晶原石，压在胸口的时候，我没有感觉到压力和压迫，我的胸口最近也一直有反应，包括后背也很不舒服，水晶放在胸口的时候，感受到的是能量直接进入了胸口，会有刺痛感，又痛的很爽，哈哈。。那种刺痛的感觉，一直深入到我的后背。我就把水晶放在胸口不同的位置，感受水晶的能量和疗愈。
也许，最近用水晶比较多，所以身体也在不断的自己调整吧。
最近跟身体连接的主题，在胃部，这几天胃部也一直有反应，会有疼痛感。
我之前一直想要知道，我的胃怎么了。我时常把手放在胃部，让胃部感受到掌心的温度，我也时常和祂聊天，觉得以前让胃承担了太多，身体沉积了很多过往，我能感受到身体的每一个部位都没有任何怨言，他们总是竭尽所能的爱着我们。
我不再问我的胃，到底发生了什么，为什么会疼痛，我也不再急于消除这些疼痛。
我和身体，也许我们可以换一种相处的方式。
用全然的信任和耐心的陪伴。
我不再问原因，不再试图努力做点什么，来消除症状，
我允许所有的症状呈现，以及存在。
我信任身体会用祂自己的方式关照祂和我们。
今天和水晶连接的时候，我也是这样告诉水晶，感谢祂们来到我的身边，我愿意敞开，以及全然的信任。
我今天吃的很少，下午睡了很久，醒来煮上一锅粥，放了大米小米和藜麦。
粥煮好的时候，我正在画曼陀罗，就没有起身。
将近21点，我在犹豫，要不要切青菜，煮青菜粥。因为要洗刀和砧板，觉得麻烦。
也不是很饿，吃不吃也两可。
感觉了下我的胃，还是想要喝点热热的青菜粥，那就动手吧。
喝完之后，身体暖暖的。
我不再问身体怎么了，如同我们都不需要过问彼此的过去和细节。
而在这样的日常的琐碎之中，耐心细致的照料和陪伴。
如此，觉得甚好。
我知道，你会告诉我，照顾好身体，
然后，我说，你也是。
晚安，亲爱的，这是我第二天跟你道晚安。
我只是在呢喃自语，
如果你看了，就已经是一种见证和陪伴了，
因为我知道一定会有人看。
如果有什么信息能和你共鸣，
你从中看见了自己，
那就是另外的收获了。
如果你看懂了，
如果有什么信息能和你共鸣，
你从中看见了自己，
那就是另外的收获了。
如果你看懂了，
你从中看见了我，
还能有什么回应，
并且这回应我们还可以彼此共振，
并且这回应我们还可以彼此共振，
那就是更大的惊喜了。
没有无缘无故的遇见。
致敬未知。
没有无缘无故的遇见。
致敬未知。
Letter 4
今天妹妹自己一个人出去找房子住了，从来没有想过她自己会独立的完成一件事，虽然这件事她做的并不完美，但是一个从来没有独立完成过什么事的她做到这一步，在我这个姐姐的眼里就是一种成长。也可以说是在给自己交学费吧。
以前无论做什么事都是先去问妈妈的意见，那个时候觉得没有什么事情是妈妈解决不了的，可通过妹妹这件事情来说，其实妈妈并没有帮助我们太多的东西，她只是让我们明白了一些道理，从而在遇到类似的事情时该怎样去面对，而今天的我成为了当初的妈妈，可能她觉得我们姐妹两个不能在继续做温室的花朵，应该试着去长大，试着去面对一些本该属于我们这个年龄段该面对的事情。
这件事给我带来了很大的触动，突然发现其实我和妹妹比起来还不如她懂事，不如她……
人都说长姐如母，可是我做的并不称职，在很多事情上我想的还是差了很多，想想以前遇到事情的我会像一个被折断羽翼的小鸟没有自信在翱翔天际，每次都是妈妈的安慰鼓励 。这次换成了是我在安慰鼓励我的妹妹，看到她就看到了曾经的我，以前遇到事情不会去安慰她，更多的是指责，这次却和以往不同，选择了安慰与鼓励，这一刻我觉得自己变了，变的和以前不一样。
其实每次还是想回到妈妈的怀抱，觉得那是最坚强的后盾，无论多大的风雨 多大的险阻。在她的面前都是毛毛雨，而作为女儿的我却从来么有想过 她会不会累，会不会也有挺不住想休息的时候。
看着她渐白的头发，在昂贵的化妆品也遮盖不住岁月在她脸上留下的痕迹，好害怕她会突然之间有一天消失在这个世界世界上，无处可寻。