In the two years before the spring of my junior year of my colleage, I accomplished not a single thing of practical use. Wholly avoiding wholesome association with the opposite sex, diligence towards my studies, the discipline of my phisical body, and other activities directed towards becoming a capable member of society I intened isolated myself from women, abandoned my studies, and let my flesh fall into ruination. Even so, why is that I ceaselessly labored away, still anticipating that excellent arrangement?
I must inquire of the responsible party. Where is the person responsible?
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Today, I become this appearance, but words can say in front of you, I was not born with this piece of virtue.
It is not that I have always been in this condition.
Shortly after birth, when I would be pure perfection incarnate, he said to me was like a lovely light source's infancy, innocent smile makes mountain home full of love light. In contrast How about today? Even now I laugh, his face only Mephistopheles-like ominous smile. I look in the mirror, angry. Why would you come to such a fate? This is the liquidation of your life do?
I was born pure as the driven snow and as charming as the infant Prince Genji; with nary an impure thought in my head, my radiant smile spread the light of love across the hills and valleys of my hometown. I am doubtful whether that is still the case today. Each time that I look in a mirror I fly into a rage, a 大专栏 「四畳半神話大系」sking ‘Why have you become like this? Is this the sum of your current existence?’
Probably someone will say: Anyway, you're young, life has limitless possibilities.
There are those who say that I am still young, and that people are things that may yet change.
Not the kind of stupid thing under the sun. Young people can not be spoiled.
How ridiculous.
As the saying goes, "look at the age of three big", and I was twenty have one, In the near future, was born in this world nearly a quarter of a century, and to date, even if a young man trying to change his personality, do unnecessary effort, can do? If distortions barely has become stiff, standing in mid-air personality, at best, it is snapped to break it.
It is said that the child is the father of the man. And with this year, another one will be added to my twenty, and the end of my splendid quarter-century youth will soon approach. What outcome, then, would further clumsy efforts to change my personality bring about? At this stage, if I attempt to twist something that has already set and hardened, the most I’ll do is break it.
I have now dragged in front of their own, but ended his days. We can not turn a blind eye to this fact.
At this moment, I must pull myself upward into leading a respectable life. I must not avert my eyes from the grim reality that lies before me.
I firmly intend to keep your eyes open.
However, some terrible.
And yet, somehow, it is unbearable to look.