I've always been a nervous and thus cause people undue anxiety.
- On the one hand, there are a lot of things in parallel operation on my hand, I hope I can each do everything perfectly, but the reality is often, time and energy are limited, people really can not reach a magical superhuman function, so often led me in the gap each task context switches, I would easily form an overly intense anxiety;
- On the other hand, I often not good to express their opinions and ideas, the first thought is by virtue of their work overtime to complete and add a little more work, but the workload to the late discovery can not be completed, I can only help Some very naive way to express this discontent, thus living forced ourselves into an easy-tempered person, the result is always thankless.
The reflection of the anxiety stems from a recent on-line requires a C++test project. The project itself is not particularly important, but it is very urgent, need to do some testing before the index date of enactment. He began to receive a task, I think with their own technology to solve. But the beginning made a fatal mistake: For too underestimate the difficulty of the task, resulting in the latter part of the workload exceeds their expectations . After all, engaged in C++large-scale development projects, my experience was not enough done independently.
At the same time, more deadly is that I am responsible in hand there is another project is very urgent, need to be completed on the first version of the firm at the end of a line running in front of the same . Of course, during this period I also superimposed with a few other small tasks , and combined with the company during the office relocation , I was full participation, both as coolies and when labor, a little tired physically, mentally a little swinging.
The evening meal with some friends drink a little wine, a lot of thoughts. Think of this time has been depressed state of tension, suddenly felt the whole person close to collapse. I have always been partial blame a person, often a lot of things to try himself carrying, but think there are still a lot of work has not been completed, a lot of things that need urgent solution, which easily lead to stress and anxiety. I was thinking about what a particular person, if there is something not yet completed, tend to force yourself to have been immersed in the standby mode this task. Multi-threaded operating pressure continued in depressed me, sometimes not sleep at night, do not know what to think things, as illusory awake, my mind went blank, but very fresh.
I was very often admire those who can strategist, ease of control, they are often able to seamlessly free in a multitasking environment, so that everything settle, everything properly. I also want to assign these tasks to other colleagues, but look around, but more find themselves so helpless. I know this is not their own, and I know that the Earth will not stop because of me. When I want things to deal with other people when they find the need to spend more time and energy working on the details of communication with the docking, which has cost me more energy to do another thing, which in turn I further lead to tension and anxiety. I found myself over and over again in this cycle has been the pain, the room did not change any relief.
Some might say, not a big deal stood, anyway undone.
Sorry, I'm really not 'me'; if you know me.
So, now, I again to recall the anxiety, I think this is to comfort himself, but found that they spent a period of time, I have to go out and double the time to put down tasks done. It's a bit like an endless loop, accidentally fall into the room, we have no exit. I do not know the next time they met today this state of anxiety, I can learn a little smarter, a little become mature, or let yourself one, get some of tact. It is unfortunate that, at least from my point of view the current state, I still can not forgive myself into their own do not know myself , so now, I'm still sure I would have been so tense with anxiety forward, then forced himself on a dead end, success can only conquer their anxiety .
Came last, I am still me, I still cry Yangtianchangtan
Keep Calm and Code On.
The dark tomorrow continue to write code.
Original: Big Box keep calm and code on