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Go see friends, go out when the next heavy rain, drove to the old familiar places, to find a free parking space, usually by bike to the subway station, and today the rain was so big, can only do the buses. While waiting for the bus, watching intently forthright raindrops fell from the sky, and come and go electric vehicles and cars, special relaxation. For a long time I did not do a bus. Soon the car came, sat in the car watching greedily roadside plants and trees, even though I have been very familiar with the road, and looked at one after another, full of life of residential buildings. Which is home to what kind of person do? Particularly curious. Particularly when they get off the rain, somehow I looked around and saw a young man, with a AirPods, took out a large box from the car trunk, no umbrella. I stopped, so when he came to help him play a little umbrella. He said the sound thanks, with whom I did not say anything. Try umbrella support to him over there, I have this habit umbrella to others. To the subway, to recover umbrella and find a place where no one wants to rain umbrellas shake shake down. The guy told me to say thank you. Poof, Han Xie, why not lift a finger.
Back on the subway, Wulin there is always crowded. Finally my turn into the car, and around full of people, I stand at the door does not open. I like to watch a wide variety on the subway, people of all ages, there are very old, naughty children, and cherish the young minds of different. For example, I right-hand side of the meter eighty guy, with Samsung smart watches, Cartier rings, very refined temperament, the economy should be a superior married, his wife should be very beautiful, very good his dress sense, who has not very obvious muscles, he was playing mobile phone. I could not help but looked at him twice. Front of me was a girl of about six meters. Short hair, small waves and hot dyed golden color, two months ago should be dyed black hair has grown out, but did not affect the overall beauty of hair, perfect to bring out her slender neck, a studded silver necklace. Blue striped shirt is collarless white shirt, shirt cuffs great, very casual very casual, should be cotton. The back ramp of a brown bag, do not know what brand. We do not have shopping bags, with a golden bracelet, no ring, holding a bottle of drink for two-thirds of Hengda ice fountain. Light brown pants are loose linen pants, if it is Muji pants I'm not surprised, baggy trousers to pull up. The foot is black and white striped Converse, All Star classic lace section. The whole person exudes a casual atmosphere, listening to music with headphones, did not use micro-channel chat, casually shaking the toes, it is estimated that listening to music listening attentively. I looked at, NetEase cloud music. She just returned from shopping and it is what, it seems, are not, I could not guess.
People are very thin, very good looking shot from the side, his face suddenly something attracted me, but I do not know. Unfortunately, all the way back to me, very few times I could see her in profile. Initially inadvertently looked at her, then imagined a charming, has been watching her back. In order not to be found, but also turn his head and eyes to see other people, everyone is busy looking at mobile phone micro letter, or in a daze, no one sees me. I went to see her. After Shen Tangqiao Subway station, stop at the station rather directly to the College Road, particularly long period of time, I can quietly, undisturbed at her.
I saw the glass door on the opposite side of my face. I was laughing, thinking he's a boring guy, really rude to stare at other people. Then I see her face, see facial expressions. She knew I was watching her? I do not know.
Suddenly I realized that I had no heart after a long, long time, or even suspect that is not lost the ability to love, suffering love incompetent disease. Do not! I'm not in! She could easily struck my heartstrings, it quivering. My heart is not broken, but the person does not feel right. I would like to use her cell phone to take a picture, but it feels rude. She should have a partner now, after all, so delightful, the lotus-like natural beauty, even a kind of cool, but not male masculine handsome, but kind of independent, stubborn, proud of some handsome.
Approaching the station, she did not move mean, I think this should not stand. I have to go. I walked next to her right hand, did not dare look at her, waiting for the moment the doors open. Seems a little long time to open the door, I subconsciously looked at Apple Watch ease my tension, she probably saw it? Open the door, I marched, his long umbrella close behind, she wanted to leave the impression that, ha ha. After the station actually saw Xixi Wetland brand, all of a sudden dizzy, this is not what Wen Er Feng Tan intersection, a long way away from the Xixi Wetland, how is it? I'm going to PR the parking lot exit, obviously before there are signs of how gone? There are actually several places Xixi Wetland brand. I went out looking for a mouth, and do not know which intersections. There is a sense of direction to the ground.
Really wrong exit, and I Tam A mouth in abundance. To go to the C port. Regardless, first across the road. Just the green light, little went to the zebra crossing. Time suddenly stood still, greeted by a banner of yellow (should be) her umbrella. No, no, how is it? She also exported wrong? When approached she saw me, I do not know if I'll laugh was her first laugh, and she recognized me, laughing at me! She really looks good laugh! Her eyes would smile, mouth narrowed, I have not seen a smile, never seen at least from birth to now, is joyful smile, she is happy! I'm confused, my face should betray my heart. Just pass, I turned around, the green light has been countdown. How to do how to do. Should I go back, it will not be too surprising, if you want to contact, they will not think I'm a pervert. I counsel that moment, after all, I am not a boy, I should not want to contact her. I turn back to go. Traffic voice sounded behind. I can not help but turn his head back to look for her. She also looked back, waving at me, this is not my illusion, she waved to me! what happened? Everything all hell broke loose, No no! But she was gone, I should be a forward. Only mechanically numb to move forward, forget looking for a bicycle or public transport bus stand. My hands are shaking, the brain has stopped working. A huge sense of powerlessness surrounded me.
Mom egg, I never see her again! Hangzhou so damn big, there are so many people, I never see her again! Even heard her voice, not a stumbling start to introduce myself. What is this it? Stranger a face to face, smiled at each other on the left. But this matter of minutes, my heart from the shock to ecstasy to lose, I can not stand ups and downs. She may think of me as a curious passersby, right? Why is she smiled at me, still looking back, waved to me it? Hangzhou Why so big? Why are there so many people so many cars, and why! And she did not often take the subway, but also the wrong exit. Every day, the subway will come countless stranger's face, not her, even if I stood at the entrance, it may not be able to find her. She returned to the big crowd.
That moment, moving picture is blurred vision. A person looking for a stranger's face. Looking for a better existence.
I like her. So even if only a few stops time, even if only for a pass, even if only a smile, I can undoubtedly determine this. In the subway, I had a moment of fantasy that we can be together, I know this is a fantasy, not illegal.
"That's the best! Do not mention me, do not mention me." Chien said mouth mechanically, as if my heart were imprisoned in the dungeons of groping a match, just scratched, the match went out, and his eyes did not see piece and slide back the darkness. Such as boats greeted grazed the night, in a boat on the opposite catch a glimpse of the lights in the cabin is the dream did not forget his own face, not enough time to call out to each other as early as the distance. This moment is approaching, in opposition to the anti-appear across the remote.
I walked mechanically, I do not feel tired. I do not know how long to go see the bus bike, ride parking place. Sitting in the car slowly for a long time.
Start over. I can confirm that he is at least possible heart. The world is wonderful, its own rules of operation. I know that my silly idea, I unrequited love, I am bored in the end. But her smile in your mind, this smile made me warm.
My God, where are you.