2019, I was 20 years old. This year, back and forth, I experienced a lot of things, perhaps, the future will look very childish.
First, feeling it, he entered the university in 2017, With fear and longing, as well as home of joy and sadness. From then until now, they are two of four friendship toward the collapse, but also know who is really important in my heart, even if the surface can not see. 20-year-old this year, is the second paragraph of friendship, they prepared a surprise move and for my 19th birthday with my first love heal the pain, but I parted ways with them, and this the incident occurred more lethal than I imagined, those dark days, my heart is about to cause trauma many times I make illegal things, do not know how many times crying, past attempts to improve relations, but the there is then a man, then how do is useless. Fortunately, now I survived those dark days. But, now I am gay but more conflict, as if the door seal up the heart, others could not come, I can not get out. April, I was very unlucky, no, it seems since that time, have been very unlucky, also at that time, he appeared, dressed in coat mature, Wrap me up, yes, we are together, the fate of vaguely arrangements under.
Then it is physical, May 31, acute appendicitis enlargement, I became to me the first man on the operating table, all come as a surprise, but fortunately still Go On. I have family in the rapid unexpected came, always remember the phrase "to find the best hospitals," Yes, I thought I would be abandoned. Is forgotten before surgery or after surgery, director of the institute and several other students to contact me, I do not know where the results come, they and I have psychological problems, did a questionnaire inexplicable, but I was crying, how have psychological problems it, in fact I always knew I had, but I have been trying to suppress, or that I avoid the so-called psychological problems healthy ways, but, all along, I live okay.
Now I look like, should be mature than the previous appearance. Just more than a hint of indifference, not so much enthusiasm into feelings, it seems more than a silk selfish.
Next, I will look like this, to meet my junior year of life, to face more "things' are all experiences are good or bad.