During school
In the less than five years since I stepped into work, I have asked myself many times, what can I do if I stop developing one day? Believe me, this question has been bothering many people.
As soon as you enter the yard, the sea is as deep as the sea, and from then on, the world is a passerby. I remember going out to dinner with the academic committee once during school, and she asked me, if you didn't do software after graduation, what would you do? At that time, he answered "Writing" without hesitation! She seemed to be doubting her ears, "Did you mean writing"? "Yes"! When I was in middle school, I liked to write. At that time, my favorite writer was Shen Congwen, and my favorite novel was his "Border Town". During college, I always wanted to write a paradise like "Border Town", but every time I wrote it. Ba Jin's tone (Ba Jin is also one of my favorite writers), describes another cannibalistic etiquette, the indifference and sultry tendency among people. In those few years, I left about 400,000 tragic texts, which are still lying in a drawer in my hometown. Sometimes I think it's funny.
If the self-media platform appeared two years earlier, it might really change my life. Maybe I really wouldn’t take the road of coding. After I started using the self-media platform last year, the more I used it, the more I liked it. It's what I've been looking for during my school days! Why did he appear in my world so late? In the first two years, I didn't like programming very much, especially after I was bruised and bruised by the code abuse, I often listened to Shuimunianhua's songs, tapped the keyboard of my notebook, and pieced together my favorite sentences, so that I could find a little happiness in it. . In the past few years, more time has been spent on code improvement, and I have rarely written something I like.
Learning is like sailing against the current. If you don't advance, you will retreat. Nowadays, organizing language sometimes feels very weak. Are we really old, or are we all exhausted?
emergency medical treatment
On the eve of leaving school and looking for a job, my mother was still talking to me. She wanted me to stay in my hometown and let an aunt take me to do business. I can understand my mother's good intentions. She wants to keep her children by her side, and she does not want to I was suffering and tired outside, but at that moment I thought of one thing. When I went to school, someone in my hometown was gossiping, saying that I was not good at studying, and I kept wanting to go to school, which was a drag on my family. Later, my mother told me that as long as I wanted to go to school , you can go to school anytime, the family can afford it, and no one else cares about your children going to school.
From childhood to adulthood, I have been good at everything but not good at study. I have always liked school when I was not good at school. After so many years of graduation, I still like the atmosphere of school. If I chose to stay at home, I don’t know what some people would have done. Commenting on me behind my back, I don’t know what to say about my mother’s original judgment. In the end, I decided to come out. Even if I was only hungry, I would definitely not go back.
It's easy to come out, what can you do when you come out? I was tricked by a black intermediary when I was in a state of emergency. For more than four years, I never mentioned it to anyone. I always thought that I was a genius, but I was tricked by a black intermediary. It was hard to accept it. I was too young. After paying an agency fee of 800 yuan, I was fooled into a factory in Wujiang. When I entered, I saw a large group of people queuing up for a medical examination before joining the job, my God! Is this my future? Is this the way I'm going in the future?
After paying the tuition fee of 800 yuan, I learned some basic common sense and self-protection. Fortunately, I was not deceived into MLM. There is no way out, but where is my way? I can't think of a path that suits me. Since I don't have many choices, I can't waste what I learned in college for a few years (although I didn't learn anything in those years, ~~(>_<)~~), when I decided to engage in software At that time, I was very unmotivated. Can I find a job without knowing anything?
step into programming
From the time I left school to my first job, there was a half-year time difference. I was deceived by a training institution in this half-year. I never admit that I have trained. The most direct reason is that I left there. After that, more than half of our class could not explain encapsulation, inheritance, polymorphism, let alone those classes and objects. When I graduated, it seemed that only a few people paid tuition. After I joined my first company, I have experienced something even more uncomfortable than being cheated by a black agency. Before I joined the job, a buddy who had been in the job for many years told me that he didn’t know how to use java, and he still wanted to do Android. In one sentence, tears rolled in my eyes. , I am most afraid that the people around me will question me. I have also told them that no matter what I do in the future, as long as it is not too obvious, I will support it. But at that moment, what I waited for was a sentence of disgust, and at that moment, I also believed in the existence of Wan Jian through the heart. . .
That day, I asked myself thousands of times, am I really suitable for programming? What can I do without programming? It's been half a year since I left school, isn't it just for the job of programming? Just give up, do you really not regret it? Where did the confidence in high school go?
Programming, to put it bluntly, is not just 26 letters, and it is not 52 letters if you count upper and lower case, plus ten Arabic numerals, plus a few special symbols, isn't it just a few things, such a genius me How can you give up. . .
Although I think so, but this is to comfort myself, I have nothing in my heart, there is no way, learn slowly! During the first two years of my job, I often wondered, what the hell can I do if I don't do software? During this period, some people called me to do Taobao together, and some people called me to do farming together. I always felt that these were not suitable for me. I wrote too much code, and occasionally made something that I was satisfied with. That kind of joy from the inside out, let me Gradually, I fell in love with programming. For the past few years, I don’t have too many ideas. In addition to working hard, I mainly want to make an app of my own, preferably a pure platform.
near and future
Since I came to Shanghai, on the one hand, I wanted to exercise myself, and on the other hand, I wanted to eat some clean food, so I started to learn how to cook. The happiest thing was that last time I went home and taught my sister and sister-in-law how to make braised prawns, and they all ate them too. I'm very happy, but I know I can't be a chef. Hobbies and careers are two different things. I don't like the days of going around the kitchen every day. It's better to write code to be happy.
What can I do if I stop programming for a day? I really don't know, at least now I haven't thought of one that suits me better. Maybe, I will open a restaurant and cook the dishes I like to cook. I will only cook one or two dishes, and the chef will handle the rest. , I will learn a few dishes from time to time. As I just said, I don’t want to go around the kitchen every day, but I like all kinds of delicious food, all kinds of snacks, and I like to cook for the people around me. Although I am a fat man, I have always been open to eating, and I have always believed that my weight will not affect my flying height.
What can I do if I stop programming for a day? Perhaps, I will open a bookstore like a cat-like city in the sky, spend every day in the fragrance of books, talk and laugh with Confucian scholars, and have no white people in exchanges, it must be a very beautiful life, looking for the most beautiful scenery in the vast sea of books, Outline the most beautiful chapters with a pen, cast aside the eyes of the world, soar freely in the sky of words, there are immortals and couples here, wine and food are here, there are warriors guarding the frontier, and there are poems and distances here. , I'm happy to think about it, haha ^_^.
One is a foodie who likes to read books, another is a developer who likes to play games, such as fish and water, cold and warm self-awareness, slowly getting used to the current life, I can’t say whether it is good or bad, but I don’t want to break the status quo in the short term, recently I just want to Learn more, do something meaningful to you, and accomplish the four goals of life little by little.
At the end of the day, I wish myself a happy birthday, thank my parents for giving me life, my dear self, you have worked hard, ( ^__^ ) Hee hee...