Yesterday morning I went to drink jelly soup with my wife-this is Luoning's special rice, and Luoyang can't find it. Then I ran into a high school classmate who hadn't seen him in more than ten years. The face was still the same, but the classmate's hairline was ridiculously high and revealed something naked.
We did not recognize each other because we were really not familiar with each other. We did not stay in the same class for three years in high school. They looked at each other for a few times, but in the end no one spoke, they were probably thinking about each other's name desperately.
If you speak, but the name is wrong, it will be embarrassing. Although I have long hair and fluttering, I doubt whether my bangs can cover the embarrassment on my face.
I heard a special literary saying from a friend, called, "In the adult world, the best thing to miss is not to disturb ." Although it is more appropriate to use between lovers who are not available, it is used in the context of what has been said, but It is also very clever among students who are unfamiliar.
The classmate was sitting opposite us. He also had a friend. The two of them were eating and chatting, and they looked at me from time to time, as if they were hesitant to talk.
"I don't plan to go out anymore when I come back from National Day. My dad plans to invest 100,000 yuan to let me raise cattle at home." A friend of the classmate said.
"That's great, raising cattle is much more comfortable than floating outside, isn't it?" The classmate seemed to agree with his friend's words.
Hearing this, I couldn't help but raise my head and secretly observe the classmate's friend. Well, there is a golden necklace hanging around the sturdy neck, although it has been mostly covered by the collar, it still emits a dazzling light stubbornly.
"Raising cattle", I can't help but think of the past.
I have no experience in raising a lot of cows, but there are one or two cows (the cow produces two calves, and the calf sells them again). The cow among them has been with me for almost my entire childhood, even my youth, and spans a very large span. The relationship between me and it is deep, it is like the maverick pig described by Wang Xiaobo.
This cow has made a great contribution to my family's farming business. When the farm is busy, it pulls carts to cultivate the land, and produces calves in his spare time to promote economic development.
"Do you remember that when you were a kid, when we sold the first calf, you cried and threw the money on the ground and ran out for a long time."
This sentence was what my father said to me. Although I didn't admit it, to be honest, I remember it clearly.
Herding has almost become the only theme of my vacation, from elementary school to junior high school, to high school, and even to university.
When I was in elementary school, I put it together with my grandpa. He was responsible for telling me stories, and I was responsible for taking care of my grandpa's and my family's cattle (my father was separated after he got married).
When I was in junior high school, I put it together with my peers in the village. The cows graze on the hillside and we played cards at the foot of the hill. Sometimes the cards are so happy that they forget about the cows and have to look for them when they are going home.
There is a girl in the village. I have a good relationship with her, so the one thing I look forward to most every day is to graze with her.
When I was in high school, my peers stopped herding cows. I could only herd cows with children six or seven years younger than me. The age difference often makes me feel that I am a little superfluous, perhaps the cow in my family is superfluous.
In college, even children six or seven years younger than me stopped herding. Only me, still sticking to my post silently.
The long time between me and the cow is a conclusion drawn from it. There is another one. My family’s economic situation is very poor and I can’t get rid of the dependence on cattle. It was not until I joined the work that there was a huge improvement and that cattle was also sold.
When I was in college, I hated going home to herd cattle during the holidays. It was boring and had no playmates. But I had to go back because of the lack of productivity at home.
The parents are very hardworking, almost the hardest in the village. But the income from farm work can only support the life of our family, as well as my high tuition and living expenses.
There is actually a reason why people of the same age did not herd cattle early, because they dropped out of junior high school. For rural families, the expenditure for children to go to school is the biggest expenditure, accounting for almost 70% or even higher, which is not an exaggeration.
The biggest difference between me and my peers in the village is that I have been to university.
My parents are worthy of respect when it comes to providing me to school. No matter how hard and tired they are, they have given everything, but they have no regrets.
And the cow in my family really made a huge contribution. I sold it cruelly in 2009, more than ten years have passed since now, but there are still many pictures of it in my mind.
As for the words of my high school classmates, " raising cows in my hometown is much more comfortable than drifting outside. " I held a dubious attitude.
If raising cattle is a business that can be scaled up, I believe it. But whether it can be successful and earn money is actually more difficult.
I have read a book of "Winter Pasture" written by Li Juan. It took her four months to describe the Kazakh people's winter pasture from a close distance.
The remote Altay winter pasture, in the wilderness where "there is almost no foreign aid, people's consciousness of survival is all nervous, all urgent and abnormal", living in the den of sheep dung, but only eat one dinner a day, three or four Eat meat once a day, and dry naan with hot tea the rest of the time. In four months, Li Juan lost less than 80 jin.
Li Juan said in the book:
Lambs are picked in spring, fattened in summer, bred in autumn and bred in winter. The life of a sheep is a year of a shepherd, what about the life of a shepherd? This home that stretches for thousands of miles, the most hidden and tiny folds of the earth, each of the narrowest and fragile shelters... Youth, wealth, love, and hope are all silent.
In my opinion, raising cattle and sheep is not an easy task, even with the help of modern tools.
Choosing to float outside or choose to go back to my hometown to develop is never easy to get the answer. Feeling uncomfortable depends on the steelyard in my heart.
Throwing away the seventeen years of living in the county and the countryside, I have lived in Luoyang for seven years, in Suzhou for more than three years, in Zhengzhou for two years, and in Pingdingshan for one year.
Looking back on these past lives, I dare not say which is good and which is bad. I can only say that experience is the most important thing. Every place has its warmth, and there are people and things worthy of being missed .
If you are tired outside, go home; if you are tired at home, go out, be determined, don't hesitate.
PS: Last night, I drove back to Luoyang from the county seat alone. In the endless dark night, with the tire noise on the highway, I felt the freedom of my soul. The beauty of transportation is that it can take you to a place you want to go to rest, and when you are tired or annoyed, it can take you away immediately.
PPS: By the way, I recommend a download of the conscience book list I found on GitHub:
https://github.com/itwanger/JavaBooks
Reading more books helps to upgrade the way of thinking, and you can think independently when you encounter problems (escape